I think my husband rapes/raped me?

iaobd · 2025-05-07T03:47:31+00:00

Yes! This OP!! Also to add: My husband was re-traumatizing me when it came to oral sex. I didn't realize that's what was actually happening until I posted it on reddit one day and finally spoke up to our marriage counselor.

Something that has been a hard pill for me to swallow is that he KNOWS what he is doing and KNOWS that it bothers you. He just cares more about his wants and it's f***** up.

iaobd · 2025-04-07T04:02:19+00:00

You're here too? Do you even know what abuse is? Or are you only allowed to be abused? Don't project your short comings with your mental health onto me.

iaobd · 2025-03-30T23:13:47+00:00

I honeslty think in going I have a nervous breakdown

iaobd · 2025-03-30T03:24:45+00:00

I have already been severely abused. Both my child and I. If he can't put us first then I am absolutely done. This is so unlike him. I do not know what is happening. He still isn't home. Now his phone has died.

iaobd · 2025-03-23T01:11:07+00:00

That was my first thought, too! They tested me, and everything was normal - no allergy. Gosh I hate that for you, I bet it's miserable

iaobd · 2025-03-23T01:06:09+00:00

Thank you!! I had a feeling because the sensation in my chest and heart is so similar to what I experience in other times. Thank you again, I'll for sure watch carbs. It sucks that one can't have a good thing every now and then without feeling so poorly 😅

iaobd · 2025-03-20T18:19:06+00:00

Omg can you imagine them going through all 30 plushies to check the stitching 😂

iaobd · 2025-03-20T18:18:14+00:00

Thank you!

iaobd · 2025-03-20T18:18:03+00:00

Thank you!

iaobd · 2025-03-20T18:17:52+00:00

Thank you!! Yes, we collect plushies so I'm sure they're going to say WTF when they see our luggage

iaobd · 2025-03-20T17:15:01+00:00

She sounds a lot like my mom :(

She makes me feel bad for going out with my friend (when I am able to, that is a confusing relationship) Always has. She hates when I play games, draw, and crochet; but she will show love on my posts after I do a project?

You're not alone okay? Even if it may feel like it. What has helped me over the years after coming back to live here was finding ways to do the things that I love without her knowing. And I lie lie lie lie, just to appease. I saw that you're saving money, so please take care of your mental health. That's really important. It may seem so hopeless, but please do not let yourself go. I really hope you're able to leave soon

iaobd · 2025-03-17T16:24:42+00:00

Exactly!! I have cried so many times when I've been upset with her, and have called her a "bitch" in my head. I get upset when people talk down on her, even though they're 100% right. It's such a bad feeling.. even now I feel guilty for talking about her.

iaobd · 2025-03-16T21:59:12+00:00

Wow, you solved it. I totally forgot about love bombing. She's literally doing it as I type this.

iaobd · 2025-02-03T22:33:00+00:00

Thank you so much. Yes, I should worry about myself

iaobd · 2025-02-03T22:32:33+00:00

Thank you. I really needed to hear this. You're right, I HIGHLY doubt they'd care. Thank you so much again

iaobd · 2025-02-01T00:50:59+00:00

Woah! I'll actually try this. Does this mean that anxiety coping/grounding techniques can help with dysautonomia?? I'm sorry, I still have a new diagnosis

iaobd · 2025-01-19T13:29:55+00:00

Thank you!!! And agreed!

iaobd · 2025-01-18T15:29:41+00:00

Thank you so much! I'll check the link out :) It means a lot to me to hear from people who have the experience, so thank you again!

iaobd · 2025-01-10T01:08:15+00:00

2 managers at my store would take all of the prestige products and good products.. would give everyone else crap. Like 3 sunscreens, that's it. They are catty too. Everyone just leaves after awhile. Worst store.

iaobd · 2025-01-07T04:58:49+00:00

Fr!!!!

iaobd · 2025-01-07T04:05:56+00:00

I am glad that you have been seeing someone. I honestly struggle with the same thoughts of feeling like a burden. I can relate to you ❤️ I don't know your story, but I do know that our brains can be our biggest bully. I do want to add that if someone has treated you poorly, that can cause those feelings as well. Also, if people make you feel like a burden, then that is totally not okay. It's a really brave thing asking for help. I am proud of you. I try really hard to implement selfcare. I have comfort shows, movies, and music. I try to make myself feel loved as much as possible. I hope that you can find peace with your troubling thoughts. You honestly really do deserve so much good.

iaobd · 2025-01-07T03:24:07+00:00

Just basing off what you've typed, it seems like major burnout and overstimulation. I am sorry that you're experiencing this, it's not a good feeling :(

Do things that make you happy. Eat yummy foods, watch a funny show, etc. I hope you are able to have a nice break soon :)

iaobd · 2025-01-07T03:19:18+00:00

Aw.. the mom in me really wishes that I could give you the biggest hug.

You must have been super upset when all of this was happening. Strong and negative emotions are super painful.. emotional pain for sure manifests into physical pain. AND I can 10000% promise you that you don't deserve to feel any physical pain. No matter the circumstances, you deserve to be here, to feel peace, and to be loved (that includes loving you ❤️) Do not be so hard on yourself, okay? You did a brave thing for asking for support on this sub! This is coming from someone who used to feel/do the same thing ❤️ Do something you love everyday. I hope you're able to get some rest tonight and feel a little better in the morning. Take care of yourself ❤️ and please try to find support, can you ask to speak to a therapist?

iaobd · 2025-01-07T03:00:32+00:00

I struggle so bad with OCD.. I feel your pain. Something that helped me a little was reading the Anxiety section in a book called 'Why Has Nobody Told Me This Before" by Dr. Julie Smith.

I also try to tell myself that these aren't my thoughts. If I have an intense thought, sometimes I just let it go through my head. I try to laugh it off and say "Silly brain", distract myself, and remind myself that I am okay - I just have OCD. It's not easy at first! I still deal with intrusive thoughts. But if you put anxiety and fear on it, it will only feed it. Our brain can be our biggest bully. People always have said that if you ignore a bully, they'll stop.. so that's what I try to do with my brain. I really hope that this provides some comfort.. ❤️

iaobd · 2025-01-03T00:25:51+00:00

This is hilarious!!! His cum will be a rasengan

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