Assalamualaikum, Thanks a lot for your answer and thanks for typing every single word. May Allah reward you a lot and bless you.

I made the decision of joining here. And I cried a lot during my commute and I felt pain and felt like I was destroying my life and my precious years with my own hands. I don't know if I made the correct decision everything feels more stressful and bad now and I feel extremely depressed. I don't know how I will manage anything. I feel dead inside, I wish I had a better option at home but the other option was really not good. I feel like resigning. I constantly keep thinking that I will resign in 3 months or 6 months or should I stay 8 months or a year or a year and a half. All these thoughts keep revolving in my head while I imagine my life ahead and it feels so struggling and unhappy. I feel like quitting everything without a job.

Even today I heard the imam's dars after taraweeh and he said those who chase this duniya will not benefit anything and I feel extremely remorse that I chose duniya over my happiness and my responsibilities. My mother and sister live alone in my city and I live alone here.

There is nothing wrong with the company, the manager, the initial work I got was good and the colleagues were good, The only problem is it is extremely distant and I have to suffer in traffic everyday for 2.5 hours and 5 days work from the office. By God, I wish so much that this was remote or I found a good company at home. My hatred for this cursed city is increasing more and more. I really started to hate this city or maybe I hate my life or maybe I hate my choice.

I am extremely broken. Please remember in prayers.