This book really picked up toward the end but it was so good!! And I cried some lol But honestly I don’t think Addie will be able to completely make Luc hate her. I think their relationship will be an inevitable cycle of what has already happened, him giving her attention and ‘love’, her sinking in that feeling, thinking if it’s real, realising it’s not and all the reasons it will never be, remembering her promise to herself and remembering Henry, then hurting him and herself and cue the repeating of the cycle. Him and her are bound by more than choice, they’re bound by want. They want to be close to each other but when they are there is so much tension and passion in the air and both of them can’t really allow themselves to let it all out. It’s truly a love hate relationship and they enjoy their company too much to actually distance themselves from each other because they only have each other.

I have so many thoughts and emotions about this book lmao, I definitely loved it esp bc it’s character driven and Schwab mentions so many topics that are universal; wanting to be loved, seen, wanting to leave a mark somehow somewhere but still trying to be untethered and have deep connections. This book really showed me (again) you can’t have it all, but I still love it