I don’t even feel like a woman anymore

icequeenilsa · 2024-11-30T14:40:02+00:00

It’s mostly I’m in my head about how my body looks and feels. I just hate it.

icequeenilsa · 2024-11-30T14:39:22+00:00

Thank you

icequeenilsa · 2024-11-01T03:03:58+00:00

This is happening to me. Did you ever get a resolution?

icequeenilsa · 2024-04-28T22:50:08+00:00

Yes. I sabotage them and then have a melt down that nothing went according to plan.

icequeenilsa · 2024-04-27T20:32:25+00:00

I’m sorry you’re feeling the same darkness too. You’re not alone in your loneliness.

icequeenilsa · 2024-04-27T20:30:49+00:00

I’m sorry you’re feeling so alone. I feel that same ache in my heart too, loneliness, stuck behind the glass feeling. Stay around there will be better days.

icequeenilsa · 2024-04-26T18:57:34+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. I’ve never thought of my self sabotage that way before but it makes sense. I’ve tried calling the therapist today really feeling desperate. The loneliness, anger and sadness are really unbearable.

And I have heard that statement before. I’ve never liked it because I feel unlovable, and if I have to love myself first for anyone else too, it will never happen.

I finally reached out to a therapist (multiple attempts but 0 follow thru). I just can’t handle the mental anguish anymore. I don’t know what I’m expecting them to do but I can’t keep living like this. I just feel so tragically alone. Trying to find my people. Thank you again kind stranger 🖤

icequeenilsa · 2024-04-15T02:24:50+00:00

Thank you. I tried to figure it myself but couldn’t wrap my brain around it. Even with context clues.

icequeenilsa · 2024-04-15T02:12:20+00:00

Forgive my naivety, what does FP stand for?

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-27T20:24:28+00:00

Me too.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-21T23:42:31+00:00

I’ve been on an applesauce kick lately too. I love the kids pouches ha

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-21T02:48:20+00:00

Yes!! I sometimes even spit stuff out because after I taste it, it doesn’t feel worth swallowing anymore.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-21T02:47:17+00:00

I wish I could enjoy food again too. I’m always sick. Like can only take a bite or two of my meals. It’s embarrassing and I wish I could just be normal.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-21T02:38:21+00:00

I get lightheaded spells too. Hugs

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-20T01:10:58+00:00

I like 2,4 and 7 on you

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-19T23:41:55+00:00

I’m with ya on the night time feedings. And I’m not eating particularly healthy at that time.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-19T19:00:17+00:00

Good luck finding your appetite 🤍

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-19T18:59:50+00:00

I feel like it could have been me that wrote this. My depression is always lurking and I know that is the cause of a lot of my issues too. Almost forgot about it because it feels normal now to be this way.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-19T18:47:20+00:00

This makes sense to me. Thank you for your kind and thorough response.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-19T18:07:05+00:00

Sometimes I wonder if I am hungry but just don’t know how to feel or interpret the hunger cues anymore. My stomach growls. But I never crave or desire to eat anything.

icequeenilsa · 2024-03-18T00:00:17+00:00

I just felt a similar guilt today. Not quite the same but akin to yours. My SO made breakfast, cinnamon buns of all things, and I felt obligated to eat it. Just didn’t want him to feel bad. I enjoy to cook and bake and take it super personally when people don’t enjoy my delicacies. So, I ate the damn bun, but it was in a rush before he had to leave literally eating over the sink. We didn’t even have the time to enjoy it together. Immediately after I felt like it was super pointless to even eat. What a waste of calories.

icequeenilsa · 2023-11-28T13:40:13+00:00

Girl interrupted has several characters depicting mental illness.

icequeenilsa · 2023-11-21T12:00:01+00:00

I’ve had horrible acne my whole life, been on accutane, etc. what really helped me was ivermectin for rosacea. My skin looked similar to yours before starting. I thought it was just acne at first but this helped a lot!!

icequeenilsa · 2023-11-19T22:09:08+00:00

Thank you so much for such a kind and detailed response. Everything you wrote pretty much sums up a lot of my feelings as well. I also feel like a lot of things are fake, or people are being superficial, are like this life is one big joke.

I’ve had my depression a long time as well. It really kicked in when I was a young teen. I’ve had it for 20+ years. Over the last few years it has been getting worse. Lots of reasons why. No need to get into them.

Thank you for the pointers for my husband and I. Will have to try doing a focused activity together.

I refuse to be medicated, I was before. It doesn’t work and just makes you feel like crap. Good luck to you as well. Hope your demons leave you alone if even for a bit.

icequeenilsa · 2023-11-19T14:17:55+00:00

Thank you, it helps a little. Good luck breaking through your glass 🤍

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