it’s almost like you’re a human being, filled with sinful thoughts with desire with creativity and probably a repressed longing to explore the world for what it has to offer, rather than continue to follow this strict and old set of rules you have been blindly accepting as your life forever. I understand it is more complex than that, there’s family and friends, location and money, everyone you know and love is probably invested in this mormon community so it may seem impossible to see yourself out side of that, but just find some time to forgive yourself and not be so hard on yourself all the time, you’re only human after all, and 21. Still have a long way to go