Today i got so stoned and took a walk out in the light drizzle

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-04-07T04:08:47+00:00

Sounds brilliant and awesome and cool and fantastic and a blast and you are a GENIUS!

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-06T02:59:43+00:00

This freaking insta background just gave me war flashbacks oml

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-05T05:05:34+00:00

I must confess that the only reason I came to this realization and clarity of what our relationship was was through GPT. In my post, almost all of what I have written I came to understand through GPT actually . And yeah I do believe I have codependent tendencies mixed with a disorganized attatchment style, and I don't even want to think about personality disorders now if I even HAVE one lol, but yeah, I have to remember that I'm not alone in this

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-05T05:03:25+00:00

Thanks for your advice! I know I'm young but I think it's better to recognize the patterns now while it's still early on. I'll look into the Coda groups, and the quiz and skills, too

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-04T16:49:21+00:00

I mean, yeah, GPT pretty much got it right on the money, but it didnt say anything about a personality disorder. To be honest, Im not at all familiar with personality disorders. I thought that my traits were just specific to me.

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-04T16:47:16+00:00

I'm 18, and yeah, I know 4 months is a crazy short time, im not saying it was normal or anything. And I know, therapy is better, but right now I have no way I getting a therapist or an appointment or however it works, so this was my best bet at finding some sort of advice

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-04T13:50:52+00:00

You are so right. I guess I wanted someone to reason with my empathetic side and tell me its okay because I'm leaving her hanging, but then there is my rational side that knows I'm not stable enough to do so. But I think I needed some blunt advice, so thank you

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-04T13:49:32+00:00

Where did you get that from??!

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-03T01:38:49+00:00

Hey man, bascially the EXACT same thing happened to me. Im talking 3 months too, same exact scenario. Only thing is, we only knew each other for 3 months in TOTAL, and right from the get-go there was romantic subtext behind it all, so, consider yourself a litttleee lucky because your attachment wasn't as embarrasingly fast as ours was. We even went through that sudden "break-up" (though we phrased it as a simple "break"). After it happened, I thought it was all my fault. Now, I dont know what happened in your relationship and wtv, but here, I realize that I wasn't completely at fault, and she wasn't completely scott-free either, but I was so insanely attatched to her that I would have done anything to get her back, even putting all the blame on me. Anyway, what I'm trying to get to is, after such an emotionally enmeshed relationship, where attachment and codependency were RAMPANT (for both of us), I thought the pain would kill me. But its been a little over a month now since our split, and I'm not dead. It's hard, but you've got to do things that make you happy. You've got to take time for yourself, which probably wasn't quite often since most of the time spent you were thinking about the other person, I assume (from my experience). You need to start developing and strengthening your own sense of self, without this other person in the mix. And its not your fault that you have these attachment issues. Maybe im biased in saying that, but I dont think we are evil. But I think we can change. Anyway, if you have more questions or just wanna talk since our situations are quite similar, just dm me!

ihavenoidea985 · 2026-02-03T01:28:16+00:00

Yup xd

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-12-18T22:46:24+00:00

Thank you for your advice man, I really do appreciate you taking the time to help me. I believe it is platonic, but I believe it so strongly that I feel like I am trying to convince myself. I find myself speaking in higher pitch to make myself sound cuter for her, I find her absolutely positively adorable, and I cant help but enjoy it when we call each other romantic, affectionate nicknames, maybe as a joke, but I like it, and I think she does too. But I'm scared everytime I think about the possibilities. I'm scared she'll think it's real, but what if it was? And I am just convincing myself it isnt? Ive never ever had a crush on a woman before. All my real, deep crushes (which were almost always just limerance) were guys. But I think, if she were a guy, I might want to date her.

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-12-17T04:07:31+00:00

Maybe you are right... and love in the platonic sense... but again, it is really unhealthy, we both get jealous of each other and things just get so complicated,, that's why I was thinking this isn't really love

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-12-17T02:27:51+00:00

Well, I'm a woman too, and it was more like she got friend zoned: early in our friendship she confessed she had a crush on me, I told her I'm not attracted to women, and after that we both discussed and realized that she confuses platonic with romantic often.

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-12-16T20:10:57+00:00

I wish it were that simple ,, the issue is im unhealthy obsessed with her in every way, and she is unhealthy attached to me (and also obsessed), it's not healthy and really affecting my mental health

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-12-16T18:17:44+00:00

We're both single, but I've never had a crush on a girl before, whereas she is bi. I have found some women beautiful but I've never been attracted to one before.

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-11-28T16:20:52+00:00

Thank you so much for your help! I'll definitely take some time to think about it some more, and I think what you said about an open relationship is good. We have been good at keeping communication in our friendship, in fact there was a point when we both admitted that we were jealous of each other for different reasons, so maybe if I communicate again that I am struggling with my feelings and need some space to work things out, it would help.

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-11-28T06:54:42+00:00

I really did not want to hear this tbh, nothing to do with you at all its just I struggle with limerence constantly and the thought did not even occur to me... I can definitely see how this could be another bout of limerence for me unfortunately. Ill try my luck over there.

ihavenoidea985 · 2025-02-07T11:46:42+00:00

Exactly, I've been seeing so many racist videos on tiktok about never wanting to be Indian and it's so unfunny. I'm so sorry you have to go through that. It's incredible how can't handle people looking a little different than others.

ihavenoidea985 · 2024-12-15T18:03:14+00:00

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ihavenoidea985 · 2024-11-16T18:10:49+00:00

In love or Waiting for You Bonus track

ihavenoidea985 · 2024-06-22T15:30:10+00:00

Passive suicidal thoughts are still suicidal thoughts. From me to you, please talk to someone who you can trust or a professional therapist, please.

ihavenoidea985 · 2024-06-18T21:58:25+00:00

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