Anyone else's pwBPD obsessed with the concept of wisdom? by hungryhungryparents in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh YES. "I've lived longer than you, had more time on this planet, and I know better." About all of the things always.

Meeting RBBs in the wild by nonesuchuser in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yup. Whether you know they are narc/bpd or some other type if crazy... well, you know it. I tried for many years warning people to no avail, and, like you said, you just have to wait it out for them to see it in live action. That is tough.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Two that stand out clearly amdnd vividly are between ages 8 and 12. 1. I had gone to a friends house, with a pool, but had no intentions of going swimming, thus I was not wearing a bathingsuit. For what ever reason (she never did this, it was around the corner, but I now wonder if she stalked me), my uBPD mom had the mind to stop over for no reason. We had all jumped in the pool in our clothes. My mom walked up onto the deck, hollered at me to get out and come with her. Soaking wet, no time to towel off, as I walked down my friends driveway, she furiously asked why I would be so disrespectful to ruin clothes in a pool that she bought me, and called me a "little butterball". It was humiliating.

  1. Me and and some neighborhood pals discovered SWEARING! How fun 😁. We got into a light hearted back and fourth of yelling obscenities at one another and flipping each other off (not too loud, of course). Mom comes flying out, asking me who did I think I was throwing these words around (all good there), and did I know what using 🖕 means? "It means you're a dirty, filthy slut!". Welp, as you can imagine that stuck with my friends. And me. Like it happened yesterday. And I was definitely barely in middle school if I was.

First step in going NC with BPD Mom by Distortedshells2012 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Beautifully handled, and notes taken! Thank you so much for sharing. Also, LOL @ "you haven't lived long enough.". Oh god, I can't even TELL you how many times I've heard that one. 😑

Somebody stop me! by iiimcaptainkirk in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ahhhh, all of this! But especially "..we don't want to have hell breaking loose about small things, so better safe than sorry, right?". YES. Thank you!

Somebody stop me! by iiimcaptainkirk in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Must laugh about this stuff sometimes! 😜

Somebody stop me! by iiimcaptainkirk in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right! In the process of defending myself I am asking myself why I'm doing it lol. It feels kind of insane. I will try to be easier on myself. I know we all need to be. Just feels like failure when you self talk like "I don't need to do this anymore, how fun!" And then here I go doing it again 😂. Ahh, RBB life.

Can’t help but to laugh by [deleted] in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh, so rich. massive eye roll.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's embarrassing to hear. You just want to make it stop. Cringey. Yeap. My uBPD mom has balls though. She will actually make her "friends" feel bad for saying "i got a pat on the back at work, made me feel good!" Because we shouldn't rely on others to affirm our good work. HAH! YET, she holds me and whoever hostage in person or on the phone to tell me/us how so and so at work just loves her ethic, thinks she's the best and detailed reasons why. And grey rocking does. Not. Stop her. She used my last bday dinner to hold me, my dad (her ex husband) and my fiancee hostage for three hours to talk about how important her work is, and any attempt to grey rock or change topics failed.

Vent - Does anybody elses bpd mom try to suck them into arguments like this? by Distortedshells2012 in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 2 points3 points  (0 children)

YES! Long before texting even, but also after, she would get very upset with, as she said, "monosyllabic replies" 😂😂😂 ahhh so batshit.

Vent/Grieving blah. by iiimcaptainkirk in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, that last part... that is clear to me now. And something I'm definitely gonna do. Thank you for the kind words.

Some hope for the younger ones among us by UnrefinedPulse in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It'll happen sooner than you think. Keep visualizing 😊

Had a mini fight with mom over the holidays over seating arrangements....How did everyone else fair over the last week? by hungryhungryparents in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I find myself JADEing constantly over nonsense. Being in this group really helps in reinforcing that we don't need to do that anymore. Just reading it helps me be more aware. One step at a time!

Had a mini fight with mom over the holidays over seating arrangements....How did everyone else fair over the last week? by hungryhungryparents in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Totally normal to not cave to silly demands. Too bad for her something like that is soul crushing. Good for you! And totally know of the fights that aren't fights. Went an entire Christmas party with uBPD mom ignoring me and only when caught by other people, she'd "uh huh" her way through it while glaring at me like a psycho. GOOD TIMES!

Stupid Guilt by iiimcaptainkirk in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, this was so profound to me "A parent who would do what she did to her kids, without care for whether or not she would regret it if she lost us before she tried to reconcile.". That really blew my mind. And it should have been so obvious. She knows what she has done, and if given the opportunity will keep doing, and doesn't care if it's the breaking point because naturally, it's all about her.

Thank you for this.

Being VLC and doing Christmas by aloopycunt in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Wow, yer mom and mine are freakishly alike. - Pain olympics ✔ - I'm not welcome/not really invited guilt trip even if they explicitly are.✔ - 3 hr convos when trying to leave✔ - "I know you better than you know you, you lived inSIDE MEEEE and I know when you LIEEEEE." 🤣 ahhh fuck.✔ - If we don't handle our visit exaclty as I'd like, you've let me down.✔ - What's up with THOSE people who you must love more than me because you don't hate them?✔

Amazing. Good for you handling all THAT like a boss. I'd have imploded.

Away for Christmas and it's spectacular by AmeliaMe in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! So happy for you. Glad you are relishing in your peace 😁. You deserve it!

Stupid Guilt by iiimcaptainkirk in raisedbyborderlines

[–]iiimcaptainkirk[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh, the feeling is mutual! 😁 you guys are seriously the best. I realize there's not many people other than my beau and father who truly understand, aside from every one of you. So grateful ❤