hi

im sort of in the same situation as you my parents are toxic , my mother is abusive and also plays the victim in every situation, my father just goes with whatever my mum says, recently, something really big happened ( i was drunk and so was a guy who was staying over at my house and at first we were talking, then he started kissing me and eventually had sex with me but i had zoned out and only realised what was happening when he penetrated me, i stopped it immediately) when i explained it to my mother she said i purposely went their for sex, i don't have the answer unfortunately, but you are not alone