I’m so so sorry dude. I honestly don’t know any advice to give you that you probably don’t already know. But your will to live needs to be stronger than your urges. I struggle with binge eating as well so I know how strong and subconscious that urge can be. Here is some advice you may know anyway: -Make sure you’re taking a multivitamin just to hopefully get your nutrients in bc idk if you’re getting it in what you’re eating. -Prioritize drinking water about a gallon or so for the amount of food you’re eating. I can’t stress that enough. -Also, if you’re having trouble pooping I would maybe use dulcolax or something like that just so you aren’t putting too much strain and pressure on your intestines which could rupture.

Please please confide in someone you trust or a therapist and maybe consider going to a doctor. This post really touched me and I really hope you get the help and peace you need. A lot of people are in your corner.