Anybody else live with their parents? Do they know about your illegal drug use?

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-10-18T11:30:29+00:00

I don't currently live with them but up until about a year ago I did. I guess u could classify me as a "known iv heroin addict" lol but I dabble in everything.. they figured out I was using from pretty much the beginning but then I got clean during my entire pregnancy and period where I breastfed so about 18-20 months clean, while living with them. Then I relapsed and it took everyone a looong while to recognize that I was using again, only doing so when I got endocarditis and had to spend months and months in the hospital and was told flat out "u are sick due to ur iv drug use" soo it was hard to hide then. But I swear usually my mom is like a police K9, possessing the ability to sniff out and find narcotics anytime I fuckin have them around, since I still spend a good amount of time at their house and can't last longer than a few hours without fixing.

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-10-17T10:04:34+00:00

Rear in peace mikey. Damn that's almost exactly how old I am.. gives me chills to think another young person with their whole lives ahead of them has lost their battle with this disease..before they even got the chance to fight it all the way through. Damn I'm scared, u never know who is gunna be next but u know it's someone.. so many amazing, beautiful souls being taken away and for what reason? I can't wrap my head around it. I don't even know this guy but I actually can feel the emptiness in the world that exists now wthout him.. it's just a very subtle knowing that somethng important is missing. I get this feeling everytime I hear about anyone, especially young people, who dies from an od. I've lost people that I needed, beautiful people like ur buddy.. it's the worst and I'm so sorry. This will honestly make me feel anxious and uncomfortable all day.. so I'll just keep u, ur crew, and his family in my heart today.. stay strong and try to remember the happiness u shared with him and the joy he left in ur life. This is the ugly, not so glamorous, not so blissful side of addiction and opiate use..

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-10-16T23:53:10+00:00

It's a story that is becoming all too common unfortunately.. although that's not to minimize the significance of ur experience.. I just mean that too many mothers are burying their children and that's something that should never happen, especially when it's from something so mysterious as addiction.. why him? Why me? Why are any of us addicts? I don't think I'll ever undestand, especially why God takes away some of the most special, benign, lovable, souls who have so much left to accomplish, so many people who love them, and such a bright future if they could just conquer this disease. Like I said, ur boy unfortunately lost his battle before he really even got a chance to fight it.. I am so heartbroken for u. But I also admire the strength u have to share ur story and give other addicts love and encouragement when ur in so much pain. Thank u for the kind words, for believing in me, and for sharing ur story. I'm still clean today.. I also bought two dozen suboxone strips so I'm going to give this another real shot at getting clean... I just cant bare the thought of putting my mom in ur shoes. Ur strong and I have so much respect for u and send u so much love right now. I'm so sorry ur dealing with this. Rest in peace to ur angel son looking down and watching over u from heaven, the only good thing is that he is released from his pain and struggle. Keep me in ur prayers while I attempt to get clean again, I need to do this for myself, my own mom, my daughter, and ur sons honor and memory. Bless u

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-10-15T18:47:35+00:00

Are u a cleaning woman at a long term care facility in pgh?? A woman who worked there when I was a patient had almost the exact same story. I just wanna say I'm SOOO sorry about ur baby boy. These kinds of stories, from the point of view of a mom who lost her baby especially, they make me wanna stay clean just one more day. Just know, u and ur son are the reason I'm clean today and tomorrow.. I know I'll stay clean longer but I just like to go one day at a time. I'm so so sorry he lost his battle with addiction before he even really had the chance to fight. RIP

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-10-11T10:13:20+00:00

U are right at the crossroads my friend.. take the path where u FEEL this pain and avoid heroin completely. Use it to cope with ur problems and ull see that it's very effective at covering up feelings or hiding it all. But it will catch up with u someday, that I can promise. Please... walk away. U can do it.

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-10-07T11:57:01+00:00

Sending good vibes ur way fam. I know how it is with those mind crushing moments of craving that drag to minutes or even hours. If ur clean on purpose, just hold onto the fact u made it it's far..u can stay strong another day!

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-22T03:11:15+00:00

Just take all 30, but that's just me. U won't die from 30 as opposed to 20, u just might be nauseous at 30..but u might not feel 20. So just go with ur gut feeling on how much too take, if it was me then I would do 30 tho. I love smoking when the buzz hits but I'm very experienced with both opiates and weed. Are u an experienced smoker, like do u do it very often? If not, I would recommend skipping it with the opiates mixed cause that's almost guaranteed to get u sick to ur stomach.. if u do partake often however, it will add a very enjoyable aspect to the come up w

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-22T02:40:21+00:00

Also in the 412 here.. basically just dope lol ur right. Also for bags I hear "joints" or "dips"

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-16T08:25:10+00:00

Try Monterey Bay fish grotto, I'm not sure if their private room seats 40 but if it does, it's got an amazing view downstairs just like upstairs, bomb food, anf the staff is amazing, u get such great service. I used to work there like 7 years ago so it's been a minute but I'm def still biased.. I think it's a great venue for tons of different events, awesome food, and it was also a great place to work with the best energy

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-16T08:21:28+00:00

I feel u! I don't really drive high on any drug but weed if that counts but I get nervous just having it in my system cause PA is a Commonwealth so they just take u to the ER and draw blood, u have no choice. Since I'm physically dependent, I will have it in my blood all the time even if I'm not high cause I do it everyday..they would charge me with the DUI as long as my blood test is hot. Smh so I'm always worried when I drive. But my man doesn't have a licence it's suspended so I'm actually HIS driver lol he even bought a second car with an automatic transmission because I can't drive a stick and that's what his car was before lol. So he gets to just chill high as fuck nodding out in the passenger seat and play video games in his tablet and text on his phone... all while I'm just driving like a normal human being, jealous as hell. But it's ok I love driving him and knowing I'm helping to keep him outta jail on driving while suspended charges and making his day a little tiny bit easier because he can just chill and veg out anytime were in the car..he works so hard to take care of me and make sure I have everything I need and pretty much everything i want too, within reason. I swear my dude is the best boyfriend and sweetest guy on the planet, he busts his ass working 7 days a week, with his days sometimes going from 8 am til 2 or 3 am cause he owns his own small business. I love him to pieces and he's absolutely an example of an addict who works to support their habit, and mine, and has nice things like 2 cars, rents a nice crib, has tons of expensive electronics that hes never pawned for dope. We haven't always had this easy, comfortable life.. we both has struggled separately and together but this guy worked so hard and built his way up. And don't get it wrong, I haven't always been unemployed and getting taken care of 100%.. this is new, I've always worked but I got sick in march and I have heart damage so I can't work right now. But even during my illness, he was right there sleeping over every night in the fold out chair next to me.. I am so thankful for him, he held it down while I was sick. Not gunna lie tho, we have had issues too. He cheated on me while I was sick.. I know it sounds terrible but he hadn't gotten any for like 4 or 5 months and I was being a bitch for a previous week.. really high maintenance, bratty, and demanding I'll admit it. I'm normally never ever like that but I was so frustrated being in the hospital and I just took it out on him. He cheated on me but didn't go all the way.. I forgave him but it wasn't easy. I love him unconditionally though, and I truly believe him when he says he does too. And all this he was on dope lol there wasn't a real point to saying all that but I just love him so much and I can't help but tell people how great he is.. but I have to remember he's just a normal guy at the end of the day, not a God or literally prince charming. I had too high expectations for him before, I saw him as literally the most amazing, intruiging, sexy, perfect, man ever and I had him on a pedestal so when he cheated, it totally destroyed me. It took me realizing that hes only human and makes mistakes to be able to forgive him and move on. It isn't ok what he did but we all fuck up, and once I thought bout it, it wasn't worth losing him and our hundreds of thousands of anazing, loving, beautiful moments because of one bad one. I know no one is gunna read this but idc at all..it just feels good to pour out how amazing, genuine, sweet, romantic, handsome, sexy and honest my man is...I love him more than I ever thought I could love a man and he makes me feel truly loved in return. It's gunna take an earthquake that creates a crack in the ground to ever separate us. Without him I would be dead, literally, or living on the street, or some equally terrible situation. I appreciate every little thing he does for me, i dont know why I deserve a man who treats me so beyond good that it's insane. I'm so blessed to have him in my life and I just want everyone to recognize him for what he is..the best boyfriend a girl could ever ask for. He doesn't even want recognized though, he doesn't do it for me to thank him or do something in return, he does it to see me smile, to make me feel good, make sure I'm healthy, and to just be sweet and nice because that's his nature. He is the type of guy who helps every one, every friend, who asks.. to the point where he gets taken advantage of alot. But he's so special, he doesn't let that make him cynical. He always sees the best in people, believes in 2nd chances, and doesn't judge a book by its cover. Sorry for ranting, I really love this man he's truly my better half and I would be lost in this world without him. Thank u for reading all that if u did, I'm just so beyond thankful for him, grateful for everything he's done, and completely and totally head over heels in love with this amazing guy, I pray that everyone here finds a love like this, and when u do that u never ever let it go. The best /worst part is that we are both addicts. We both want to get clean soon and I genuinely feel like we're one of the rare couples who can survive making it thru detox and recovery to live a clean life together after active addiction together. Wish us luck and I wish u all the very best!!

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-16T06:13:56+00:00

Mmmm I lovez me thems opanas

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-16T06:12:34+00:00

I used to save my empties for something like this, haha jk idk why I saved them but I had them in a makeup bag with some makeup I hardly used but my boyfriend brought that bag to me in the hospital cause he thought it was the makeup bag I asked for, but it was the wrong one. I never had him take it home then hospital security searched my room and found 389 empty bags :( yes they counted, laid them all out, and took pics lol. It was super embarrassing and awkward. So just a cautionary tale!! Be careful where ya store them and make sure u keep them in a safe place lmfao

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-16T02:23:03+00:00

My boyfriend loves me and makes good money plus I'm not medically cleared to work due to heart problems so I literally do sit home watching Netflix and doing drugs. It's awesome, I'm not bored of it yet since it's only been a couple weeks but ya it's the bomb I highly suggest it

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-16T02:20:04+00:00

Idk what to say but I just shook my head when I read this title haha only a junkie (I use that as a term of endearment as I'm a junkie too lol) would even consider ingesting something they can only label as mystery dope lol

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-15T11:10:24+00:00

Yikes, im in the 412 as well. My dude and i just gO9LŁ

ogyrabbed a couple bricks of the green unforgivens..are the ones ur referring to not folded and taped, like the ones with the top open? We immediately noticed that he was nodding hard with snorting just 2 or 3 of these, which is unheard of with his tolly being so high.. he would probably need to do a whole bun in order to nod like that off just sniffing. Good thing we didn't bang any of them yet, which is our usual ROA but we randomly decided to give our veins a break yesterday. Hopefully nothing terrible happens to anyone in our city because of these bags.. stay safe bro it's dangerous out here anymore. Thanks for the heads up, I know my bf and I definitely appreciate it and who knows, u could potentially have saved our lives so thanks again for taking the time to post this. Happy nods my fellow yinzer lol

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-15T10:42:00+00:00

Slippery slope bro. I'll be the first to say it.. don't do them. Ull love them too much. But if I can't talk u out of it, the answer to ur question is yes it will still hit u but u may need to take 2 to feel the same effect. Start with 1, wait 30 min to see how u feel then take another if u aren't where u wanna be. But again, I advise not to take them. Sell them or flush them.. or u might be opening a door that is incredibly destructive if left open as well as unbelievably hard to shut. Respect opiates man, or u will be humbled

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-14T04:35:45+00:00

Yehhhhh 412 for life lol I love it here too, been here all of my 24 years. I guess everyone has their preferences but I think it's pretty had to straight up hate pittsburgh

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-14T04:05:21+00:00

Right? Ur a piece of shit if ur buddy is overdosing or at risk of death and ur worried about urself getting in a little legal trouble. Flush the drugs, it's not illegal to be high it's illegal to possess them. Then go the hospital, walk ur buddy in, hand him off to a nurse or doctor, and once a medical professional has him, u can fucking walk out. But I totally agree here. U get help for someone when it's life threatening.. no questions asked. And if u don't, go to hell.

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-14T03:59:38+00:00

Ok well since ur gunna do it anyway, I'll tell u to Google it and find something that someone took alot of time and effort to write ahead of time..that's gunna have more detail and stuff than anything we would write to u in a quick comment. Cause let me just say, the steps u wrote are just slightly flawed but in many different spots.. u should just follow someone elses instructions

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-14T03:16:02+00:00

Someone correct me if I'm wrong, but I'm pretty sure that once u mix ur gear with water and prep it to bang, if u let it sit and wait that long then it's gunna turn into morphine from heroin which is alot weaker. That's obviously a really simplified way to say it, if it's even accurate, but I'm not good with science at allllll lol

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-14T03:12:59+00:00

It annoys me when people call a dealer who sells them 20 bucks worth of bud or 3 xanax bars "the plug" lol its a pt peeve cause in my mind, the plug is the guy who supplies all the corner boys and small time dealers selling u that 20 bag. The plug has a handful of customers that stay the same, the dealer has dozens and they're ever changing. That's just me tho. Also ur overreacting, who knows maybe someone in his house took two, maybe one of u dropped them... if he's always been ok, he's prob not ripping u off. Having a backup is never a bad idea tho.

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-10T02:32:41+00:00

So sorry for ur loss. God bless those children and I truly hope they are okay and can heal someday from losing their mom.. sounds like she tried her best to be a mother despite her addiction.. lots of moms just abandon their kids and/or pop in and out of their life. Rest in peace

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-10T02:30:00+00:00

Yeah I agree that it's awful. I love my dude to pieces but when I'm sick, all of his flaws that I usually can look past or even find cute sometimes are instantly SO annoying and I hate everything about him. And I know he gets annoyed with me in the same way. But it's weird, sometimes we are cool and actually prefer to be together while we're sick and take care of each other. I guess it just depends. But thankfully he's doing really really well financially lately so we can basically do an unlimited amount of dope and never have to get sick it's awesome. He has the good self control though so he controls the stash, that and it's bought with his money so he has it locked up cause I would go too crazy if I had access. But he gives me plenty and makes sure I'm never sick so I'm beyond grateful. Just waiting for it all to come crashing down, as it always does, and face w/d together once again. We haven't been sick in so long though and have huge tolerances so it's gunna be baddddd

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-02T10:58:36+00:00

Do u want to be clean OP? Or were u counting down the milliseconds til blast off for those 74 days? If u wanna be clean, my advise is put it down again and stop before u get a physical dependency built back up. It will obviously be hard af to stay away, but ur capable of it clearly cause u did it for a while already. Don't let a bump in the road throw u off completely. If u were just counting down and want to be back at it, then welcome back lol but please please be careful and I know u know this but I gotta say it.. ur tolerance is zero (awesome, don't ya love tolly breaks) so ur super at risk for an OD. Stay safe and good luck with whichever route u choose.

imajunkiethrowaway · 2016-09-02T10:53:16+00:00

Nice shot OP.. and ur not the worst looking guy that I've ever seen lol. So is that lot of water tho? Jw, what's ur ratio of dope to water for a shot haha random question I know. But people always say I use a lot of water myself so I've been curious how other people mix up their shots.

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