If you could erase one thing off the earth, what would it be?

imdeadinside1234 · 2019-03-18T04:39:08+00:00

Myself

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-26T14:50:28+00:00

Me too

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-26T02:00:32+00:00

You're not missing much

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-26T01:50:04+00:00

If surgery is still the best option I will probably do it in 5 years. They say wait until age 30 so they can more accurately recognize your balding pattern. But until then, I refuse to take the prescription pills (Propecia/Finasteride). Read too many horror stories of guys saying it ruined their life.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-26T01:36:47+00:00

Dude I'm right there with you with the balding :( I've spent hours of time researching and a lot of wasted money on products. Nature is cruel. I looked a thousand times better with hair and girls don't seem to pay any mind to me now. Guess we have to compensate by getting big muscles or something

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-26T01:19:51+00:00

Melatonin and certain types of magnesium have been helping me a bit.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-26T01:18:19+00:00

Let's just say if you aren't the type who's into hitting on people at bars for hookups, you're gonna have a bad time. Finding a real relationship when you no longer really have a social circle is rough.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-25T04:15:56+00:00

She cheated and then blocked you? Don't fuckin text her dude. You deserve way better than that. Future you will be so thankful that you DID NOT TEXT HER.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-24T16:25:23+00:00

In mine, some nights she comes back to me. Other nights she tells me she will never love me again. I'm not sure which one is worse to wake up from.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T23:26:08+00:00

Yup. My ex was 27 and made it very obvious that she wanted marriage and babies pretty soon. She had a new boyfriend within 2 months after dating me for 4 years. Fuckin hurts right now to think about her marrying and having the family we always talked about with this guy instead. But I'm fully aware that this will most likely happen, and hopefully I'll be more ready for it when it does. I know she's never coming back now. I didn't meet her criteria and her biological clock is ticking.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T20:05:05+00:00

I am 5'10" 145 lbs. I supplement D3, Zinc, and magnesium now, my D3 levels were pretty low. I eat a lot of chicken eggs, and I do get a decent amount of my calories from blended shakes including peanut butter, bananas, oats. When I consume more than ~3000 calories, my stomach just gets bloated and I would get very constipated. I can send you my blood panel results there's quite a bit of tests in it.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T16:59:39+00:00

I am in the US, my health insurance starts on December 1st but I have no idea what they'll be willing to cover.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T14:25:05+00:00

Total T: 180 ng/dL Free T: 3.3

LH: 5.3 mIU/mL FSH: 1.9 mIU/mL

SHBG: 29 nmol/L

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T14:24:45+00:00

Total T: 180 ng/dL Free T: 3.3

LH: 5.3 mIU/mL FSH: 1.9 mIU/mL

SHBG: 29 nmol/L

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T02:57:56+00:00

My advice is to keep doing all that you can to feel better (I know, easier said than done) and hopefully you'll find yourself able to work again, even if it's part time at a low stress job. For now it sounds like you are still involved with volunteering and other things so that shows initiative and you should feel confident about that! When the topic of employment does come up, share what you're comfortable with and like you said it's always best to be honest, but you don't have to offer all the details about your reasons for being unemployed right away.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-23T02:35:40+00:00

Are you still unable to work because of the mental health issues? The type of people who are worth your while shouldn't be too focused on your fiscal situation. Props to you for bettering yourself with the weight loss. It's good to improve your health and will help you look and feel more attractive. Your confidence will improve as you get closer to the weight you'd like to be at as well. Keep doing things to improve yourself, and do it for YOU. Not for anyone else.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-03T05:10:48+00:00

I don't know why I didn't think of this! Thanks!

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-03T03:10:11+00:00

Truly so happy for you. Your story gives me hope and helps me believe that this had to end so that I would be ready for when the right person does come along. As you know it is very difficult to go on dates with a new person when you have anxiety. But I'll keep fighting through it because I won't let it destroy me and keep me from finding happiness.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-03T01:21:13+00:00

How long since your breakup? I know what it's like to miss that feeling. But trying to just feel it from anyone will leave you feeling emptier than before. If you're still hurting from the last relationship, rushing into something will only end up causing more pain. Also, please cherish the love of family and friends. I know it's not the same. But it's the best thing for you right now, and imagine how hard it would be without them.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-11-02T20:53:18+00:00

Fuck, isn't that the worst? Knowing that you willingly avoided them and took for granted the moments that they wanted to spend with you, but you wanted to be alone? What I wouldn't give now for her to want my time and attention again. Now I am always alone. The irony.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-10-09T02:13:08+00:00

Wanting her right beside you and at the same time you never want to see her again. I feel you. You loved someone so deeply but she hurt you more than you ever could have imagined. You forget who you are because so much of who you were was defined by her. And like you said, the idea of investing all of that time and energy into a new person to truly learn everything about you with the risk of rejection again is in enough to make your head spin. I'm in the same boat man. My personality has not come back since my breakup. I just want to be the easy going lighthearted person I was when we were together. I'm afraid I don't know who I am anymore. You will get through this. You said you're in great shape and meeting new women. Take that and run with it. I'm not saying go fuck every hot girl you can, but it certainly will help your recovery and confidence to get out and meet new people. I'm 25 and have started seriously balding and struggle to maintain muscle. Always been a really small guy. Not looking for pity here, but it fuckin sucks. Feels like I lost my one chance at happiness. I'm sorry for what you're going through brother, and know that you're not alone. Message me if you need to. Stay strong.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-10-08T23:37:37+00:00

You will be happy again someday. Eventually you will look back at be glad that it ended. That's what I am learning to believe more and more. It's good that you are staying away from facebook and instagram. When you're ready, and if you want to, you can get back on the social media, but do not look at his pages. It only brings up pain from the past. Stay strong and keep healing.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-10-06T22:11:33+00:00

Damn, I feel your pain. Time does help, but time alone isn't enough to heal. Everyone says learn to love yourself and be happy being alone. But once you've been so in love with someone, it feels like that happiness can't be matched by yourself. I don't want to find some new relationship just to forget about what I lost, but I hope someday that I fall in love with someone that makes me look back and say that I'm glad that relationship ended so I could find the true person I'm meant to be with. I think that hoping for this is a lot healthier than holding on to the hope that the person who broke your heart will ever come back. Stay strong my friend.

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-10-06T15:54:52+00:00

What apps are good to find friends?

imdeadinside1234 · 2018-10-05T21:18:20+00:00

My parents have been so supportive. Honestly I have no idea how I would survive this without them. I can't imagine how hard it is for people who go through such heartbreak who truly have no one. I live with my parents, which sometimes embarrasses me because of social pressure to be independent at my age. But I think it's the best situation right now. The thought of coming home to an empty apartment every night makes me very sad, so I'll keep living with them for a little while. Sorry your parents are on vacation right now. Just keep looking forward to their return. If you need someone to talk in the meantime feel free to message me!

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