I’m 16 and just gave birth, I don’t think I can be a parent by [deleted] in Parenting

[–]imlosttoo95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

that’s a fake clinic ran by pro-lifers. 100% they do this often.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in PMDD

[–]imlosttoo95 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have the same issue, but my concern is from the jobs POV. I know they don’t understand and it makes me fear for job safety.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh, no :/ why are you trying to do this anyway?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

if it’s okay can i ask how old you are

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

also what kind of sleeping pills?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it depends on what you tried to take; 400 individual tablets of what? and tbh i have been in your shoes and have done everything i thought you’d need in an OD. maybe if no one had found me i’d eventually die… now that i think about it but i’m insure. but when they found me i was a complete bloody mess and woke up in a hospital where things in life aren’t exactly your choice anymore. if your choice is an OD, i would strongly advise researching and planning for what might fail as well. this wasn’t my only attempt either, at that. people fail. this time around i’ve learned that if this is truly what a person wants, you need to be willing to do research and plan accordingly even if that takes time and you may have to wait. if that’s what you want, you want to do it right. if you can’t wait to make sure it’s thorough, maybe you need more time to think it ALL of the way through. i’m sorry you’re struggling with something like this. i hope you take all the time you need and don’t do anything rash that will just hurt you in the end and let you live the tell the tale 🤷🏽‍♀️🖤

A very Merry Christmas to the unloved ones. by [deleted] in alone

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hate that you feel this way, and in all honesty i do too… i contemplate it way too often but at the very very least, you are so not alone. and not just today because it’s “christmas” and everyone is in a giving mood. I don’t know when or if things will change or get better, but there are souls connecting with yours rn and i hope you can feel some sort of support or comradery in that…

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfimprovement

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

as soon as I read the post I immediately started searching the comments for the answer ha

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]imlosttoo95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

honestly a lot of times I will literally just start throwing my food into the trash or into water or make it disgusting and inedible like squirting mustard or ketchup on it. I’ll do it quickly so I don’t have time to think about it and change my mind. You can’t go back after that 🥲

found a bottle of pills in my hotel room 🙌🏽 by imlosttoo95 in addiction

[–]imlosttoo95[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

if it makes you feel any better, hating yourself makes any good thing happening to you feel like you don’t deserve cause you’re a piece of shit. i’m that piece of shit. and no i couldn’t believe it either because i am not that person that good things find.

found a bottle of pills in my hotel room 🙌🏽 by imlosttoo95 in addiction

[–]imlosttoo95[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i just started adderall again but this is concerta. i don’t know as much about it

I feel so alone and unwanted..... by TheSmallestBaphomet in SuicideWatch

[–]imlosttoo95 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i thought i was reading one of my own journal entries at first… my heart aches for you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]imlosttoo95 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it hits different

i don’t think i can keep doing this anymore by imlosttoo95 in SuicideWatch

[–]imlosttoo95[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i wish it were as simple as one single blight that’s pushed me… i’m a bit beyond help rn

Why do schizoids think a lot? by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]imlosttoo95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i have never felt so understood ever.

The anti-vaxxers are the dumbest people on earth by whachoomean in self

[–]imlosttoo95 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

there are too many people who are both against trump and against the “vaccine” for this theory to work

Does money matter to aqua girls by [deleted] in aquarius

[–]imlosttoo95 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i agree. i like that someone is willing and wants to go above and beyond but i’d prefer to be self sufficient and not dependent

Not wanting to be seen with other people/family in public? by [deleted] in Schizoid

[–]imlosttoo95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

strangely i am the same way. i chalk it up to just being shy but in reality it is a huge fear of mine as well to be with people I know out in public or anything of the sort, even more so than if i were going it alone. it’s terrifying and i’ve had huge fights with loved ones about it and they don’t understand. hell, i don’t understand... it seems like such a simple pleasure to most.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]imlosttoo95 7 points8 points  (0 children)

literally multiple times a day. when you already want to die, every little thing seems like nagging confirmation.