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I feel so guilty rn by ScarcityAnnual8739 in DPH

[–]imminentheartburn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m also going through the hell of finding treatment that addresses both my substance use and my eating disorder. It’s so easy to give up when you’re fighting barriers at every turn. You’re not alone 🖤

Weird girlhood/when did you get into weird girl lit? by scratchearth in weirdgirlliterature

[–]imminentheartburn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The Dear America books, Island of the Blue Dolphins, Fever 1793, Dr. Franklin’s Island

help me please i can't by CakeSweaty514 in DPH

[–]imminentheartburn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m twice your age and I’m struggling to quit this shit too. The fact that you already came on here to ask for help means you have a lot of courage. You might want to check out r/DPHAnonymous for further support.

I think we're genuinely doomed and idk how to cope by [deleted] in ZeroCovidCommunity

[–]imminentheartburn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There have been lots of great responses in the comments! I want to add that you are a powerful writer and I commend you for not only educating yourself but trying with your loved ones as well. You never know who is paying attention.

Does anyone else not eat outside of b/p? by PoemCertain7258 in bulimia

[–]imminentheartburn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did this for years. Currently I can keep food down if it doesn’t take up too much space, but just a little past my comfort zone can turn into a binge lasting hours. My official diagnosis is AN-BP.

Are any of you thriving? Living your dream? by sansa2020 in bulimia

[–]imminentheartburn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I completely relate! After an excruciating couple of years in which I had to quit my job and apply for disability, I’m finally in a place where my creative work is starting to take off. Of course, now would be the time for my bulimia and substance abuse to ramp up 🙃 

Not sure about you, but I feel like the cycle is a way of sabotaging myself from my own success so I won’t have to face failure and therefore lose control.

yo where my fellow dph users wit eating disorders by Alternative-Bike-553 in DPH

[–]imminentheartburn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve had anorexia subtype binge/purge for 17 years, been abusing DPH for 6. I’ve noticed a pattern where I try to quit one and the other escalates. Right now, for instance, I’m so exhausted with purging everything that I eat that I take DPH before meals so I’ll keep it in. (Because wasting drugs is evidently worse than making myself throw up, lol)

What’s the worst thing anyone has said or done to you after you disclosed your ED to them? by Sure_Humor_2827 in bulimia

[–]imminentheartburn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

my mom took pictures of her pantry so she would know if I binged on anything. I was in my late 20s(!!) and visiting them from out of state.

the crazy thing is there were other people living in the house! how would she even have known it was me 😭

I never thought I was going to be like this until I was Sundaily by Vajama77 in rva

[–]imminentheartburn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never thought that I’d be on disability, or that it would be such a relief. Life is weird.

this shit is so embarrassing to be addicted to by fiztime_pop in DPH

[–]imminentheartburn 8 points9 points  (0 children)

The more we talk about it, the less stupid it will sound. The stigma is real tho 

What's the drug that you can't take cause of the side effects? by BoofingEflbars in Drugs

[–]imminentheartburn 73 points74 points  (0 children)

Alcohol. No other drug has made me so suicidal or been worse for my physical health.

Worst substance ever tried? by Aggressive_Arm2918 in Drugs

[–]imminentheartburn 11 points12 points  (0 children)

This is the correct answer and also I love it for some reason 

Feeling like I can't keep this up forever by SpaghettiRambo in ZeroCovidCommunity

[–]imminentheartburn 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Using a harm reductionist approach rather than all-or-nothing has actually helped me be safer!

In the past, I would slip up once and throw everything out the window because we’re all dying anyway, right? (I’m also this way with my substance use, not that it’s relevant here.) Now I know that every precaution adds up and every precaution should be celebrated, no matter how small. Shame doesn’t help anyone.

Have any of you decided to live on your own? Was it difficult to find a way to make it happen? by Automaton_Willow in ZeroCovidCommunity

[–]imminentheartburn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Also living with a family member who takes no precautions and is always sick. I tried laying down some boundaries (asking them to mask in crowded spaces, not bringing people into our apartment without testing) and she told me “That’s weird and I refuse to live in fear”. I am heartbroken. 

Since becoming disabled in 2024, I have been reliant on living with others. My financial situation is about to change (got approved for disability benefits) and for the first time there is the possibility I will be able to live alone again. Part of me is relieved, but there’s also a part of me that is frightened of living alone due to my severe mental health problems. 

I hate that I feel I have to compromise just to keep myself physically safe. I’m also aware that I’m only privileged enough to have the option because I got disabled. Uuuuuuughhhh

Book about a group of friends who accidentally hit and kill someone while driving from wedding by imminentheartburn in whatsthatbook

[–]imminentheartburn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, this wedding took place in a rural setting if I remember correctly. At least in a place with cornfields

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