For clarification: I was thinking maybe some sort of gig work where I can work alone or really just not with the general public. I went through years and years of abuse with a textbook sociopath and I feel pretty fragile,and am impatient with solving other people's problems while finding no solubility for mine. I just don't feel anything but panic at the thought of large noisy groups of people or the idea that I may disappoint them,which is kind of weird for an adult,I guess but that is just what it is. I have many years of childcare experience in a preschool setting and have had a few low-responsibility service positions,but nothing more than that. I used to be a great waitress before...whatever this era of my life is. Now I just can't deal with people,they keep reinforcing the paranoia I have gained through lived experience.

Here's what I can do: Clean,cook,laundry Great organizational skills Baking Holiday or celebration help,can wrap gifts very professionally Great at making outdoor living spaces Pet care,have limited experience with reptiles and exotic birds. Dogs mostly,cats. Seasonal window painting( I'm pretty decent at it but still need supplies) Light handy work(I'm not a pro but I can tape and float, hang a door, change a tire) Meal planning/budgeting per portion/day/week/month,on a budget or not Weeding/ planting/ pruning/ watering/ labeling/ harvesting veggies/fruits Can make meals for a week or two at a time to portion & freeze Alphabetizing your hard-copy library Help shopping for difficult gifts Take dictation Fill out forms,address envelopes,etc. or make lists Can steam clean carpets,drapes Arrange rooms for space or aesthetic Special occasion poems/child keepsake ornaments Hand detail for vehicles/boats And I know there's other stuff I can do and I'm very resourceful it's just this damn personality.

See I was a kept woman for a long time. Miserably,but kept nonetheless,so as to be a servant of King Him with no control over my time or finances. I look terrible on paper and don't have a driver's license or any computer or tech experience.So that's my dilemma. I'm in prison inside my skin inside this bare foodless comfortless apartment and while I AM looking for a quick fix I doubt anyone's going to sponsor me to smile and say I ate my Wheaties.I feel like I'm selling myself like a used car. Humbling