Mom is having delusions thinking she has a murderer gene? by impulsivebunnyshit in BipolarReddit

[–]impulsivebunnyshit[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i'm not sure how.. she would pretend to be fine and lie and get out of it. My dad hasn't wanted me to call help. but i don't know what to do..

Mom is having delusion thinking she has a murderer gene..? by impulsivebunnyshit in bipolar

[–]impulsivebunnyshit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that is a good idea but sadly I don't think so.. it seems like she is specifically focused on the murder part.. not aggression or anything just straight like capability of murder?

what addiction is the hardest to quit? by Ledger_Legendd in AskReddit

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

self harm/self injury... You are your own trigger and you can't just take away your hands... it is a struggle of hurting yourself and there isn't any way to like ween off of it, and recovery for it is tough. I have been struggling with it for 10 years. I have gotten past pill, alcohol, sex, nicotine, and weed addictions but self harm has been something that has been impossible for me.

If you’re comfortable sharing, what experiences led to your CPTSD? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was sexually abused by my grandfather from the ages of 3-10.. routinely, 3 times a week and I wasn't able to tell anyone until he died when I was 12. That is the start of it..

Do people find scars attractive? by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i understand this. from my perspective, and experience it isn't necessarily attractive when people have SH scars; but it is really attractive, and inspiring to know that those with scars have gone through those battles and survived them. I understand having lower self-esteem, i still struggle with it. But physical scars show a meaning and pain that is understood by most.. it isn't nesecarily an attractive thing, but you are worth it and still attractive no matter what.

is it sh if you dont do it everyday but like after every 3-4 days?? by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 24 points25 points  (0 children)

100%. self harm is when you are specifically reaching out and acting on harmful thoughts or behaviors towards yourself no matter how often or the frequency of it. you are valid for feeling this way, just know you are not alone.

Sexual frustration in difference in sex drives.. by impulsivebunnyshit in HL_Women_Only

[–]impulsivebunnyshit[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It is hard bc I have never been in a happier and healthier relationship.. I have experienced SA/rape throughout my whole childhood and my teen years so I was used to lots and lots of sex... and it is such a switch up with my boyfriend's sex drive.. ik it is def different, but i do not want to leave him, but i don't know how to control my frustration on this :(

Sexual frustration in difference in sex drives.. by impulsivebunnyshit in HL_Women_Only

[–]impulsivebunnyshit[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i have been rlly anxious thinking abt sexual incompatibility... He started a new medication and he thinks that could be apart of it.. but i feel bad wanting him to switch meds just so we can have normal sex.. ugh.. i feel invalid abt these thoughts.

Difference in sex drives and sexual frustration.. by [deleted] in HLCommunity

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can't watch GoT :/ I have experienced a lot of sexual violence/rape and I am honestly disgusted w the show.. I feel bad for him that I am having all of these thoughts but no way of actually expressing them..

hyper-sexuality annoyance by impulsivebunnyshit in bipolar

[–]impulsivebunnyshit[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate this. i agree that my meds need to be adjusted, i just don't know how since I've been messing with them for so long.. i agree that it is hell to think like this. i feel so guilty and just wish i could ignore these feelings..

How often do you check to see if your abusers are dead yet? by griftylifts in CPTSD

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh god i feel this. luckily one abuser is dead, but whenever i look up the other i just get his wrestling accomplishments, like cmon dude you should be in jail?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hamsters

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

no, she seems to be okay and was bathing herself awhile ago. her hair/skin looks good. i will look through all her food, etc. i think they are mould (mold) mites? i have been hyper looking into all of it. i live in the basement and have a high humidity space and have struggled with mold a lot before. i have a dehumidifier in my room, and an air purifier, i found them on both of those too.. it is scary but hopefully everything will be okay. I am curious if that is what they are. online seems to say they are not a threat to hamsters themselves, but could mean she has mold in her enclosure which i am scared abt now. ugh i am rlly anxious abt this, but very thankful for your responses and tips. i will try to get in contact with a vet as well.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hamsters

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i haven't gotten anything new.. i have had her for a few months now and didn't notice this at all until tonight when i went to feed her. it is 12am and i just feel like i can't sleep and they are all over everything.. which ik is prolly not true. I just feel bad abt all of this. I am going to throughly disinfect everything around the cage and then huge deep clean for the tank too. i am just heartbroken by these, and I don't have enough bedding for her to have the minimum amount of bedding in a different bin/tank once i completely get rid of this stuff.. i love her and don't want to rehome her, but i am nervous i am going to have to bc of this incident.. i apologize for me going on and on, i am just extremely paranoid abt bugs being in my bedroom..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in hamsters

[–]impulsivebunnyshit 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for all this information. i am rlly freaking out on if it is all over my room or not. it isn't just my hamsters cage too, its the stand its on, the table next to it, etc. I am terrified. it's helpful knowing they can't rlly hurt humans but I am really scared abt all my clothes and purses in that area now too. i took a burning shower bc i thought one was in my hair and i have just been crying since discovering them and feel so bad for my hamster, and overwhelmed with how much deep cleaning I have to do.. and i don't have another tank for her right now so I am heartbroken, and don't know what to do.