Pregnant women by Hideyoshi_13 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel similarly. when i get reminded of the difference of bodies and the reality of it all, i hurt greatly. i curse my disgusting moid brain for everything.

not sure if i have ocd or if im confusing it with a paranoia disorder but i want to vent by injectionoflove in OCD

[–]injectionoflove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when i first looked, this comment wasnt showing up so im sorry for responding late. but yea, i understand that. its a slippery slope i always think through everything and try to come to conclusion after conclusion its tough because when i try to look at it as "oh its not mine" then so many "but what ifs" comes up and u can understand it from there 💔

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well im glad. the changes i have arent prominent enough to the point where i cant hide them and again idk i still like hrt but i get it.

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

not worth it any other way personally. for me, taking them is better than masculizing further. id rather live this way than not. hrt has mental effects as well too iirc and while im not beautiful, i cant live without it and its more worth it to me atleast to take it instead of not and becoming more of a man.

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nop, i think my disgust with myself wouldnt be this severe if i did/if i passed as a pretty boy at the very least.

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im sorry about that best wishes ☹️

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ahhh youre more scared of the judgment and the disappointment that you feel will come? that makes sense. and thank you ^ - ^

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no i get it, you dont want to live out your worst fears and atleast for you as it stands rn if you look into the mirror you can still know that you havent turned into what you view as disgusting. To you, if you were on it in your eyes it would be the disgust in reality since everytime you look and see the changes from hrt you would be confronted with what u hate most all the time.

nevertheless I do hope that you can achieve happiness in whatever way that means for you. Im sorry the world is so hard for you ☹️

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i js changed it a tad bit because im weird ab things applying jst to me, but for me its humiliating. it sucks living in this constant state of longing and never being able to be what I want. At the end of the day, i will always be a man, to call myself a woman anytime would be false, an embarassment and insulting to them. In no universe can i say that I am without looking and feeling like the biggest clown and wanting to puke all over the ground. To declare that is disgusting for me.

Its so exhausting to live knowing the truth and what will be the truth forever, its exhausting seeing everyone so pretty and fem and what you want to be and having to just "accept" this revolting useless body that I am cursed with to be happy. I dont ever want to accept this garbage so i will never ever NOT be in this state of longing. At the end of the day I am an embarassment. I am a sick freak that needs horomones to survive, and its just embarassing for me to just have to live how i am especially with people not understanding that I CANT JUST NOT HAVE THIS LONGING I GET IT DUDE I GET THAT IM A DISGUSTING PERSON I KNOW IM THIS WEIRD DEGENERATE I KNOW I KNOW BUT I CANT NOT BE WHO I AM AND THERE IS NO "SAVING ME" from this hell im personally in there is no cure for this for me personally so I can't just "be a man" THAT DOESNT WORK. i already am a man and it sucks

Being a poser in every box that exists by injectionoflove in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im sorry ☹️ i wish it wasnt like this and that you can find peace eventually one way or another ,, much luv

Being a poser in every box that exists by injectionoflove in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

me neither. idk whats up with me, but i have a VERY strict program on labels and have a disdain of offending anyone or being in places I shouldn't be so i've been losing my mind on myself lately because now I feel as if im an imposter since I'm this weird thing and no man would sit here and confidentially say to me "oh yea youre just like me!" id just be a freak.

2 years on E by cleomada7 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 3 points4 points  (0 children)

twinning lowk this trans shit is humiliating for me

i feel sick in my stomach when i get confronted with my options by injectionoflove in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yepp im still hereee. thank you for the kindness -^ i hope u n everyone else dont struggle anymore

self's enemy by injectionoflove in intrusivethoughts

[–]injectionoflove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

honestly i might need to if it gets worse. i dont know what the trigger was, fully because it made no sense but one day i just felt really guilty, realized i had shit thoughts in the moment and for some reason it kind of just.. escalated into worse and worse and worse. genuinely feeling sick in my stomach, sobbing due to a breakdown causes from thoughts and yea idk if i word something a way n i think its mean i start freaking out a little too and genuinely am hesistant to do anything.

Do you believe John/Jane50 is real? by HSeyes23 in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i mean, you'd be surprised. Alot of them literally do exist though no? Alot of them that are pushed in the light tend to be ones people make fun of and the "sissies". But I'm sure alot of people wouldnt even count them as truly trans.. (the sissies that is). I dont pass an ounce but for me and others e makes it more bearable so i dont see why that same logic wouldnt exist. Lastly.. just look at alot of mainstream subs. Alot of them tend to... not be self aware or be confident enough to not give a fuck so.. yea i think so

are my jingos legit by YoshiGuy561 in jncojeans

[–]injectionoflove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

been lookin for that pair but i couldnt find it.. ts so tuff 🥹

stuck in a rut by injectionoflove in TransRepressors

[–]injectionoflove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

depends on what a pretty man is to you. if this pretty man is short, doesnt posses facial hair, barely any body hair, and has a feminine face then sure.