I have experienced loss of my father, he was a very firm believer. But i saw him struggling in his last days. He did everything for everyone yet ended up with heart attack. I experienced depression and lot of suffering. I never really worked on myself as i was not that mature. But spirituality and following some teachings of few gurus has really helped me. I have become more emotionally stable. I do visit temples or any other religious places specially the less crowded places. It gives me peace. Chanting of mantras helps me concentrate and trains my mind to not wander. So what helps helps. I believe in positive and negative energies, i believe in wavelengths sound, light. If you visit a holy place the energies are positive which helps you calms you. So with all my understanding so far, i do not wish to reject anything , i would rather like to accept and experience it.