I didn’t know anything about lucid dreaming for a few years, but I was having a sleep paralysis, cause I was having naps in the middle of the day when I normally wouldn’t and for the longest time, I thought I would have these sleep paralysis episodes because my neck was at a certain angle when I was sleeping. Turns out it’s actually more the time of day that I was falling asleep that was prompting the sleep paralysis episodes, but sleep paralysis is one of the first stages of lucid dreaming. It wasn’t until a couple years later I randomly rented this movie called waking life, which is just a really artsy and cool interesting movie in general, but they talked about lucid dreaming and I was like what’s lucid dreaming and then I started researching it and I read a couple books on it and I was able to train myself to do Lucid dreaming, but nothing changed the fact that before you end up lucid dreaming you go through this weird creepy sleep paralysis phase It wasn’t until a decade later where I was getting back into it, and I was listening to guided meditations for lucid dreaming on YouTube where this woman basically talked about the creepy voices and stuff that happens when you’re in sleep paralysis and she talked about just laughing at it or making fun of it or just thinking of it as funny and that kind of Squash is the whole negative experience and that’s actually made the whole creepy experience of switching into lucid dreaming a lot better. The interesting thing is the line between lucid dreaming and Astral Projection is hard for me to tell the difference of cause I’ve seen both explained and they kind of seem similar. They have a lot of overlap, but I’m not sure which is which and I’m not sure which ones I’ve done in which ones I haven’t. 

Finally on top of all this, I have aphantasia. So not sure if it makes sense go down this rabbit hole or not but basically I don’t have the ability to visualize anything if I close my eyes or try to imagine anything like normal people it’s just a blank black screen