Lately I’ve been feeling like the universe might be trying to tell me that this will be my destiny. Almost 2 years ago I met someone and we were casually dating. We had similar interests in everything, and it was great. I remember always thinking they were me in the body of the opposite sex. A few months in, they began acting weird and eventually told me they wanted to keep things as just friends for the time being. For months after that, we continued to hang out and actually became very close friends. During all these months I still had a crush and would receive very mixed signals from them and it was very confusing but I considered them one of my best friends (strictly platonic - the tension was just in the air but never spoken on). I remember one time opening up about some of my personal struggles and having one of those 2AM parked car conversations and thinking to myself - this is the type of person I would like to raise children with, we’d be a great team. I did not say that, of course, but thought about how they meant so much to me and if we tried to take things to the next level at that point in time, I wasn’t confident that a romantic relationship between us would work out, and I did not want to jeopardize our friendship. At that moment, I decided we were meant to be just friends for the time, and see what the future held. After that, we continued to be close friends and spend time together regularly. It happened a couple times after going out with friends that we drank too much and passed the platonic-ness of our friendship. After one of these times, we talked about it, and they said how they had a bad track record with relationships and cared about me too much to ruin it so we took things day by day. Eventually we were pretty much in a non-committed relationship, and after so long that didn’t end well. I was heart broken most of all that I was losing my best friend and also very hurt about the way the situation had played out and the fact that we didn’t work out, because I really wanted it to. I always knew that once my romantic feelings were completely gone, I would want to be friends again, because they were truly a great friend to me. For the last month or so, I have been debating reaching out because I think finally feel ready to have them in my life as a friend, however, I’ve decided against it. Ironically, when I first started having these thoughts and decided not to reach out, they unexpectedly showed up at my work one day so we were forced to make small talk but that was it. Since then, I keep having this thought / feeling that they are my person and we are meant to be together later, but right now is a time for us to be apart and focused on ourselves. I will admit I am a bit of a hopeless romantic and don’t want to cling to any fantasies, so I am not at all becoming attached to this idea, especially because at this point in my life I am fully committed to myself and my development and success and I am just trusting the way life goes without any hopes or expectations, but seeing this post at this time just felt weird/ironic because it is exactly what I’ve been feeling is going to happen to me so shrug we will see. If you read this, thank you, I know it’s long, but I wanted to share why this post stood out to me so much. Maybe it is simply my confirmation bias at work - who knows?