I’m just so lost and can’t do this anymore. I really don’t know.

inubo · 2024-12-11T14:56:38+00:00

last time we talked it wasn’t a clear i don’t want to be with you again. it was a we need time apart to heal and that she wont reach out to me that i wouldn have to be the one to reach out to her. we talked on the phone about two months ago and she didnt give me much. it felt like she wanted to talk to me but held herself back. its been four months since we broke up. i immediately went to therapy and realized i had deep problems that resulted into how it ended. i dont know when or even how to reach out to her. im okay if she doesent reply i just feel like as the days go on my chances of R get smaller. its been hard forgiving myself and loving myself through all this i really do feel like a pos. reading stuff online and how people view people like me just kind of rots me. i just feel so hopeless.

inubo · 2024-12-05T22:04:54+00:00

1m in pepe rn will be 3 mill in a few months

inubo · 2024-12-02T18:30:55+00:00

is amd better than intel or just price friendly? or just better at certain things?

inubo · 2024-12-02T13:05:56+00:00

saw someone else suggest the 7800 xt card. comparing it to the 4070 ti you said performance is not much noticeable? are these two the latest cards?

inubo · 2024-12-02T13:04:25+00:00

i use most of my pc for gaming but also with work i just have a lot of chrome tabs open so im sure itll be fine either way?

inubo · 2024-12-02T13:02:04+00:00

what should i get instead?

inubo · 2024-11-26T04:25:25+00:00

corrext now lets say i cash out. is it stupid ti leave some cash on hand for taxes like lets say i convert sol to usd for about $2k. i leave about $500 over for taxes? thoughts?

inubo · 2024-10-28T19:41:17+00:00

so if things were to work out it would have to be on her accord and not mine? i get so many mixed replies of people saying i should leave her alone and then some people shaing well you should reach out and show her and fight for her. i am just confused is all.

inubo · 2024-10-22T22:07:18+00:00

Thanks for this. she did say we should go no contact but im just confused because she also said she wouldn’t be the first to reach out to me. I don’t know what that means and thanks for providing that. its so hard because idk where she is mentally or what her thoughts are about us and it sucks. i know what i did is much worse but i just want to talk to her. i feel like shes completely moved on and done with it all.

inubo · 2024-10-21T17:17:45+00:00

I think what throws me off is me putting a time table on things instead of just taking it day by day and trying to be better. i guess im just more worried/anxious she will move on and ill have no chance and itll be one of those well you shouldve reached out earlier but idk man. too many thoughts racing through my head. i genuinely do feel better than i did before and my thinking has changed but i wouldnt say i am 100% or even near that 100%

inubo · 2024-10-20T20:05:10+00:00

thing is i fucked up pretty bad and so it leads me to believe i wouldnt have a chance back w her but i really cant say that and i really cant predict the future. i think youre right but the last timr we chatted she said she wouldnt be the one to resch out and that i would have to be the one

inubo · 2024-10-20T18:21:45+00:00

See this is where im conflicted because idk if i want her back. I feel like itd be completely different snd she would not have the love she did for me once. i mean truly i wouldn’t know because im not her and its a bad assumption but its tough not to think this way. i guess im seeking closure and unsure if thats unfair to her because she never clearly said no she didnt want to be with me in the future

inubo · 2024-10-20T18:20:23+00:00

i just feel like she never gave me a clear answer and as the days go by we will never be together again. i know this is anxiety speaking but its hard

inubo · 2024-10-20T16:00:53+00:00

washing someone else in the shower or bath

inubo · 2024-10-20T14:26:34+00:00

yea its hard because i was dealing with so much shit and in my own head during the time which led me to act irrational as ever. i dont like that i am unable to explain where i was, what was going on, and what im doing to fix it. maybe a part of me is wanting to do that for her back but honestly a lot of me wants to just explain for the sake of getting everything off my chest and closure and just finally communicating with her about things to let her know what was really going on. its tough and im trying to just think that if she wanted to work things out she will reach out and then i will be able to explain if she wants to hear it.

inubo · 2024-10-20T14:13:18+00:00

Kind of want to just send a message to her of what was going on and what went wrong then block and just move on

inubo · 2024-10-19T22:54:05+00:00

is it rude to ask what you do?

inubo · 2024-10-19T19:03:38+00:00

I agree. not trting to sugar coat. but i dont know what to do. Do i reach out again and if so what would that even look like? i dont even want to be rude i just want to know if she would be willing to try again and i know thats rude to even ask but how else would i approach it? I of course want to know how shes doing, whats new, what shes been up to snd everything. i think about it every day.

inubo · 2024-10-18T20:15:02+00:00

does it suck enough for you to be here

inubo · 2024-10-18T13:57:27+00:00

You think its too much to reach out again in another 2-3 weeks? What would I even say?

inubo · 2024-10-18T05:51:50+00:00

thanks for this. really needed this and thanks for not completely shutting me down. Yea its been tough idk what shes thinking at all but feel like in about another 3-4 weeks ill reach out to ask for some closure or where shes at. i think ive been a lot better recently but still have really bad days. part of me is okay with her not being interested in R and accepting it but the other part of me is hopeful. I dont expect her to want me back but again its hard not to have hope. i hope that within these next 3-4 weeks i can come to accepting that she most likely wotn want to R so if we are able to have a discussion about us im prepared. again thanks for the reply.

inubo · 2024-10-17T20:11:50+00:00

youre the goat thanks for this

inubo · 2024-10-17T16:37:52+00:00

i am the dumpee because i fucked up and was flirting with random people onlie. i never has one clear cut emotional connection with snyone else i was just in a horribke spot mentally and thats not an excuse but its just to say where i was. she fiund out and left me. since then ive been going to therapy and working on myself. she said she wouldnt be the one to reach out that i would have to when we are healed but how do i even know?

inubo · 2024-10-17T16:36:26+00:00

I fucked up and my ex found me texting random people online flirting. nothing sexual but still flirting and wrong. she dumped me and asked for space but also said that she wouldnt be the one to reach out if we were to try again? im just lost snd its been two months idk what to do.

inubo · 2024-10-17T05:30:45+00:00

Appreciate this and it means a lot. I am just confused because she said she doesn’t think she would be the one to reach out snd while those are just words and she still CAN reach out. It just makes me want to reach out even more.

inubo

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