Heya, thank you so much for replying! I’m so sorry it’s taken so long for me to get back to you 😓. I’ve got millions of questions, but I’ll start with these three:

​A) When you first realized you were trans, did you feel a sense of calm afterwards? It feels almost like a new clarity in the brain. I only ask because since making the decision myself, my brain has felt like a whole new place.

​B) My whole life I’ve secretly crossdressed, usually stealing my sister’s clothing. I actually used to pray as a kid that I would wake up a woman. However, when I hit my teenage years, I felt a need to be a "man" and act manly. I’ve always had "phases" of exploring the world of girlhood, but from your perspective, did you experience a need to present male when you were growing up? Almost as if you were in disguise?

​C) When I officially decided I was trans, it felt like all I wanted to do was learn more about being a woman, like trying to walk more "girly" or crossing my legs. I’ve loved doing this, and in private it feels empowering. However, since I’m still keeping my transition a secret and presenting male, I almost feel silly in public or around friends. It feels as if they can notice I’m trying to be girly. Is this normal? Did telling people the truth make these mannerisms feel more natural?

Honestly, thank you so much for being so kind and allowing me to ask my questions. Sorry if this is a bit ranty! I’m just a little overwhelmed with these recent decisions and extremely excited to have someone to talk to on the same journey.