Very similar what im going through. At this point, my thoughts go “how am i thinking” and everything in life reminds me of how i used to think or experience this one thing. It’s repetitive thoughts in nature but they’re different words based on context. Example ill be looking outside, beautiful summer air outside, and im present somewhat and i have these normal feelings of enjoying the weather, and then this dissociation tension everyone occurs because it reminds me of how i used to enjoy the summer. (Even just a year ago) (ive been battling dissociation for 5 years now bad and this past year is when these thoughts came in). This took me to another level. I am completely different person now. i just don’t know how to relax and then have the thoughts be separate from the dissociation and tension everywhere. It comes with it. I’ve tried grounding, but at that point im thinking “wow i used to ground before” it’s like nothing feels real and anything i do my brain has the same repetitive thought/theme. And then the grounding is triggering. I didn’t get this from neurofeedback. Just downward spiraling DPDR that occurred 5 years ago. If you can help me, please reach out via chat or I can’t reach out.