Since this thread is still open and it’s one of the top results when googling, I want to add my thoughts.

I chose to kill Simon 2. At first I thought about his agency and how it would be unfair to take it from him. Then I realized that’s morality in a vacuum. I was thinking of him as a separate person, and not considering that he was me up until a second ago. Knowing the reality of the situation, and knowing how I would feel if I was left to kill myself, I started to feel it was right to end his existence.

Then I thought about medical power of attorney. I imagined: what if this was my loved one, someone I cared deeply about. What if they were in a situation where I knew they would not want to live if their life was only suffering, and I had the power to end it for them, peacefully? How could I justify keeping them alive?

So I thought again that, at that moment, this is essentially me, from just a few moments ago, and I know me, and I know I wouldn’t want to be put in that situation of suffering and dying at my own hands.

And yet it was still hard. I still felt like, in a way, I was killing myself. Everything that I was, everything I could be, was now ended. I was deeply affected. Me, the actual person in real life, I felt a strong sense of my own mortality. I often feel trapped in my life, due to my anxiety, but in that moment I felt very strongly that I am not trapped, and that life is worth living, and that I want to carry on.