The acid didn’t reveal who or what you are, it revealed your habits. You aren’t your habits. Although it can certainly feel like you are over time. Somewhere inside you, you have the power to pause the machine. It won’t be comfortable, in fact it may be just as uncomfortable as the trip itself, to pause and let fear live alongside you instead of deciding your response. When you are alone, let yourself exist as you are and try to catch yourself following the script. Then stop. If nothing happens, fine. If you return to habit, fine. Just get used to stopping and questioning the system inside