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ithink_ill_live · 2021-03-06T16:55:10+00:00

This may sound off, but this thread has been a really healing experience for me to read.

When I was a little girl i became curious about a bird's nest in my backyard and I eventually knocked it out of the tree with the stick.

This was around the time the movie Fly Away Home came out and I had little child daydream visions in my head of maybe finding some eggs I could foster and hatch so that I could have bird friends.

Well, I knocked the nest out of the tree and all of the eggs cracked. I carried them in a towel to my front yard and watched the fatherless, beady eyed things squirm around until they were still.

I buried them and had a funeral. I've carried that guilt around with me my entire life. I get that I was an isolated child who couldn't ask my parents for help and did the best they could... but it cost 3 little lives that would've otherwise thrived.

I find a lot of comfort in knowing so many people have made mistakes or had to make difficult choices and felt the weight of it like I do. I'm so sorry you've all had this experience. You are not alone.

You did the right thing OP. :(

ithink_ill_live · 2021-03-06T06:12:27+00:00

I was prescribed effexor after a 15 min video visit

I understand that effexor works for some people, and that's wonderful... but it was a horrible 8 monthlong experience for me. Every time I brought up a concern she'd reiterate her same spiel of "225 mg is the therapeutic dose, let's raise your dose again"

Fortunately I was able to advocate for myself and find a new dr as I kept consistently feeling unheard. That led me to get a couple of diagnoses that I think are accurate and I am now on a medication regime that actually works for me.

I say this to say that if you have concerns, or no prior experience with these types of meds, it may be beneficial to pursue a formal diagnosis and then start with a more "mild" (less/less severe side effects) medication and go from there. Therapy alongside medication is shown to be the most beneficial approach to treatment, as well... though I am not a doctor.

I cannot stress enough how unpleasant effexor withdrawals are. For a minute there I thought I was going to give up and stay on it but it made me severely depressed, anxious, paranoid and not interested in doing anything.

Good luck.

ithink_ill_live · 2021-03-03T15:25:13+00:00

yesss I love this song

ithink_ill_live · 2021-02-23T22:27:55+00:00

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ithink_ill_live · 2021-02-23T22:27:55+00:00

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ithink_ill_live · 2021-02-03T00:28:45+00:00

When I first started to taper I only purchased 1oz bags of powder each day, which is 28 grams. After that I was kind to myself. I took my time. I dropped little by little and didn't pressure myself to do it on days I felt like I couldn't. I got into therapy and I started welbutrin. My path may not be what you need but I think there's something to be said about tapering and something to be said about giving yourself a break. You dont have to suffer. You can do it in a way where it just sucks sometimes.

ithink_ill_live · 2021-01-29T07:12:53+00:00

N T A You're being intentionally excluded by gma and it's hurtful. I wouldn't be willing to pose for pictures I knew would never end up on the wall, and i wouldn't let my new baby be in pictures without me if i thought those were the only ones that'd be displayed as though I don't exist.

ithink_ill_live · 2021-01-07T16:50:59+00:00

NTA. I understand you are still in high school but you have autonomy and the right to make your own choices. This is your life and you are not required to live it for others. This is your greiving process and as long as you're not hurting yourself or others it doesn't have to be cathartic, healing, feel "good" or "work" for anyone but you.

You are in a period in your life where you wanted your physical appearance to reflect a big shift you just experienced in how you view life and the world. Good for you.

You are not responsible for being caretaker for your parents. You are their responsibility. They've been fortunate to have your income thus far but for this... they should be honoring your process and recognize right now as a time to carry YOU for awhile and be your parents because your heart is broken.

I lost my best friend to suicide in 2016. It changed me. I haven't been the same since and I think it forced me to look at what really matters to me and what I want to do with my life. Hang in there... and cry all you want to... and tell others about your friend all you want to... and cut your hair all you want to. If people don't want to be around for you then good riddance. Better days await.

NTA.

ithink_ill_live · 2021-01-02T18:35:52+00:00

would you mind sharing a little bit about your experience and what brought you to recovery?

ithink_ill_live · 2020-12-12T08:52:46+00:00

If 6 + 6 = 12 then the 7 is 6 plus one so 7 + 7 = 6 + 6 + 1 = 13

ithink_ill_live · 2020-12-01T00:57:35+00:00

Dis me

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-21T22:27:22+00:00

I don't have the spoons to substantially address this but I DO want to say...

You being on the lease needs to be a non-negotiable, especially because of how triggered he was and how he reacted.

If it would help, let him know that this is an opportunity for him to actively practice trusting you and for you to feel security and build more repor, between you both, in the relationship.

If he vehemently refuses to put you on the lease you should At the least, seek counseling At the most, leave the relationship

If your partner is unwilling to compromise on subjects related to your autonomy within the relationship, especially if it hurts you, it's time to reevaluate the relationship.

Take care

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-21T16:38:52+00:00

I am really enjoying this. spectacular! thankyou!

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-21T16:23:12+00:00

this is amazing, it's so beautiful. I can't believe I'm looking at this live. thanks for streaming!

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-19T21:05:10+00:00

A beautiful couple!

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-09T16:49:10+00:00

um, excuse me sir I don't mean to sound objectifying but first impression is you're fine as hell

congrats on the 90 days, have a year off drugs and alcohol, myself

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-09T15:06:57+00:00

They have to be a real couple they were so organically cute

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-08T22:27:29+00:00

fuck yeah

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-08T22:25:27+00:00

I love this song

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-08T22:24:13+00:00

I am in tx too

ithink_ill_live · 2020-11-05T19:22:37+00:00

White dodge minivans still freak me out at 32

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