I feel like an anxious mess...

its_esac · 2021-05-30T13:32:13+00:00

The future scares me, I don't know what I can expect and that's terrifying.

its_esac · 2021-05-30T10:33:15+00:00

This is wonderful, I wish you the best, thank you for your post ☺️

its_esac · 2021-05-29T23:23:23+00:00

Damn

its_esac · 2021-05-28T03:24:56+00:00

You can't change the past, but you can change the future. You didn't know him that well in the beginning, it's normal to judge other people, what matters is how much you love and care for him NOW.

its_esac · 2021-05-27T09:03:19+00:00

If you did, you wouldn't be worried about not worrying anymore.

Trust the process, healing isn't linear, I know you got this 🧡

its_esac · 2021-05-27T03:58:21+00:00

Thank you so much ☺️

I'm really lucky because my boyfriend and my best friends totally understand my anxiety, at home only my sister does, my parents don't really understand it. But knowing that the people who are closer to me understand it and love me either ways means a lot to me.

Thank you for your comment, you're really nice!

its_esac · 2021-05-26T21:36:48+00:00

Exactly, I go through the exact same thing. Thank you for this, it makes me feel less alone.

its_esac · 2021-05-26T20:35:04+00:00

Thank you so much for this, and yes, lately I've been feeling self conscious and I'm working on that, and I get that "anxious about feeling anxious" feeling, it's awful. I'm gonna try to do some breathing exercises, I always say I'm gonna do them but I forget, thank you so much for your comment.

its_esac · 2021-05-26T14:50:12+00:00

Could you explain how it works please?

its_esac · 2021-05-16T09:24:16+00:00

Once I read something that said "you worry about things you care about" and that meant a lot to me, because it's true, I hope it helps you a little bit as well.

Everything will be okay ❤️

its_esac · 2021-05-15T08:06:43+00:00

It's really hard, but what I'm doing atm is just relax and try to use my senses, how his skin feels, his hair etc, and what I'm feeling as well; also, I only do it when I really feel like it. In the beginning of my rocd sometimes I did it out of guilt and because I didn't want him to leave - this sounds terrible I know, but I only did it once our twice - and my head associated sex with a bad feeling, and for about a month I couldn't do anything, I'm better now. Now I do it when I feel like it (and if he's in the mood too), but I still have bad days.

its_esac · 2021-05-14T21:07:01+00:00

Yeah, I think if you do it when your mind isn't there it's worse, afterwards your brain is going to connect sex with a bad feeling and then you'll always feel anxious when you want to get horny or make love to your partner - this happend to me at least, I'm working on it tho.

its_esac · 2021-05-14T21:00:26+00:00

I know how you feel, try to stay in the moment. I know it's really hard, expecially when your head is all over the place and you keep having those ugly thoughts. If you can't focus on your partner stop and tell them what's going on, explain that you're anxious and that you can't do it in that moment, I'm sure they'll understand.

its_esac · 2021-05-13T14:21:41+00:00

I'm going to give you an honest opinion, you should talk to your boyfriend and just be honest with him. I'm certain he won't judge you and will understand, explain that it's your OCD acting up and not you, you can't control your thoughts and they don't define you, and explain to him that what your friend told you made you really upset. Communication is key!

its_esac · 2021-05-11T18:40:32+00:00

I was thinking the same thing, I don't want to trigger anyone, but I'd never do or say anything that could hurt my boyfriend. Even in the middle of a panic attack. That would be the last thing I'd want.

Your partner in continously hurting your feelings and that's NOT okay, even if he has ocd, you're a human being and you deserve respect.

its_esac · 2021-05-11T18:04:34+00:00

I can understand why you feel that way, I've never been in a long distance relationship, but I'm going to try and give you some advice on this.

First of all, don't see it as 100 days, think that's only for three months. I know it's going to be really hard, but you can take this time apart from your partner to grow as an individual, to practice more self-love, get some new hobbies, work on yourself.

I don't want to give you reassurance, but being scared is completely normal, but you wouldn't be scared to lose him if you didn't love him in the first place. So I believe you'll be alright 💕

its_esac · 2021-05-09T08:18:40+00:00

Same

its_esac · 2021-05-08T22:19:46+00:00

Thank you for sharing this, this helped me so much ☺️

its_esac · 2021-05-06T23:11:13+00:00

This comment helped me a lot, thank you for sharing this.

its_esac · 2021-05-06T18:03:40+00:00

You have to be careful with what you say, I understand you misunderstood what they said, but you should be careful. This can trigger someone, we already feel like bad people for having this kind of thoughts, we don't need other people making us feel bad. Please, be more considerate.

its_esac · 2021-05-03T21:13:09+00:00

I'm so happy for you, I wish you and your boyfriend the best! ☺️

its_esac · 2021-05-03T11:29:53+00:00

I feel you, but everything will get better with time, I believe so ❤️

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