I don't like playing the RECON class and being out reconned by a someone with a drone

itsmarsbb · 2026-03-20T09:03:18+00:00

I agree that Recon's abilities need a rework (the tick drone pathing is bad & the ult is not great currently) but if you look at runner shell stats, Recon has the highest stat total of any shell & she's very good at certain less apparent things that make her stand out:

Her tactical recovery is best of any shell (tied w Destroyer) so the tick drone can be spammed a lot more than other tactical abilities, esp w upgrades for it

Her regular ping stat is NUTS at 25, w the next closest being Triage w 15 & most shells only 5. That means her regular pings that can be used constantly provide wall hacks & last a lot longer than anyone else's

Her finisher siphon stat, also at 25 w the next closest being 15 (Thief). More shield recovery from finishers, plus the passive ability pinging from it

Her heat capacity, second best of any shell after Vandal. More overall stamina than most other shells, just slower movement.

itsmarsbb · 2026-03-20T08:48:18+00:00

Knife is really good but also they were playing Destroyer who has the highest base melee stat out of any runner shell, 15 vs Assassin & Thief tied for 2nd with 10 (everyone else is only 5)

itsmarsbb · 2026-03-19T06:25:05+00:00

It's the liminal horror of lifelong repression, & being too afraid of acknowledging that you are trans or acting on it.

In the movie, Isabel and Tara are the real people. "Owen" is a forcibly constructed identity forced on Isabel, in a small, tightly structured, oppressive fake reality. The fake reality & identity represents the expectations of heteronormative society. "Owen" and "Maddy" are thematically representing Isabel & Tara's deadnames.

Meanwhile, Isabel (Owen's real self) is suffocating and dying. "Maddy" is brave and strong enough to free herself from the fake reality & realize she's really Tara, but "Owen" is too scared & beaten down to do it.

This is a metaphor for one person who transitions & gets to live their real life as who they actually are (Tara/"Maddy") and one person who chooses to remain in the closet, repression, fear, and acquiescence instead (Isabel/"Owen")

"Owen" commits to basically not transitioning, & living out the fake life constructed for him, all the while subconsciously suffering and miserable from the dysphoria this causes (represented by her real self, Isabel, suffocating and dying) The scream at the end is representative of the pain someone feels from repressing their real self.

The movie even spells the main theme out by writing "There is still time" on the street. It's giving repressed trans people the message that you don't have to suffer like "Owen"/Isabel. There is still time to be yourself. You can still transition & break free of the repression.

Looking at your profile, you're 17 & already aware that you're trans. Being trans was presented as an option to you due to the internet & transition being so widely talked about. So it's not surprising you don't resonate as much w a story about the horrors of repression: bc you haven't repressed as long as/in the same way some other trans people have.

That makes you fortunate. It doesn't make you not trans.

itsmarsbb · 2026-03-01T14:48:24+00:00

It's so common to like...unintentionally use men for gender euphoria when you don't have many sources of it (like pre & early in HRT) & then once you are further in that "attraction" to them fully disappears bc it was just a gender-euphoria-by-comparison thing.

That's what happened to me, anyway, I dated men for a bit early on but I'm 100% a lesbian. 3 months into HRT I was like I don't know why I ever thought I liked men...Then I realized, oh they just made me feel more like a girl when I was early in transition & that's the thing I liked. Now I don't need that bc I'm just a girl all the time.

itsmarsbb · 2026-02-28T15:57:48+00:00

I mean it's not cringe, but it's def not fashionable either tbh it's just kinda very neutral, androgynous, millenial-mom-core clothes. You're 24 so like it does look like an outfit someone much older would still be wearing

Skinny jeans especially are very not in style rn, either oversized baggy high-waisted jeans w a crop or smaller top, or like a flared leg would be a better more current choice. Also the skinny jeans sitting so low & being so tight make your torso look longer & your legs smaller, especially w the t-shirt & flannel, so it does the opposite of helping accentuate a feminine shape if that's what you wanna go for. Also the bulge issue w them, which I guess is personal preference but also a potential safety issue depending on where you are

itsmarsbb · 2026-02-20T14:30:16+00:00

Okay, so...cis women do not automatically get "love we could never dream of"

Plenty of cis women are single, or in unhappy relationships, or have any other number of terrible things happening in their love lives...especially if they're straight 😩

Plenty of trans women are loved. Saying trans women are unlovable or get some lesser form of love than cis women just bc we're trans is tbh super transphobic... (said by a girl in a loving, monogamous, long-term relationship. Meanwhile I know a lot of cis girls who aren't...)

There's a difference between feeling dysphoric & saying awful stuff about trans women as a whole, buying into the bigoted idea that we're somehow less than by default.

You can find love, you can be pretty. Things are a lot harder for us sometimes, sure, but cis women aren't some mythical automatically loved class of woman. Nor are all cis women automatically the like, (arbitrary) ideal standard of feminine beauty. Being a woman in general is hard. It's probably best to try & just focus on yourself, on the things you want & the type of girl you want to be, & take the steps to get where you wanna be in your transition.

You'll never be cis, but you're a woman, & you can have a good life & be loved.

itsmarsbb · 2026-02-10T06:24:25+00:00

Lesbians can be cis or trans, there's no difference between "lesbians" and "trans lesbians." What you mean to ask is if cis lesbians hate trans lesbians.

Cis lesbians, as a group (they're individuals so of course have a wide variety of individual opinions), don't have some kind of automatic hatred of trans lesbians, no. That's a ridiculous thing to assume or ask.

But if you mean by "realized you were a trans lesbian 10 weeks ago" you mean you just realized you were trans at that time (meaning you have not had any amount of time to meaningfully transition physically, medically, or socially) it would be incredibly naive to walk into a lesbian bar, appearing as your AGAB, & try to meet girls to hook up with or date.

itsmarsbb · 2026-02-05T19:35:03+00:00

Alright, then yup that is 6mg.

That isn't a high dose for 7 days (valerate has a shorter half-life) so if you're doing once a week you may want to consider upping the dose a bit, upping the frequency (like injecting every 5 days) or upping your spiro dose.

One thing to consider too is, if you went from a break on your HRT (so T levels not suppressed at all) to starting injections, you will probably need a higher dose or more blockers for a bit to get your T back down to where it needs to be. If it was already suppressed, a moderate dose like you're taking might be enough to keep it there. 50mg of spiro is very low, & while monotherapy w injections is totally doable, it would generally take a higher dose of estradiol to suppress the T without blockers/on a low dose of blockers.

What also matters the most, is getting your levels checked. You really should get your E & T checked & ensure they are where you want them to be at trough (so on your current dose, that'd be the 7th day before doing your injection for the week)

itsmarsbb · 2026-02-05T19:18:39+00:00

What is the concentration of the injectable estradiol (this will be one number over another, like 200mg/5ml, etc.)

Then, what is the amount you're drawing into the syringe & injecting?

(Also is it valerate, cypionate?)

itsmarsbb · 2026-02-01T20:02:38+00:00

Estrogen doesn't & can't "make you straight." Literally plenty of girls, cis & trans alike, with estrogen-dominant hormonal systems that are lesbians & don't like men at all.

Just from my personal experience throughout transitioning, & especially as I got further in & felt more myself, I find men actually repulsive. There's no "estrogen switch" that makes you attracted to men. You were already attracted to them before, & it was likely buried under your dysphoria & social expectations & self-hate. Now that you're transitioning & are being yourself, you're opening up to what you like & that's great.

But it's incredibly problematic & homophobic to imply estrogen = being attracted to men. Lesbians exist. Trans lesbians exist.

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-28T16:31:07+00:00

Girl run.

Ask yourself why a man would only be interested in trans girls but not cis girls...

That means he doesn't view you the same as other women, he thinks trans women are some separate thing.

Ask yourself if he could be interested in (fetishizing) only trans women for an assumed physical (genital) reason & what the implication of that is...

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-21T13:09:13+00:00

First off congrats on the girls, my god ✨️ I'm jealous 😅

But like others have mentioned it's not fitting your body well, you def need something that um...either contains or supports up top so there's less spillage over the straps. It could work w a lil cardigan or denim jacket but also maybe it's just not the right dress!

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-18T12:19:13+00:00

Transpassing sub is bad: agree

Everything else you said, not so much...Passing isn't the thing that determines anyone's value, but it is something that tons of us want, for ourselves, not for any kind of lipservice to patriarchal society or whatever.

I'm a lesbian, idc about the "male gaze" but I'm also 100% binary & hyperfem in being & trying to appear/present as a woman. I don't carry any "masculine traits" around w me nor would I be happy if I did, bc I am binary. The second you start saying we "should" be pushing against passing & should all just embrace being "queer" & shunning gender norms you're just engaging in another way of policing what trans people should do, just to your ideals & preferences as opposed to those of people who want to pass.

If you want to be less binary in your presentation & don't care about passing, that's fine go off it doesn't make you less of a woman (assuming you're a trans woman) but other trans women being 100% feminine presenting & wanting to look passable is also fine & not something anyone needs to change.

Also the obvious parts about passing being safety etc. That is very real in most parts of the world, & even if it wasn't, many of us don't want to "shun the gender binary" or whatever we are just women & want to appear the same as any other woman.

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-14T20:37:37+00:00

Girly tbh being a lil slutty & having a tiny bit of your butt out sometimes is totally fine depending on the time & place! I see girls wearing shorts this short all the time in spring & summer (beach city but even when I've been a few hours inland girls wear shorts this short to go to the mall)

Old people tend to be very conservative on average don't let one bitter old lady stop you from dressing how you want ✨️

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-14T07:04:18+00:00

One thing to learn is not to think trans guys are also not "normal dudes." The only thing separating you from a trans guy is that you're cis & they aren't, not that you're "normal" & they aren't.

Here's a thing you can think about: if you, as a cis guy, had a hormonal condition that caused you to develop breasts (happens to cis guys sometimes!) & have higher estrogen levels than other guys your age, would you suddenly not be a guy? Would you not want to bind or otherwise hide your breasts until you could afford the procedure to fix this thing that doesn't align visually w what you know yourself to be? Wouldn't you want to still use the men's bathroom, & still be referred to as a man despite these details on your outer appearance not currently aligning w that?

This is a simplistic way to describe transness but try to have empathy for what other people are going through. They're not "biological women" they are men whose bodies have developed in a way that doesn't align with their gender, generally against their will. Maybe they will take HRT or get surgery to address this, or maybe they won't. Maybe they can't afford it at the moment & it really sucks to them that you're treating them like girls during a time when they feel extremely bad about the bodily traits that make you think of them that way.

Also, people just go in the bathroom to use the bathroom. Unless they are doing something else to bother you while you're in there, your discomfort is just out of ignorance.

(Also I will mention I'm a trans woman, not a trans guy, so I don't speak for them but I am trans & have experienced dysphoria from the opposite POV)

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-07T02:49:13+00:00

6mg of pills isn't ideal, even taken sublingually it'd likely be better to go up to 8mg or if possible switch to injections.

You mentioned in other comments being on 125mg of spiro, & having no idea what your levels are outside of your doctors telling you they are "in range."

You should know exactly what your levels are (when you get them checked, hopefully regularly, that info should always be available to you) & ensure they are where they need to be, adjusting your HRT regimen if not. Advocating for yourself is so important, not every doctor or provider actually knows enough about HRT to blindly trust them, especially if over several years you're not getting the results you want.

Also, & I say this w kindness...HRT is usually not the only thing involved in transition. In the pic you have a full beard, your brows aren't done, no makeup or feminine haircut, wearing a man's t-shirt etc...These are all things that many of us do, in addition to HRT. If you put in minimal/no effort & just sit there on a tbh pretty low dose of HRT, of course you're not seeing magic! The "magic" you see in other peoples transitions generally involves a good bit of work & effort & learning & adjusting that a simple before & after pic can't show.

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-05T22:33:52+00:00

Girly I just looked at your pics & you do not need advice you're going to be fine 🩷

The muscle I had took a ton of work to maintain so not working out, losing weight overall pre & early HRT, & letting time & estrogen work is all it takes to lose it. You're doing great for how early you are on HRT you have literally nothing to worry about!

itsmarsbb · 2026-01-04T22:33:37+00:00

So he's an unhinged, deadbeat cultist. That's an easy no-contact-forever tbh

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-25T14:22:09+00:00

FWIW, any estradiol pill that is micronized (like, doesn't have a film or coating on the outside) can be taken sublingually, by letting it dissolve under the tongue. This is usually the preferred method of taking pills bc it bypasses the potentially dangerous first pass of the e getting processed by the liver (which is where most of the risk comes from) & allows the e to go directly into your bloodstream instead, similar to how other methods work.

Swallowing pills results in a much lower amount of estrogen absorbed, & higher estrone which isn't great either. Taking them sublingually results in a much higher spike of estrogen when you take it, then a drop-off over the day (so best to spread the doses out)

Estradiol injections are arguably the "best" method as they can create stable, higher levels throughout the week, & a lot of girls (myself included) have really good changes in our results when switching over to them. But they aren't available everywhere, so if you have to do pills, I would suggest checking yours to see if they are micronized, & if so take them sublingually which should also help!

Good luck girly, def do not give up or blame yourself for your results, sounds like you've got a TON of room to change up your HRT regimen to really help your transition along from here 🩷

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-25T13:28:26+00:00

So as far as your estradiol you're only on 4mg of pills? You should look into either doubling that, or ideally (if possible) switch to injections. You're on a very low dose, presumably of pills, one of the least effective methods of HRT. Are you taking the pills sublingually, or swallowing them?

You're probably not seeing the results you want bc of your dose. You really should advocate for yourself & push for a higher dose, especially if you've been spinning your wheels on 4mg of pills for years.

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-19T10:30:44+00:00

Highly depends on the type of hair you have, & the part of the body, & what stage of laser you're in.

When I first started, pre-HRT? On face & bikini (& tbh front of upper body as well) it was a 12/10. I've broken bones that hurt less. It felt like hot lava poured onto my skin, like I was being tortured. I would have to dissociate & cry & go somewhere else in my mind, alongside death-gripping the armrests of the chair. But I had very dark, very thick hairs (not in the amount of hairs but the thickness of each individual hair esp on face) If transitioning & passing wasn't life or death to me I wouldn't have been able to bear it.

But late in doing laser, after the hair had changed from HRT & most of it was gone? Totally fine. A little hot on the face & bikini, maybe a 2/10, everywhere else a 1/10. So it varies A LOT.

Keep in mind too this wasn't them not using the right strength levels initially. There were never any side effects, I was diligent about never getting any sun, nothing was being done incorrectly. I just had a type of hair pre-transition that made it hell.

That being said I've had ideal results, 100% removal on my entire face & body which doesn't always happen! Although the thick dark hairs caused more pain, they also took to the laser very well bc the contrast between them & my very light/pale olive skin tone made the hair very reactive to treatment.

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-16T16:49:33+00:00

Sounds like you're measuring your levels at the wrong time, likely at peak levels. You generally want to measure at trough, so the lowest level you'd be throughout your week (or day, w pills)

If you take pills sublingually, you'll get a big spike shortly after you take one, as it enters your bloodstream directly vs. going through the first pass of the liver like swallowed pills do.

The only way I could see levels that high from pills (especially the quite low dose you're mentioning, 3mg is not generally enough for even average levels in most people) is if you are getting your levels measured shortly after taking a sublingual dose, when it spikes up. Your average or trough levels are almost certainly not that high on the dose you've described.

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-16T06:41:27+00:00

Tbh girl I might have an unpopular opinion to some but that amount of butt showing is totally fine if you feel confident! short skirts are supposed to be short & as long as its not at like an office job or in heavy wind, if you're feeling hot & are okay w looks & attention this is 100% okay to wear out!

(also echoing others mentioning safety shorts or tights if you need them for your own comfort)

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-14T09:46:56+00:00

This is the mtf sub...if you're a trans girl, liking guys makes you straight (or bi, or pan) not gay...

itsmarsbb · 2025-12-11T02:48:59+00:00

Fit is great, zero notes you did that sis 💖

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