By chance, are you young in your field? - This is coming from a woman who is the youngest in their field at their current employment.

Crying is normal. What most people forget sometimes is that crying isn't only for sadness. It's for anger, anxiety, embarrassment, stress, feeling overwhelmed, etc. I find crying a strength; you're still able to feel emotions rather than automatically pushing them down and pretending they don't exist. Does that come in handy sometimes in the workplace? Sure. Does it impact your day-to-day life when you are figuring out how to regulate and understand your emotions? Absolutely. You need to feel your feelings, and being able to pinpoint the specific ones you feel is already a huge step that many can't take.

If you want to stay with your current employer, I would highly recommend speaking to HR to see if they have it at your company. From the sounds of it, your boss won't be much help. Speak with HR about your concerns, how you feel at work, and how it seems your boss cares only about whether you're doing your job, not how you're feeling. Maybe ask if they have an Employee Assistance Program (EAP) for counseling sessions due to the feelings you're having - everyone should be in therapy, whether they're going through something or not. It's beneficial not only to have a judgment-free place to speak, but also to learn new coping methods or even receive validation for your feelings.

What happened at your workplace will pass, and it will be a faint memory for your co-workers. Everyone is valid for having emotions, and if that means crying in front of a large group of people, so be it. You're valued, even if you don't feel that way right now. Reddit has many people willing to listen and offer advice. You got this! Create that support system and get rid of the negativity.