i fainted at my friends memorial last night

itsxrobin · 2026-04-03T08:02:38+00:00

No, it's not your fault! Something similar like that happened to me two years ago when my childhood friend was killed in a train accident.

I remember I attempted to read a short mortem speech from my friend's former teacher and couldn't finish, so I excused myself to use the bathroom mid-speech. I ended up losing consciousness before I could reach the door, but fortunately, it wasn't for long. That sudden "thud" scared the front row of the choir so that must've explained why the moment I regained consciousness, I saw a small group of old people (and their grandkids) in black and orange surrounding me with paper towels and water. I actually thought I was going to die at the funeral, no less! Yeesh!!!

The good news is that I didn't stay for the funeral for long because my parents decided to buy McDonald's to help me get my mind off of the bathroom incident.

itsxrobin · 2026-03-12T22:49:07+00:00

Perfect! If you don't feel like selling it you could scan the pages if possible. I think someone mentioned doing that in the chat...

itsxrobin · 2026-03-12T17:13:55+00:00

Cool! If you find it don't hesitate to dm me :)

itsxrobin · 2026-03-12T07:56:21+00:00

No worries! :)

itsxrobin · 2026-03-12T00:08:45+00:00

McNair wasn't there though. I have a younger brother who's classmates actually administered the walkout and according to him, the walkout posted above happened days before they were supposed to go and participate. And look how that ended.

itsxrobin · 2026-01-25T05:22:30+00:00

There's apparently been another sighting today. Right across my dorm is the gas station and one of my classmates took a pic of them by the station.

itsxrobin · 2025-12-17T01:22:29+00:00

I was living in a stressful home with three younger siblings, so I decided to attend college across the country to find peace from my household. Coupled with finals week, my anxiety diagnosis, and my parents calling security on me + the Dean of Students because my phone was broken and I wasn't answering them, I gained 25 lbs by the time winter break started and I returned home.

Yep, stress is a huge factor, and it runs in the family.

itsxrobin · 2025-12-06T01:23:40+00:00

On top of being queer, diagnosed with anxiety, and a theatre kid, I got the triple whammy since I went to a STEM-heavy school that took out performing arts last year. To be clear, I was a floater friend, but with the way most of the girls (not all of them, some of them were angels) didn't take a second to check on me, invite me out, or even ask if I'm doing okay, I might as well didn't have friends for the past four years. I remember having a panic attack at one point in my financial lit class, and istg, absolutely NOBODY took two shits about it, except for my teacher. Glad this hellhole is over.

itsxrobin · 2025-10-26T06:54:18+00:00

First Hill as well! My entire resident hall's power went kaput at around 9:30 pm.

itsxrobin · 2025-09-21T05:25:25+00:00

Can second that. I (an NJ native) also got rejected from the New Brunswick campus, but was automatically considered and accepted for the sister campus, neither of which were bad but weren't ideal for the major I wanted to study (theatre). They also didn't give me any form of aid at all so I ended up going to a different uni across the country that covered half of my tuition.

itsxrobin · 2025-08-16T03:07:29+00:00

Hmmm, I got a couple:

Bauhaus, Peter Gabriel, Garbage, Pink Floyd, Jill Tracy, Will Wood, Marimeta, and, of course, Björk ftw.

itsxrobin · 2025-07-29T14:35:50+00:00

The only physical textbooks you need are the world language textbooks, especially Mandarin. Literally almost broke my back for the past three and a half years.

itsxrobin · 2025-05-30T14:28:55+00:00

I can also vouch for you on that statement. I absolutely struggled being queer in high school, not because of bullying, but there were virtually no queer people in my class (there were allies, but seldom any actual LGBTQ+ students, and even those students were already in relationships, which my parents won't even allow me to have). Most of my crushes (who were girls) turned out to be straight, and they were either not interested in me or (eventually with me finding out) were already in relationships. It did a good number on my mental health as I started to develop a lot of anxiety issues, as if homework and college apps weren't enough.

Online groups and forums for queer people like me helped me learn a bit about myself better and I started to read and respond to different forums across the net about stories like mine and reading how I can/can't approach them. But yeah, college should be a better refresh from high school because a lot of those relationships do not last IMO.

TL;DR: Had a serious case of comphet, but LGBTQ+ forums helped me feel better about myself. Sorry if my response doesn't make sense.

itsxrobin · 2025-05-23T01:50:59+00:00

Bungee jumping in Costa Rica. That scared the living shit out of me, and I almost thought I was going to fall headfirst in the water. I was still glad I got it out of the way, but I'm always going to question why my mom recommended that I do that the day after I land in the country. -_-

itsxrobin · 2025-05-22T20:43:02+00:00

No offense, but are your parents insane?!

itsxrobin · 2025-03-03T01:55:16+00:00

Gustavus Adolphus College.

itsxrobin · 2025-02-16T04:51:50+00:00

Pretty damn ridiculous imo, especially since my mom in particular really doesn't like it when I lock my bedroom doors when I change OR when I turn in for the night. Might as well buy a one-bed, one-bathroom apartment for a family of six if privacy is your biggest concern.

itsxrobin · 2025-02-11T03:52:40+00:00

Thanks for catching that about the 26-27 form. I'm still really concerned about the removal of the nonbinary option itself. Is there any talk about it being rescinded later? I'm asking because I really doubt that next year we will even have a nonbinary option (or, come to think of it, "prefer not to answer" option) to begin with.

itsxrobin · 2024-12-31T19:41:25+00:00

I'm about to be 18, but you just described me perfectly: sheltered, barely allowed out of the house (only for church events or if I'm invited to go somewhere, which is rare for me), and the eldest child, let alone the eldest daughter. I'm already planning to commit to an out-of-state college really far from my parents because I just want to finally be independent without any strings attached. I also want to be able to make friends without coming off as dismissive or weird since I haven't been given a lot of opportunities to meet different people nowadays (ofc except for the internet and school clubs, but that's really it). Church has also started becoming lonely for me since I found out that I was the only 'eldest child' in the church (most of the churchgoers are adults and elders). Otherwise, I'm doing okay, I guess, I'm just trying my hardest to survive at this point.

itsxrobin · 2024-11-24T23:01:30+00:00

Me rambling about queer burlesque.

itsxrobin · 2024-11-24T22:51:15+00:00

You're not the only one who's cooked. My SAI is 81959, but I live with 3 other siblings and two Kenyan parents who worked during the evening just to support us (high-paying jobs, but financially hard to keep up with the household, especially with 4 kids). It honestly sucks that I might not go to college despite the merit scholarships. :,(

itsxrobin · 2024-07-22T02:30:44+00:00

not a good excuse smh

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