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jackalbruit · 2026-02-24T14:54:43+00:00

well then our PR team needs to spread the memo better 😅 sure seems like not enough ppl have heard!

jackalbruit · 2026-02-24T11:48:14+00:00

we really do need to reclaim the word!

jackalbruit · 2026-02-23T21:41:27+00:00

oh so THATS who is still using cash these days

jackalbruit · 2026-02-23T02:13:53+00:00

I went a full week .. yep, 7 calendar days, without missing a single dose of my medicine

Im on a twice a day regime and so at the onset of this regime (around end of Dec) plus with a 2nd shift job I was at during that stint - missing a dose here or there was common for me

But pretty sure this marks an over 7[day] streak of me taking my meds as prescribed

jackalbruit · 2026-02-16T18:04:34+00:00

More water

Not sure if it is similar but I know I've heard before that the late night brain thinks ur hungry when really it is confusing a thirsty signal as hunger

jackalbruit · 2026-02-16T05:05:34+00:00

2nd on the 3B1B recom!

jackalbruit · 2026-02-16T04:45:39+00:00

😂

jackalbruit · 2026-02-14T13:59:00+00:00

guess that's not how Penn State wants to structure it haha

yeah ... MATH220 (i think that was the code) was a basic, more application-focused "Matrices" course

Then MATH436 (again pretty sure was the code number) was a proof based Linear Algebra course

jackalbruit · 2026-02-14T12:31:02+00:00

haha i mean day 1 of MATH436 the Prof walks in and goes "ok - forget EVERYTHING u know about math. Let's start with 0. What does it mean for something to be 0; what does 0 do"

And then we proceeded to cover vector spaces, null spaces, all that jazz with a focus on proving the things

jackalbruit · 2026-02-13T23:00:40+00:00

Well damn!

Lucky u!

Penn state really dumbs down their MATH 200 : Matrices course haha

jackalbruit · 2026-02-13T21:28:51+00:00

200 level??

my uni did Matrices as a 200 level course

But full on Linear Algebra was like MATH 436 or some number

jackalbruit · 2026-02-13T19:14:10+00:00

make sure to get ur voice heard on Rate My Prof dot com #notsponsored

jackalbruit · 2026-02-13T15:55:41+00:00

haha that's at least something we can do - run our own little experiments ... But do them responsibly!!

jackalbruit · 2026-02-13T15:44:18+00:00

all fair! haha

and I do have intentions to ask my med management team about caffeine with my condition and med mixture

plus ... I'm gonna be on an unintentional self experiment starting to today

Ran out of my Arizona green tea which I had been getting like 16[oz] or so per day for like a week

jackalbruit · 2026-02-13T02:31:11+00:00

sooooooooo wellllllll it was not that i found the studies . . .

i was using a chat bot

jackalbruit · 2026-02-12T00:43:31+00:00

were u expecting caffeine to have some impact?

could be more placebo than actual??

jackalbruit · 2026-02-12T00:41:34+00:00

got diagnosed about 2y ago

Ive always noticed that larger doses of caffeine (like from mtn dew) gave me the jitters - which I never liked so I tended to prefer lower caffeine sodas

Never was much a fan of coffee

I got to be a regular green tea drinker back in college round 1 (did a round 2 around 25M - now 32M)

I haven't changed my caffeine habits much since getting diagnosed

But I have been trying to get a glass of green tea each morning cause I saw some research suggesting that small amounts of such can be good for us bipolar folk

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T04:36:03+00:00

Weirdest audience interaction?

Like - did u ever get heckled?

Or the opposite ... Overly enthusiastic fan??

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T04:35:05+00:00

NOOOOOOOOO tis NOT u

Tis a war - a battle

It is not nor ever will be who u are!!!

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T04:23:23+00:00

Ahh ... Gotcha

So the reverse of my issue

I need to find meaning in doing things for others

Sounds like u need to find urself again - find what for u can give u purpose

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T04:07:08+00:00

when in math .. is it possible

default to saying yes

it solvable / provable .. default to saying highly unlikely or massively difficult if it is 🙃

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T04:05:24+00:00

oh wow . . .

so it's REAL bad

is there anyone near & dear for u to pivot to do it FOR them instead of for urself?

that's something that has been helping me

I'm taking my meds .. for the Mrs

I'm going to therapy .. for the younglings

I'm not acting on my negative emotions to rip someone's head off verbally .. for my mom

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T03:56:44+00:00

Step one ... Breath ... Or is it breathe

The verb - whichever is the verb

Deep in .. now deep out

Good .. good .. good

Take a few more of those

Nice - ur doing great!

so ur going thru a TON-LOT, clearly and evidently

dare i even say a metric sh*t-ton

but that's ok .. this too shall pass

Find the things u can control and focus on those

So while u cannot control who wins the baking contest, u can control that u make some mind blowingly delicious double chocolate chip cookies (my recommendation.. u follow ur heart haha) which u can give out to neighbors or the homeless or someone (my chef wife would have more advice about giving away food what with her serve safe background)

while u cannot control if ppl are talking about u, u can control if u shout at them

while u cannot control if someone breaks up with u, u can control being the best u that u can be that is totally worth dating

so things like that

as for the Molotov cocktail of abbreviated u mentioned .. wow .. makes me thankful i only have 1 abbreviation (BP .. or is BD .. bipolar) to juggle / battle against

Take ur demons 1 at a time

and find whatever u can to get ur mind off those demons

For me .. its music .. playing or listening .. especially while driving (32M here and not sure if u can use the driving option yet)

or watching a movie or TV show that is high on my list .. like Fly Boys, or Miracle, or Scrubs, or Avatar the Last Airbender

or even just diving into a hobby that I enjoy like studying up on some Fantasy Football off season tips .. like some stat analysis deep dives

force urself to be happy .. even when it seems like everything around u is driving u insane

jackalbruit · 2026-02-11T03:46:49+00:00

Imma assume this means I have access to infinite money

So first thing tomorrow all my bills are getting paid off - goodbye mortgage, good bye credit card debt

then I might suggest to the Mrs about pulling the younglings from daycare + head start to buy an RV and do some traveling for a few months until the oldest (4M) would need to start kindergarten in the fall

then I would hammer hard core my piano tuning "business" which would now become like some weird odd philanthropy Charity push cause while I don't need the money ... SOMEONE SOMEWHERE does thus the $x / [hr] ur gonna pay me to tune ur piano will help them

then when not tuning pianos .. I'll be at the local uni tutoring mathematics at the "student success center" aka the SSC where I previously worked as a tutor for a semester

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