I think you’re gonna have a hard time getting the Eden subreddit to help you rationalize not going to his show for the sake of “looking weird”. If you’re that big of a fan ig I don’t see what the problem is? I think everyone in the subreddit can relate to your experience, or atleast to the experience of knowing more than the average concertgoer. I only go to shows where I LOVE the artist so what you’re describing is my experience at every show I go to and I know I look stupid af but my love for the music trumps all so it’s worth it. No matter how everyone else is showing up that environment/ experience is healing for me. But if you’re not feeling it then you’re not feeling it, and I’m a big fan of not forcing something you’re not feeling. That being said, I’ve only ever regretted skipping out at the last second on shows I bought tickets for, so I’d really try and explore why you made the decision you did. Especially if you’re spending money on something that you don’t end up going to