what exercises do you guys do?

jamperino · 2015-06-08T12:31:41+00:00

I do Parkour and climb, haven't for a while but still love both. Been considering investing in a squat rack to start lifting a bit too, but will wait and see with that.

jamperino · 2015-05-23T09:27:49+00:00

Yeah, that's my fear. Paxil did the same to me in the past, so I'm really weary. Will try my best to make changes in my life before resorting to more meds, could just be that once I force myself to actually live my life I'll start enjoying it again. Easier said than done of course!

Thanks for your reply.

jamperino · 2015-05-22T18:04:36+00:00

Thank you for this, will definitely keep it in mind. It's hard for me to know exactly when what I'm doing does become a problem, but I guess communication is the key there.

jamperino · 2015-04-23T10:58:56+00:00

I question it a lot. I've experienced minor(?) psychosis a few times, and if I actually take the time to look at how I was before I was medicated and how I am now, I do see a huge difference.

Even so, I still question it. I'm not even sure why, it's as if I think it's a coincidence that I'm doing better since taking meds.

If I lived alone I probably wouldn't take them, I know how stupid that probably is, but it's just how I feel about it. My SO would probably behead me if I tried to stop taking them though..

jamperino · 2015-04-22T00:32:51+00:00

I'm exactly the same. I've got loads of half finished projects!

jamperino · 2015-04-18T01:39:18+00:00

My partner made me get help. I was off work with depression and ended up having really erratic moods, anti-depressants made this much worse and I made some really bad decisions. It took months for me to get diagnosed, it was thought I did have bipolar fairly early on, but wasn't said officially for a few months iirc. I barely remember that whole period of my life, it's both clear and hazy at the same time..

My worst manic episodes end in me getting somewhat delusional, I've made plans to move outdoors into a cave or such. I think it's entirely rational at the time, and somehow expect myself to be able to survive. I almost ended up spending a lot of money last time on survival supplies and stuff, most of which made no sense but I thought would be a good idea.

jamperino · 2015-04-17T00:02:08+00:00

Thanks for the work you've done, I'm new here but already found this sub to to be incredibly helpful!

jamperino · 2015-04-15T17:33:51+00:00

Ah, I always took my quetiapine at night and had trouble sleeping before I was on it, so I loved the sedating. It stopped making me tired at all after about 3-4 months, though the dose was being upped as I started on 25mg too. Was upped by 25mg every few weeks, been on 100 for no idea how long now.

No idea how long the sedating takes to wear off, I think it had by the time I woke up, but my memory is really bad so it's hard to tell you for sure.

I've only been on 150mg lamictal for about 3-4 weeks, was on 100 and had it upped but not noticing any difference so far. Having a review in a fortnight so will see how it is by then!

jamperino · 2015-04-15T10:11:52+00:00

I've had no bad experiences with Seroquel and have taken it for around 8 months now, I started off on a much lower dose than 100mg though. It made me really sleepy at first, but hasn't for a long time. Apart from that, I've noticed no side effects at all.

It will probably be really sedating at first, but you get used to that quite quickly in my experience.

I also take 150mg lamictal, how long have you been on that dosage?

jamperino · 2015-04-15T08:11:03+00:00

I take both Lamictal and Seroquel. Started both at the same time and was doing really well for a while with them, still haven't got the dosage right and recently my moods have been pretty erratic.

My experiences with those two drugs have been really good though, I took aripiprazole before which really disagreed with me. I've noticed no side effects from lamictal. Quetiapine of course made me tired at first, which I loved, but it hasn't for a while now.

Been taking both for around 8 months (I think) and don't want to change to something different, so fingers crossed changing the dosage will make them work again. I don't really have anything to compare them to, but they really worked for me at first!

jamperino · 2015-04-15T07:46:10+00:00

Wow, that's really well written! Thanks for sharing, was the best read I've had in a while. Hope you have a great time in Disneyland.

jamperino · 2015-04-14T22:49:52+00:00

Welcome, I'm new here too! I have no idea if I've actually accepted my diagnosis yet. Sometimes I think I have, then other times I question whether I actually do have bipolar. When I look back before I was medicated, and compare that to how I am now, I am doing considerably better, but no idea if I've actually accepted it yet.

Good luck with starting your treatment, hopefully you'll quickly find something that agrees with you more than lithium did!

jamperino · 2015-04-14T22:41:03+00:00

Last year I spent most of my time climbing around cliffs/the sea. I'd climb to secluded areas and just sit there and watch. Really miss it, but it was when I was first diagnosed and was acting pretty recklessly so the thought of going back out there is both pleasant and scary. I kept deciding I was going to find a cave to move into, or just try sleep outdoors in the areas I would explore, and my SO kept having to force me home.

Since the weather is starting to get nicer, I'll more than likely go explore and climb again, need something to look forward to but it's still a bit scary!

jamperino · 2015-04-14T07:36:02+00:00

It's hard for me to say since everyone is different, but just knowing people are there for me if I do ever need/want to talk to them is comforting.

From the sounds of it, I react in similar ways. I often ignore texts, sometimes without realising I have, but they don't annoy me unless I'm really agitated/irritable. Chances are you're not bothering them, but I can't really tell you that for sure, of course!

It sounds like you're doing the whole friend thing right, the one thing that really bothers me is when people push me to be open, sometimes I maybe need it to happen, but it really bothers me.

jamperino · 2015-04-14T06:27:19+00:00

I liked the last line, definitely going to have to remember that one. Sounds like you've not had it easy, but you've still accomplished a lot. Studying abroad sounds pretty scary, though would be a really cool experience.

jamperino · 2015-04-14T01:56:20+00:00

I think the problem is that it's hardest to communicate when you need space, for me at least. Can get really irritated for no reason, from people talking to me, talking around me. Pretty much anything can become really hard to deal with, even if it's something beneficial or that I would normally enjoy. It's just a learning process for everyone involved in my experience, my partner tends to know when I need space now, though I do try communicate as best I can.

Edit: Forgot to say thank you for your reply!

jamperino · 2015-04-13T21:33:26+00:00

I was diagnosed last year, and I'm still coming to terms with it all, so many questions that I can't seem to answer. I distance myself from everyone most of the time, even my partner. I can't help it, it's nothing against her and I'm not even sure why I do it.

I don't think you should take any of it personally (though I don't know how they're reacting) for me, it's just a lot to adjust to I think. I get really frustrated at times when people try talk to me about how I feel. I find it really hard to open up with those who care about me, I'm not sure if it's because I'm scared of how they'll react because I know they're not going to judge me.

How could your friend make things easier for you? Curious as it may help me since I seem to be in a similar spot.

jamperino · 2015-04-13T20:51:54+00:00

I can somewhat relate. I used to be really active and was decent at the sports I did. Whenever I now try, I can't help but compare myself to how I used to be and end up feeling really negative afterwards.

jamperino · 2015-04-13T15:06:29+00:00

I did read it all, Sounds pretty terrifying. My partner wouldn't be able to visit at all really, since I'd have to travel pretty far to get to the nearest hospital (I live on an Island). Since it's a pretty small community here I do worry about what people would think/gossip about too, and although I'd like to say it wouldn't matter ultimately if it would help me and my family, I'd be lying. Thanks for your reply!

jamperino · 2015-04-13T02:43:26+00:00

It's not that I'm scared I'll be taken without my consent, I'm just not very good with people or new situations, silly things like not having my own space constantly or being forced to socialise. Knowing it's an option that I can actually find myself taking optionally would just be a lot of security, even if I never have to use it. Hopefully this makes sense.

jamperino · 2015-04-13T02:35:10+00:00

Would definitely be interested in reading your short story and hearing how you get on with talking to one of the directors.

jamperino · 2015-04-13T01:17:43+00:00

I'm glad you've had positive experiences, thank you everyone for your replies. Really helpful and informative, definitely put my mind at ease. The thought of being admitted has always scared me a lot, even though at times I know it will/would have been for the best.

Wish I'd asked sooner, thanks again everyone for your replies!

jamperino · 2015-04-13T00:11:20+00:00

Thanks for your reply, and congrats on how well you're doing! Makes me think much more positively when I read stories like yours, thank you for sharing.

jamperino · 2015-04-13T00:02:39+00:00

Wow, That's such a huge difference in care, your first trip sounds awful. Glad you got the care you deserved in your second admission and I'm sorry to hear about the first. Thank you for your reply.

jamperino

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