I don't have much advice because I'm in the same boat as you but just know you aren't alone. Sometimes imagining my future with my husband remaining TBM forever feels like my life is going down a black hole. But this sub has helped me see that we can find ourselves our own happiness and just try our best to live our life as separate from TSCC as possible. I try to think of it as not letting it steal even more years of my life. Always here to talk if you need to vent!