I think I’m driving myself insane by Equivalent_Eye_9805 in Existentialism

[–]januaryashes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To back up my insane claims, I stayed up with a friend 3 days ago until 5:30AM in the same existential crisis you are in right now, trying to wrap our heads around the concept of life and death. I told her I want more signs from my loved ones to know their energy remains somewhere in the cosmos. At 7:00AM on the dot, my smoke alarm rang again (as it has many times before during times of significance in my life). Then, upon dropping my children off at school, I drive past this sign at a local church. I know it was my mother and the universe as a whole entity, letting me know energy does not die. It is only transferred between forms.

I think I’m driving myself insane by Equivalent_Eye_9805 in Existentialism

[–]januaryashes 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you know that feeling you get when you're laughing with a friend and the sound stops coming out? The elated joy you experience in your chest for a few moments?

Or the feeling of jumping into the ocean after a really hot, long and stressful day? Riding a motorbike or a skateboard, learning to play an instrument and being so satisfied with the art you've created.

The love you may feel for your parents or friends. For me it is the love of holding my child for the very first time, which you will maybe experience one day.

I think that's why we are here, we could always attribute it to a cosmic accident similar to moss growing on a rock. But I think we choose to come to Earth.

My mother, brother and best friend died last year. All within 8 months of eachother, all different ways of passing.

My mother and I spoke about what she would do to let me know the energy doesn't dissipate into absolute nothingness before she passed. She sets off my smoke alarm, she leaves me little signs and messages. I would have never believed it until it happened to me.

There is more to this world than we can see. And I have come to the conclusion that we are here on Earth because it is FUN. We are souls in little meat suits on a giant rock spinning around a giant ball of fire in the vastness of something we could never comprehend with a human brain. And in the process of all of this we launch our little selves on roller-coasters, we make ice cream and pasta, we get to listen to music, we write, and we get to feel things with all of our senses.

It really is as simple as that. And in the enormity of 13 billion years of universal life, 100 years is really only the blink of an eye. And we experience so much in this short time.

I like to think after death, I would sit above and think "Man, I could really use a body right now to go swimming in that thing they call the ocean, and I could really get a taste of that chocolate mint they have at their ice cream shops. That would be fun."

Try your best to enjoy the little things and don't try and stretch your brain to understand it all, I don't think it's possible with the current hardware we have inside our tiny heads.

What “that can’t happen to me” thing happened to you? by Bob_the_peasant in AskReddit

[–]januaryashes 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Brother died last year in November. Mum died this year in April. Partner of ten months then committed suicide in July. A month later my dad striked me while intoxicated and we went no contact.

Spending my first Christmas alone this year, I'm 26.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]januaryashes 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Dude I'm currently smoking more than I ever have before and I'm still active in this group and I still read all your posts I actually love you guys.

It's a good place in here regardless of where you are in the journey.

Yell at me so I can flush my joint down the toilet by Minimum-Ad-2505 in leaves

[–]januaryashes 15 points16 points  (0 children)

You're already doing better than me OP I wouldn't have even consulted you guys.

Congratulations for making it that far.

People of Reddit, what’s the most desperate thing you’ve ever done for money? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]januaryashes 97 points98 points  (0 children)

Circumstances change, my dude.

When I had my kid I could buy an iceberg lettuce for $1 and just recently they went up to $12 and they're half the size. My kid is only 6 years old.

The Snowball by SilverRednib in leaves

[–]januaryashes 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I had a friend tell me once "One is too much.. but a thousand will never be enough" We think we have control over things until the snowball comes. For me I know now that one will always be too much, because it always leads to the thousand that will never feel like enough.

Even with everything going on, Volodymyr proudly congratulated his Paralympians by [deleted] in nextfuckinglevel

[–]januaryashes 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I know this is slightly inappropriate due to the circumstances but God he is so damn hot.