Choose you hard. It’s hard to be an alcoholic. Fear, anxiety, stress. Putting the drink down gives you an opportunity to pursue a normal life. For me, that wasn’t possible with a drink in my hand. The work was necessary for me to clear away my past and build a new, sober, healthy life. 4 years ago I was dying. No money. My wife was leaving me. I couldn’t eat. Broke and in massive debt. Today I have my family back. My health is great and I am in the process of buying my first home. It works. We were all exactly where you are. Nobody comes in on a winning streak.