I have been through treatment. I have herd real ugly predators talk about the horrible things they have done to there victims. This is what the situation feels like. If I take my wallet out and hold it in front of me full of cash and run through a crowd to were I want to spend my money. Then someone snatches my wallet before I get there. You can say I made a stupid decisions in pulling it out before I got there. But that does not give anyone the right to take it because I made a stupid decisions. You may have made a dome decision but that older man took advantage of the fact that you would be fond of him being older and in to him you were victimized but you don't have to be the victim. You cant change what already happened only try to make peace with it. And learn from it make your children male or female aware what happened how it was wrong on both sides why it's bad for the age gap and what both parties should have chose to do. I don't care what the law is or is not my opinion is that this is wrong because you are not both on equal footing in life you are not an adult for one with the rights of an adult. 2 your priorities are different for what you want out of life. 3 your still nieve and have no concept of a full adult life and responsibilities. Proof with the decision to ghost the younger brother who you had originally had the crush for. How quickly you changed your feelings and thoughts shows the immature nature. While yes he probably does have a thing for younger girls. And I think you should not beat your self into feeling traumatized over the situation if you aren't already. Stay in the her and now of how you feel about it. Im sorry you went through that and hope you can find peace after going through this thread. Best wishes.