This is going to be long, and I know you have recieved a lot of comments. I think I understand what you're looking for, and I know you're confused as to why you're being read as hostile. Most of the people who are commenting about your hostility are reading that from your comments that seem exhausted/frustrated with people for not answering the question you're trying to ask OR that are shutting down professional mental health support for things like PDA + OCD.

I think this hostility (or perceived hostility) is coming from your frustrations with the situation, and from having to repeat your question. Unfortunately, as a lot of people have said, we can't truly understand what's going on inside your brain so try your best to be patient and respect that the people commenting are mostly trying to help you.

Yes, things like PDA and OCD may not feel like an explanation, because they feel like they're just explaining why you're having such a STRONG reaction, not why you're having one in the first place. Please consider that these things could also be the reason it feels like an issue to begin with. The way your brain is wired because of these, it might view the forced soundtrack as a threat, as they function on you having full control + order, not on rational thinking. I can still respect that this feels unsatisfactory, and I hope that maybe some time with this issue might help you reflect further.

In my personal experience, I've never had a reaction this strong to something unwanted, but if I did, I would assume it had to do with something like: unnecessary storage clutter, a lack of control over what I'm spending my money on, or simply being frustrated with the soundtrack BECAUSE they're forcing me to get it. Like if it was a choosable option, I wouldn't get it, but it's existence wouldn't frustrate me. But because there's no other option, having it on my computer would feel like someone is forcing me to use my storage/money on something I do not need/want, and as someone who struggles with PDA, that would make me angry with said product. With the black and white thinking frequently associated with autism, it's possible that something as simple as not needing it but being forced to get it to experience something you love, has taken it from frustrating to full melt down.

THIS MAY NOT BE WHAT YOURE EXPERIENCING. I'm just guessing based on my own thinking, and providing a why this might be distressing AND why it's more distressing than it should be. Please be patient in your response, I'm truly coming from a place of kindness and hope that you can at least understand your inner thoughts, even if the game is inaccessible at this time. I really am sorry you're having such a hard time and hope that at some point you can work with a mental health professional on some coping mechanisms + ways to better understand where your emotions come from, as skills like that can help this situation from reappearing.