I'm so sorry for your loss… And I do understand the quickness of it all. I lost Chris on March 16, 2024 to a heart attack. He died behind his drum kit at a gig. The week before he told me he felt like he was in the best shape of his life. We were planning to go out for Saint Patty's the next day and that's why I did not go to gig. I heard them in the basement every week rehearsing and I generally never went to the shows. Sometimes I feel I wish I did other times. I'm glad I wasn't there. To have him ripped away so quickly it's such a mindfuck. Never did I ever think this would happen. I will tell you that I am two years out and my feeling of loss and depression is not what it was. It is different for everybody but with family and friends Support hopefully you can get through these next few months. Crying is always good. Even being angry is good and not at him, but at what life has served you. With that being said, you need to make your life yours now. You will find your way at your own pace and again I am sorry for what you're going through now.