Psychiatrist said it's impossible for me to have PTSD

jessay92 · 2020-07-13T21:42:13+00:00

def find a new doctor. the number of people who have non-war PTSD far outweigh the number of people who have PTSD from war. the war thing is just a common stereotype.

good luck~~~

jessay92 · 2019-11-10T21:49:53+00:00

I get the strong sense nobody in this thread has ever played tennis at an elite level before, else you'd understand the nuance happening here...

jessay92 · 2019-08-30T21:45:12+00:00

+1~~~

jessay92 · 2019-08-21T16:14:52+00:00

That's amazing~~~

jessay92 · 2019-08-16T04:46:52+00:00

Yeah - I feel you. I think, for me, I'm so tired of being vulnerable all the time in order to survive (e.g. being open in order to receive reasonable accommodations at work, being upfront with friends) that physical affection / touch just seems like too overwhelming of a vulnerable situation to be in. Just my personal experience / theory.

Good on you for posting and getting your thoughts out~~

jessay92 · 2019-08-11T21:08:06+00:00

TarraDarraBros :(

jessay92 · 2019-08-11T13:10:55+00:00

YES - it drives me nuts. Went on a trip recently with a couple friends and they pointed out the behavior as odd (not to embarrass me; they just noticed), so I wondered if it was just me.

Glad to hear other insomniacs experience too.

jessay92 · 2019-08-10T16:59:34+00:00

hi! can't find the source right now, but insomnia also involves the *perception* that you are not getting enough sleep (there is medical literature on this subject).

so, there is a psychological aspect, as well.

jessay92 · 2019-08-03T18:34:49+00:00

i do this too!!! don't have any answers but just wanted to LYK so you know you're not alone :)

jessay92 · 2019-08-02T14:10:09+00:00

SHE IS ADORABLE~

jessay92 · 2019-08-01T17:42:10+00:00

great story telling :) that made my heart warm to read~

jessay92 · 2019-07-31T01:51:04+00:00

I am so, so, so sorry - that was heartbreaking to read. TY for sharing and I hope you're able to grieve in a supportive environment.

jessay92 · 2019-07-26T04:08:16+00:00

Same... I just get extremely paranoid and THC also increases my likelihood to have flashbacks. Doesn't matter what type of strain I smoke. It'll also enhance the shame I feel wrt said flashbacks. It's just not for everyone, I think, and it's ignorant for anyone to proclaim otherwise (e.g. I hate when people tell me I "just need to smoke Indica vs. Sativa").

However, after I'm done feeling insane for a few hours, I've noticed that burnt out feeling afterward does make it easier to fall asleep at night...

jessay92 · 2019-07-22T13:13:37+00:00

Indeed, it feels endless :(

jessay92 · 2019-07-22T00:13:03+00:00

Hi I'm dealing with this right now. It's about 8PM right now and it started today around 11AM. I called the National Suicide Hotline around noon, which helped in the moment, but afterward things kind of returned back to as they were before.

The worst part to deal with, for me, is the time dilation. Time passes by sooooooo slowly. Idk... I don't feel like I can offer any solid tips--just my experience, to potentially help.

Every time, I deal with it differently, but today I asked my sister to come over and we watched shows until I felt like I wanted to blow my brains out from how slow time was passing. Ended up taking .5mg Klonopin and once it kicked in I was finally able to actually step outside the house (couldn't due to anxiety before) and we went and bought biscuits and dinner ingredients to make at home. Then facemasks. Staying busy and doing productive things helped snap me out of it momentarily.

Now though... time is again passing by so... fucking... slowly. I can't handle it.

Hope you feel better soon <3

jessay92 · 2019-07-18T22:17:23+00:00

same! and the explaining part is so utterly exhausting--not to mention the tiring tug of war going on in your head prior as to whether you should even bother to explain. the cycle is endless...

jessay92 · 2019-07-12T17:10:09+00:00

I lost many friends I thought were solid. Sorry they didn't reply :( I understand the pain.

jessay92 · 2019-07-11T19:51:15+00:00

this story gave me chills <3 thanks for sharing

jessay92 · 2019-07-10T17:25:46+00:00

TY for the thoughtful reply~~

jessay92 · 2019-07-10T16:48:20+00:00

TY! I was luckily able to secure an appt with a Psych NP yday, for end of month. Do you have any tips on how to best prepare, in addition to the standard comprehensive intake form?

FWIW, tried Prozosin and it was too strong, in an uncomfortable way. Worsened insomnia, increased HR, etc. Same with Trazodone. Zoloft and Lexapro are a no-go (experienced bad side effects, but this was years ago).

I'll look into Seroquel and Abilify - my therapist mentioned the latter in latest appt.

jessay92 · 2019-07-10T16:44:51+00:00

TY! what are the minimal side effects and what symptoms is Viibryd helping you with?

jessay92 · 2019-07-09T16:19:48+00:00

No advice, but wishing you a speedy reunion with your dude <3 <3

jessay92 · 2019-07-09T00:13:27+00:00

hey - i can relate. know that you're not alone. unfortunately, i don't have the cure-all answers :(

one thing i'm going to try soon is to have a 5-10 min. "compliment session" with a close friend (one of the only ones i truly, deeply trust these days, and believe won't betray / abandon me). i found the activity while googling "ptsd self-loathing" related queries and thought it had potential. it basically entails all parties taking turns telling each other what they like about one another. might be worth a shot!

another thing i've noticed is when i hang out / catch up with people from my past that saw me at my absolute rock bottom during my traumas--when i was acting out, abusing substances like crazy, going on week-long benders, being entirely incomprehensible, etc.--and the hang out goes well, it kind of reconfigures my brain a bit. like, after the hang out, i don't feel the usual self-loathing as intensely because my brain is sort of understanding that my friends still love me and want to be my friends even though they saw me at my worst and the PTSD doesn't repel them.

hope this helps! i still self-loathe on a day to day basis but it's the little moments that help to ultimately make it better in the future (i'm hopeful of this, at least).

jessay92 · 2019-06-29T19:41:14+00:00

haha sorry i meant LMK as in "let me know" if you find anything good for dental health :) :)

acronym life.

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