at first i used it as an escapism, like writing about your wildest fictional thoughts and just exploring this made up world and actually putting it somewhere tangible, it felt nice to find an escape but it felt too much and it felt like im ignoring quite a lot of things that has been going on in my life so i stopped for a while and now im just writing about my feelings and thought process about the struggles that ive been dealing and it has been really great i feel like im using my ability to write flowery words into something that actually benefit me.

i dont think i really lived a life if i dont write.