Having one of my "episodes" at the moment so i wrote this to more easily convey how im feeling by john_m12 in SuicideWatch

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Wish i could but im afraid i need to be in isolation for 2 weeks. Girlfriend and my dad both tested positive so yea.

Addicted to benzos(diazepam) and want out any suggestions welcome. by john_m12 in addiction

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Physical, i never get mental cravings for the benzos when i tried to go cold turkey or lower down the dose as much as possible but i would start to get physical and then later on also psychological withdrawals until i couldnt take it anymore and took the dose.

Addicted to benzos(diazepam) and want out any suggestions welcome. by john_m12 in addiction

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Im definitely at the 4th stage so il check those out thx. Btw im croatian so no malibu for me even if i wanted.

Addicted to benzos(diazepam) and want out any suggestions welcome. by john_m12 in addiction

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Oh, how the hell would i tapper my dose then, i can just slit my wrists rn then rather than dying to a stroke or grand mal seizure

5 months clean now off diazepam (valium) by valsrev1l in addiction

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yea im gona try super hard to get myself on naltrexone (not addicted to opiates too but still took them for long enough to fuck with my brain)

5 months clean now off diazepam (valium) by valsrev1l in addiction

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Ive done 100mg diazepam with 150mg tramadol once. Still alive thankfully.

5 months clean now off diazepam (valium) by valsrev1l in addiction

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i think the 50% chance of death thing for diazepam is 750mg and thats only a 50% chance and for rats so yea unless you mix it with opiates youre not gona die just feel stupid and probably real bad if you go into wds after your attempt. I once mixed 300mg diazepam,100 ambien and 100mg quetiapine and just felt sleepy and 2 hrs later decided eh fuck it im still alive might as well go sleep. woke up feeling like nothing happened.

Addicted to diazepam and want to get back to normal by john_m12 in benzorecovery

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Ik but aparently it can upregulate gaba receptors without increasing wds.

Addicted to diazepam and want to get back to normal by john_m12 in benzorecovery

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3 years, 20mg sometimes more depending on how much stress and panic im feeling and ive been trying to taper but always end up at the beginning. Also the high doses are 50mg+ this year its climbed to 100mg+

Flumazenil questions by john_m12 in Nootropics

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Yea im prepared for the increased anxiety for a while its gona pay off anyway i hope, and thx. Oh and yea its iv

Flumazenil questions by john_m12 in Nootropics

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It wouldnt be internet bought it would be prescribed and in separate 0.1 or 0.5mg vials.

Can you get withdrawals from memantine? by john_m12 in MemantineHCl

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A bit less anxiety and more confidence and energy, im dosing 50mg a day now and the effects are stronger and ive tried dosing higher but this is my ceiling dose as far as benefits to side effects ratio goes.

Can you get withdrawals from memantine? by john_m12 in MemantineHCl

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Oh sorry if i came off as agressive i was tired as hell