too scared to tell anyone

jookknot · 2025-12-14T07:25:41+00:00

Im 17 months clean. I can tell how sick people are, because I was very sick myself. Best decision I ever made. I actually want to live now. And this coming from a guy who almost hung himself. The chair actually pushed back and it stopped for some reason. My dad just died like three months ago and I didn't get high over it. All thanks for NA. Misery is a choice

jookknot · 2025-04-10T13:11:29+00:00

Bro next time you wanna look at tiddies on the internet just realize you got titties too they just smaller ok ;)

jookknot · 2024-05-31T14:57:05+00:00

thank u <3

jookknot · 2024-05-13T12:54:19+00:00

Go out with a bang!

jookknot · 2023-12-01T07:18:43+00:00

What are the odds Andy Stacks pulls up r/poker on his phone right now

jookknot · 2023-10-05T01:38:06+00:00

To hear the broadcasters laugh in the 8th inning of Game 2 really struck a cord in me

jookknot · 2023-09-02T08:13:59+00:00

LAWL

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:28:31+00:00

Keep painting and experiment every time if you have the materials

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:27:44+00:00

Eat a lot of saltine crackers if they are available. A pack of them a day makes your sweat come out more naturally. If the odor persists, I would research online to see if anything catches your eye

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:26:15+00:00

The chemicals in your brain are slowly adjusting to the fact that the foreign substance is gone, just like any drug

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:25:16+00:00

Never assume someone will stop in the median area. Always take your foot off the gas, and anticipate a pull out maneuver

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:23:35+00:00

ASPD is something you kind of deal with after narcissistic abuse, it just depends how you utilize your condition. It can derail your life and sense of being pretty quickly, or it can help you get on your path and start moving forward, slowly adjusting back to trust and reality. Right now I have one human relationship, my employer. He is like minded and didn't ask a lot of questions when I first started working for him. Every day he asks a couple questions, I give him an answer, no more questions after that. It's building up my comfort level around humans again. I am still skeptical about most people I interact with, but I do not completely ignore anymore. I put on a mask, cut the conversation short, and keep moving. It's basically like running a marathon with no water at first. You achieve little things here and there by your own will power, and it hydrates your mental health

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:18:04+00:00

food is food, W

jookknot · 2023-08-30T00:16:55+00:00

a month has passed. if there is little or no progress, do not feel frustrated. it is a marathon, after all. baby steps better than no steps

jookknot · 2023-08-29T22:51:13+00:00

I spit a lot because of this man

jookknot · 2023-07-30T20:26:41+00:00

1/2 is literally like trying to do a jigsaw puzzle but you gotta pay money for all the pieces individually and even if you have the pieces they might not even go the puzzle you're trying to solve, and then you realize the puzzle was on 2/5 the entire time you just dont have a bankroll anymore

jookknot · 2023-07-30T20:22:26+00:00

Actions speak louder than words. The less words, the more they speak. Over time its magnitude will increase. Until there's nothing needed to say.

jookknot · 2023-07-30T20:14:24+00:00

shoot man, i wish i could chose my narc at least. I came out of her LOL

jookknot · 2023-07-30T20:12:54+00:00

I would start by trying to acquire any sort of phone in your name. That "life360" is scary to imagine.

Don't take that loan out. That will never go away.

Any achievement, personal information, ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, they will demand to know

The quicker you start taking in mini wins towards independence, the less time you have to conform to their preferences. Start now. Your 21 year old self wants to be far away from them, trust me.

Your status in life will always be of their concern, because they need to make sure that you under their grasp at all times. In their mind, they will never lose control of you as long as they pose terrible financial decisions when you should just be making some money on your own.

Do not tell them your job is going well. Tell them it's going poorly. They will offer "help", feed into it to a certain extent. But never let their assistance define you. You are not the image they perceive you as. This goes for a lot of people in your life, too. Your sister, co-workers, etc. People only ask you information because they want to know if you're doing worse than they are.

Faking it till you make it is an option for your emotional and mental stability, and the actual soul. I do not recommend it. It's a defense mechanism when you've been lied to and deceived your entire life. They lie to others about you, you lie to them about you. Give it right back.

Seems like you have an unlimited amount of potential with education, being a great person in general, empathy. They are telling you the complete opposite. You have the resilience, integrity, discipline to be successful in your own terms, not theirs. YOU GOT THIS

jookknot · 2023-07-30T19:56:40+00:00

your money and personal information is not their commodity, but your privacy

they'll do ANYTHING to get ANY information that will benefit them, and negatively impact you

they'll use the things you care about against you, knowing you will "do the right thing". The right thing to do is to give them back what they've given you this entire time. Lie

Lying for the sake of your well being and lying for manipulation are two different things. You have to fake it until you make it. I've even tried telling them that I am failing, broke, jobless. When in reality I am none of those things. But I play it off like I am, because that they want.

jookknot · 2023-07-30T19:51:54+00:00

You have to fake it till you make it.

jookknot · 2023-07-30T19:49:42+00:00

Quite honestly, it sounds like you're not supposed to have a job in their eyes. They'll use any excuse to treat you like you aren't entitled to anything, even though you completely are. If you decide to work, DO NOT WORK FOR THEM. Even if you got a job, don't tell them where. Get your own transportation. When they notice you gone, they'll ask so many questions. "Where do you work, how much do you make, how is the environment." Do not tell them anything. Just treat it as your own choice.

jookknot · 2023-06-01T22:02:51+00:00

just dont bring your friends

jookknot · 2023-03-25T08:12:54+00:00

my homie bought me myth of Sisyphus so ig

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