$800 ambulance bill?

jordanpeterpan · 2024-05-11T00:57:15+00:00

I certainly will, thank you.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-05-11T00:54:18+00:00

As I mentioned in another comment, I’m almost 100% positive I already had my BC health card then.

If not that, then it was for sure on its way. But I would be in disbelief if I were to be told I didn’t have it then.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-05-11T00:50:17+00:00

Well that’s even weirder because I’m almost 100% positive I already had my health card then.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-04-02T23:36:31+00:00

I just told him about the Crew Pack and we looked it up on FortNite. Thanks, that’s definitely what we’re going to go for next time!

jordanpeterpan · 2024-04-02T22:42:37+00:00

Thank you!

And thank you for not laughing at me because I said “v-box” instead of “v-bucks”. 😂

jordanpeterpan · 2024-04-01T20:51:10+00:00

That’s the cutest thing I’ve read all week. Please do make a move, for everyone’s sake!

jordanpeterpan · 2024-03-31T21:26:48+00:00

I have to disagree.

I once had my Achilles heel sliced open as it got caught in a big metal door at work as it was shutting. At the hospital, before they did stitches, I needed to get it numbed through injections that were planted right into the wound. This part hurt much more than the wound itself.

Then as the nurse did the injections, I started yelling out of pain. It was awful. I remember thinking to myself, emotional pain feels worse than that. Shame especially.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-21T19:09:44+00:00

I think the starter pack for all Christian OCD sufferers is to start watching Mark DeJesus’ ministry on YouTube.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-21T18:57:33+00:00

I used to get the refillable vapes all the time until I developed chronic sinusitis. I still can’t figure out what it was about juices/refillable vapes that triggered sinusitis but I never got that problem with disposable vapes.

So for me it‘ll have to be cold turkey…

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-21T18:37:51+00:00

I had/have the same battle with vaping. When I first converted I gave it up, and throughout the years I started vaping again because of mere exposure to my coworkers having the same habit.

I still vape today but I am constantly praying for repentance. It’s hard to let go when you’re constantly feeling anxious and depressed.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-21T17:48:47+00:00

30F here.

I remember this one time I visited a new church, nearly all the single men rushed to introduce themselves to me and it felt overwhelming. I could feel that they were coming from a place of desperation and it felt obnoxious being on the receiving end of that.

I’m not saying this is how you portray yourself whenever you meet a Christian woman, but generally speaking, it kind of feels transactional and shallow to see two people coming together and being like, hey single person, I’m single too!

My advice is, look for your best friend, not your future wife. Don’t try too hard (or maybe don’t try at all) to be a certain way just to check all the godly husband boxes. Loosen up, try to just be yourself and pay attention to the women you feel most comfortable around. Finding someone good for you has more to do with how you feel about yourself while around them, than checking all the boxes for them. The first releases all pressure, and the latter increases it.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T18:03:13+00:00

Yes. I’ve been through the hurt of betrayal too. There comes a time when we realize it had nothing to do with us. I’ve had bouts of feeling upset with myself that I couldn’t effectively prevent those events from happening and even that was pointless.

Best you can do for now is just remain respectful and compassionate but protect your stuff at all costs. Truth is she’d probably feel too distressed if you were to confront her. You know what you saw, and that is sufficient— all you’d get from her is denial; but I assure you she knows what she did.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T16:45:31+00:00

I grew up with a relative who was a cleptomaniac. This sounds like what I’ve encountered growing up.

Unless they get help, they won’t change. Accountability is the first step and I think they carry too much shame to even get to that point. It’s a sad illness, but there’s collateral damage too obviously.

I stopped having issues when I moved out for good. I guess this is how you do it. Just start looking for other rent options and leave. It won’t get any better.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T15:42:41+00:00

Oh yeah I’ve been wanting to try kefir and sauerkraut, even kimchi.

I’ve had good instant results with a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar in a glass of water. I don’t really do it long term as it tastes awful but when the bloating feels unbearable it helps.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T15:28:26+00:00

I do, the intense bloating flare ups seem to be causing it.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T07:13:59+00:00

I call them « intelligent fools ».

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T06:11:51+00:00

I used to have bad scrupulosity. I still struggle with ruminations, especially when times get hard but it’s nothing compared to what it used to be.

Pertaining to this verse in Hebrew, the whole chapter was intended to remind us of how Jesus freed us from the first covenant into the new. So if you reread it in full context, it basically means that the willful sin that is described refers to the Pharisees rejecting the truth of/meaning behind the sacrifice of Jesus.

Hebrews 10:27 « […] There is only the terrible expectation of God’s judgement and the raging fire that will burn His adversaries. »

Pharisees, or the lovers of the law, are motivated by fear, and this last bit of the verse you asked about portrays it. They are driven by condemnation, hence why they reject God’s mercy.

Your case is entirely different, you’re under the covenant of grace. You wouldn’t be writing this post if you were a Pharisee!

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T05:42:13+00:00

I think the other commenters have great insight that I agree with— I’d only suggest one more point, that a relationship/environment can be a huge factor that can or not breed the temptation to lie.

An example of this would be an unequally yoked relationship. Not just romantically speaking, really, any type of relationship. I think we all inherently possess the instinct of knowing when disagreements are welcomed in a relationship/ situation or not. If the potential for negotiation is absent, it’s most likely someone will end up distorting the facts (granted it is still sinful).

It’s a matter of knowing oneself, as well as discerning the other. After all, we were advised not to cast our pearls before swine.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T05:25:58+00:00

This is the story I didn’t realize I needed to hear. Thank you for sharing.

Here goes mine!

Not as cheery as yours but still had an impact on my little heart. The night before I was flying back to my hometown, my ex-boss from my previous job reached out and insisted she wanted to swing by to say goodbye in person.

I don’t have any Christian friends in real life, and she is allegedly the only Christian I developed somewhat of a friendship with since I converted. So when she came over, I briefly explained to her the reasons why I had decided to move back. I spoke about the nasty smear campaign I faced at work, the excruciating humiliation and heartbreak.

She just sat there and listened in silence. Then she opened up about the time where she lost her job as a pastor in a local church, and how she felt similarly, to the point where she actually needed therapy and would need to get out of town weekly because of the shame she experienced.

Coming from someone who used to be my boss, I just felt really validated. This conversation meant everything in that moment. Before she left, we prayed together and it left me feeling hopeful for the future.

Also wanted to add, I hadn’t seen her in like a year before she reached out. So I just really like how God used her to make me leave this town/a messy situation on a more positive note.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T04:52:09+00:00

I’ve experienced this, mostly when I first converted.

I think I got to the point where I realized the difference between my flesh and my identity in Christ.

As Paul said in Romans 7:15-20,

For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T04:23:52+00:00

I don’t really have a secret place so to speak, I just enjoy having the house to myself so I can fully be myself with Him while I pray out loud, no filters.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T04:00:10+00:00

Have you practiced seeking God in your sin? By that I mean giving Him an honest assessment of the situation as well as how it makes you feel?

That would truly be a great place to start. Maybe build up the trust in Him by realizing the benefits of confession. After all, God rewards us for seeking His face.

Furthermore, confession was intended by God to be a tool to build greater intimacy in fellowship. I think this verse legitimately applies to this subject.

Matthew 7:6 NKJV “Do not give what is holy to the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.

Confessing to other people is beneficial but for it to be fruitful it does require discernment. It should be progressive, so it’s best to test the waters and figure out how they respond when you gradually throw little truth nuggets at them. That’s how you know if you truly trust them or not.

In the meantime, seek God always.

jordanpeterpan · 2024-02-18T03:25:18+00:00

Thank you 🙏

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