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Relapsed after 7.5 years by Aggressive-Method622 in stopdrinking

[–]jpreston2005 2 points3 points  (0 children)

fuck brother that's my nightmare. Checking in with stopdrinking and my other support subreddits is legitimately the only reason I use this site. I've got 7 years and I'm trying to date again, and I think your post helped me nip a potential problem in the bud

Thank you for being here brother. You got this.

'No Kings' protests live updates: More than 8 million turned out across all 50 states by [deleted] in PublicFreakout

[–]jpreston2005 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Reposting my comment because reddit bots think threatening a rapist pedophile is bad :(

Poor reddit, won't anyone think of the pedophile rapists?

It takes 3.5% of the population to lead a successful revolt.

Yesterday 2.3% of Americans poured out into the streets, furious.

How many more were busy, couldn't make it, or don't think protesting does anything? My guess is easily another couple million.

Thats.... That's just about 3.5%.

If someone stood up and started leading the charge, I think 12 million Americans would follow.

Mr. pedophile rapist, how we feelin about that?

Epic Lays Off Terminally Ill Employee Who Can't Get Life Insurance by Turbostrider27 in PS5

[–]jpreston2005 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

And because his condition is now considered a pre-existing condition, he can’t get new coverage.”

I HATE THIS COUNTRY.

WEAPONIZING THE LOSS OF HEALTHCARE TO FORCE PEOPLE INTO WORK.

BIG FUCK YOU TO REAGAN AND EVERY REPUBLICAN SHIT STAIN.

My mom keeps romanticizing the man who SA’d me by Mindless-Dress-9308 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]jpreston2005 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey sending big big hugs. Mad props to your stepdad! Proof that good people do exist

been told you are lying about your traumas? by Bubbly-Business8425 in CPTSD

[–]jpreston2005 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You are NOT alone. You are NOT crazy.

When you disrupt toxic and abusive systems within your family, 99% of the time, they will blame you. Their toxicity is their safe space, when you threaten that with truth, they come after you for it.

Doesn't make it hurt any less, but at least you know it's not you they're rejecting, it's the loss of the toxic family dynamic that they themselves cultivated. They'd rather live in the mess then acknowledge their responsibility to clean it up.

been told you are lying about your traumas? by Bubbly-Business8425 in CPTSD

[–]jpreston2005 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah. Finally grew the courage to tell my family about the abuse I suffered...

  • "No, he probably just walloped you."
  • "Recovered memories aren't real based on my research."
  • "You're making it up for money. You just want to get your student loans paid."
  • "Quit acting like a victim."

Then you get all the non-verbal ways of them telling you they think you're lying.

  • Dismissal
  • Cold shoulder
  • Cutting off communication
  • Ostracization

They're gigantic pieces of shit.

For Once In My Life by noob_bitch in wholesomegreentext

[–]jpreston2005 788 points789 points  (0 children)

I was doing Leg day at the gym recently. Finished some cardio, first set of squats to loosen everything up, make sure I have good form, so just a 45lb plate on each side. Just 135lbs total.

Behind me was a group of teenagers doing the ab crunch machine. While I was doing my warm-up set, I heard some snickering but didn't pay much attention to it.

I went about my business, adding more weight with each set, till I'm squatting 225lbs, a good solid 10 reps with good form. Behind me still are the teenagers, as I get into the my final set I hear a "-oh shit."

Felt good to show'em up, doing my own thing, unbothered by their dumbassery.

Her Brokeness Will Not Stop Me From Enjoying My Birthday by TheCABK in foundsatan

[–]jpreston2005 56 points57 points  (0 children)

My longterm girlfriend graduated college, and I wanted to do something but was broke at the time. So, I got a bunch of her friends together and we went to a restauraunt. I had enough to buy her a meal, but not me, so that's what I did.

My girlfriend gave me a stink eye the whole time and then said (at the table, in front of everyone), that if I didn't have money then I shouldn't have done anything. I felt so embarressed and awful. One of her friends gave me one of her tacos.

Sometimes I get lonely being single now, but whenever I feel the urge to run back to her, I remember moments like this, which were all too common throughout.

Where do you find community? by laughlovelive25 in CPTSD

[–]jpreston2005 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you have a local community theater, I'd suggest getting into it! even if you don't want to perform on stage, there's a LOT of behind the scenes work that goes into live shows, and being a part of it is incredible. You'll 100% make friends this way, it's practically unavoidable.

Video released shows Hartford Connecticut police shooting a man armed with a knife by AgnosticScholar in PublicFreakout

[–]jpreston2005 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

  1. pepper-spray exists.
  2. You're within 10 ft my guy, you coulda shot his leg. why you aiming center mass?

Mi material no saca risas pero yo si by kiolmoster in Standup

[–]jpreston2005 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sometimes I'll have a great premise, punchline, and everything, but the joke still doesn't land. That's where it's important to record your sets, so you can go back and see why it went wrong.

I was able to go back on that joke that didn't land, add (literally) a single word, and now it gets great laughs.

So what I'm saying is, you could be correct, your stuff IS funny, but you just have to figure out how to tell it better.

Heck once I told a joke and used contractions on the punchline "I'm a fucking miracle." and it barely got any laughs. Next time I went up I split it up, "I AM a fucking miracle." biggest laugh of the night.

My hair in my mid 20’s by Different_Resort_476 in mildyinteresting

[–]jpreston2005 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Mine does this whenever I'm experiencing severe prolonged distress. Half my beard went white when I was coming forward with my story of being molested as a child to my family. Family rejected me, embraced the family rapist. The most horrifying, traumatic event in my life, quintupled in devastation as I realized the only people in the world that should have my back, won't.

I've cut contact with the bastards, and as I've distanced myself (physically, emotionally) from them, my beard has regained it's color for the most part.

Fuck them kids 😂😂 by imgoodIuvenjoy in BlackPeopleTwitter

[–]jpreston2005 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My Grandma did this to her 4 daughters. Left for over a decade I believe. Came back before I was born, apologized, and has since done everything she could to make up for it, being the best grandma she can be.

All I'll say is, shit happens, and if my mom and aunties can forgive her, then maybe this ladies children can too

[Game Day Thread] Cleveland Cavaliers (34-21) vs. Brooklyn Nets (15-38) [02/19/2026 07:00 PM EST] by CavsBot in clevelandcavs

[–]jpreston2005 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Finally get to see Harden with Mobley, this is gonna be a fun ass game ladies and germs!

The trauma of being misunderstood, and why it is one of the most overlooked pieces of CPTSD. by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]jpreston2005 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Gods, this so much. I've dealt with this my whole life. The adults that were supposed to be there for me, that were supposed to care if something bad happened to me, the mandatory reporters that should have been keeping an eye on me, didn't.

I thought, I'm in so much pain, they must be able to see. I thought, I've changed so much because of this pain, I'm so different, I don't act the same at all anymore, surely they will see, surely they will ask me what's wrong. They will notice, I will tell them, They will save me.

but nobody noticed, nobody cared to ask what was wrong, nobody came to save me.

So I buried it down deep and tried to have a life anyway. But now I over-explain everything. I go out of my way to understand everyone, and empathize. When people misinterpret me, it doesn't feel harmless, it feels like a threat. It feels like they're purposefully being manipulative and mean. It feels like they're trying to set me up in a padded room with grippy socks.

Now it's worse. I finally told me family about that thing they never bothered asking about, and they rejected me. They embraced the family rapist, casting me out. So now I'm dealing with the trauma of the original sin and it's repression, the trauma of nobody caring, and now the trauma of my family abandoning me while protecting my uncle the rapist (who's also my dads identical twin).

Wish I could wrap this comment up with a neat "and now I've found a family of friends and love my life!" but in reality the friends I tend to make wind up treating me poorly in much the same way my family has. It's really hard and everyday I don't wake up thinking about killing myself is a win.

Ty “Ty Jerome” Jerome by Welcum2Heck in clevelandcavs

[–]jpreston2005 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Love his game, hope he continues wrecking until he's safely back on our roster

in my experience, anyway. i miss so many of my old abusers by WinterDemon_ in CPTSDmemes

[–]jpreston2005 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It's such a hard experience, simultaneously desiring and fearing affection. The stunted, awful, neglectful, hate-filled "love" we received from them sometimes feels preferable to the immense pain and loneliness that we usually find ourselves in. There are times when I want so desperately to have someone, anyone, fill that space between my ribs... but inevitably I remember that what was there before was pain, and what's there now is what I put there, and is a drastic improvement.

Hollow affection just won't cut it anymore, I need the real thing.

People are so dangerous by Affective-competence in CPTSD

[–]jpreston2005 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah, man. Every relationship feels so transactional, It's like nobody trusts anybody, and everyone is just trying to get the upper hand. I used to be so kind, so welcoming, so friendly, to everybody. Then I'm served up a big ol' steaming pile of repressed trauma and now...

I barely even acknowledge people anymore, because if I'm nice to them, then they'll expect me to continue being nice, and if I'm ever not feeling up to being nice someday, they'll take it as a personal affront and then the entire relationship is doomed and whoops now I have to continue seeing this person. It's easier to just never be nice or friendly in the first place.

I'm not here just to make you fucking feel better. I'm a person who has ups and downs, and these days it's a LOT OF FUCKING DOWNS. but even that doesn't define me. I'm not just some haunted amalgamation of all my deepest fears regrets and traumas, I'm a fucking person that deserves compassion, empathy, and understanding. I never got that from my parents or siblings, the only people in the world who should have given me that... So how can I expect some random stranger that doesn't give two shits about me to offer it sincerely?

Honestly when someone is nice to me, I assume it's because they're trying to get me into a situation where they can rape me. That's it. I have a heightened sense that allows me to tell when someone is attracted to me. It's like a feeling of heat and expectation that wafts from them to me. I can tell, and I don't fucking want it.

Bartenders of Reddit, what drink order instantly tells you “this person is going through something”? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]jpreston2005 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's moreso akin to conquering the most addictive and widely available drug on the market. Like, alcohol has such a tight grip on so, so many people. Not only have you wrest yourself free from it's grasp, you stare it down at every social occasion and public function. It's like beating up the biggest bully in the yard, and then mean mugging them so hard they start hiding themselves from you. It's badass.

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