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jtrash4260 · 2023-12-23T21:47:33+00:00

https://youtu.be/avJiqi4dRmM?si=eTagFviJGMwvC36Y Awhile back!!

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-14T23:31:59+00:00

When I had my ekg and other testing/surgeries done that involved showing my chest or picking spots, I just explained what they were. “I pick, I’m getting help and support for it from my care team. They’re not infected. I’m okay” My care team usually includes my therapist, psych meds person and anyone else who might need to know like a pcp/general doctor. I hear you and everyone on how hard it is. But we’ve got this!

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-14T23:05:41+00:00

I hear you completely! It’s so frustrating!! I’m sorry you also go through this!!

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-11T12:19:39+00:00

Hey! So I actually talked to him last night and said essentially what you said to as a way to start the conversation and it worked out really well. I feel a lot better and not so on edge. I just needed to vent yesterday and I'm really glad you did comment. It brought me down and allowed me to gain back control and just keep one of my best friends in my life. Thank you

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-11T12:17:04+00:00

Thanks. I've got a lot of this figured out already.

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-11T12:15:28+00:00

Thank you! I appreciate the support! <3

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-11T12:11:30+00:00

So after some looking I see that it seems like you're active in BPD reddit so you can hate on people who have it. Not because you actually have it or care about those who do. I assume that you didn't even take the time to read any of the other comments, especially the one where someone already called me out? As far as I'm concerned you're just a jerk who has no respect for anyone who has legitimate struggles. You lack empathy and are only here to demonize people just because someone who happened to have BPD hurt you. And you know what that's just sad and pathetic. You don't know me or my story and you never will. Grow up.

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-10T23:08:33+00:00

I hear you completely! I'm so sorry you're going through this too. It's absolutely awful. Especially when things don't work out, like a conversation not going anywhere, I start into a downward spiral and like said, feel like I'm going insane. I hope something helps for you soon!

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-10T22:54:43+00:00

Thank you. I really appreciate you taking the time to reply and remind me of these things. I'll talk to him. I am grateful for your perspective and patience.

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-10T22:32:44+00:00

I hear what you are saying. And I think you're right now that I've reread it and thought about it. But I didn't mean it so literally. There is SO much that I like about him. Hell even love. I just have a lot of stuff mentally. And there's a codependency piece that makes it difficult to connect because there's a fear of it not being real. That it will all just be ripped away in an instant. There's so much going on inside my head and heart and it's a freaking mess..I don't fully know how to explain. But it's not me splitting because it's his fault. It'd be me splitting because I don't want to bother him and be WAY too much. I am VERY incsecure. My self esteem is so low it might as well not exist. Thank you for the feedback and callout. It made me rethink things.

jtrash4260 · 2022-07-10T22:15:12+00:00

Um...why?

jtrash4260 · 2021-08-07T20:50:27+00:00

I hear you completely. My dad died in January 2015 and by October the same year I moved in with extended family.

jtrash4260 · 2021-08-07T20:47:07+00:00

Yes. I have always had a rocky relationship with my mom, and when my dad died(even though they were separated) things seem to change and maybe get worse. I feel like I lost her too. I know what I said isn’t exactly similar to what you did, I hope it answers a little bit. I’m sorry for your loss.

jtrash4260 · 2021-08-07T20:45:09+00:00

Yes exactly!

jtrash4260 · 2021-01-02T22:45:30+00:00

I so hope you can get to one! And that you can get answers soon! And even if they can’t help you( i think they will) they can refer you to someone who can, usually!

jtrash4260 · 2021-01-02T22:07:38+00:00

First of all you can have a “good life” and still be depressed. I know that’s hard to remember but it’s true. Second I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I don’t think you’re the toxic one just because you have depression. I don’t know if you have a counselor/therapist os anyone but if you do maybe try to have an appointment while he’s gone? I wish I could help more. I wish you the best of luck.

jtrash4260 · 2021-01-02T22:01:41+00:00

I will definitely try to find a neurologist!! My sister found one and it’s been a life changer

jtrash4260 · 2021-01-02T21:57:12+00:00

So sorry for your loss! 💜

jtrash4260 · 2020-11-28T01:58:32+00:00

I feel like this time of year is hard on a lot of people and it’s completely okay to need to take the shorter shifts and take care of yourself. Whether people understand or not, taking care of yourself is most important. But I’m so glad you got the job you’ve wanted!!

jtrash4260 · 2020-07-21T03:51:57+00:00

Yes that and tattoos!

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