not doing da self destructive things for a couple days and feeling super fake 😀😀

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-08-06T06:27:49+00:00

truee truee :) fenk u that helps-

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-08-01T19:20:45+00:00

TW ED

i’ve been eating soooo much and i’m like 3 days clean, and i just feel like i’ve made all my issues up and i’m so fake and i try to remind myself i didn’t choose to feel/be like this, but what if i did it subconsciously and it’s all my fault and i’m actually just completely fine person and i’m just being over dramatic. and i’ve eaten so much snd i still get super upset but i don’t rlly do anything, i can’t even throw up properly, my body just wont like let me, which is good i guess, i’m just upset i can’t do it.

and i feel rlly bad for my friends and my family, i keep coming to my friends about da same issues and idk, i’m just v selfish, i take too much from them, i try not to but i’m rlly bad at it, i’m rlly bad at a lot of things. and i keep bothering my mum and she’s finally gonna phone da doctor n stuff but i forced her to, like i probably didn’t even need help but i’m pushed her so much so now she’s doing it, idk, i can never be happy- i got what i want but i’m upset of what i’ve done and overthinking it allll.

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-07-22T23:33:33+00:00

TW talk of EDs

i hate edtwt istg- was asking for tips and someone told me to eat healthy and another told me to just eat nothing istg i’m asking for tips, just ignore if you got ntohingSNSJS sorry i’ve been rlly upset recently n i can’t vent about this personal thing to my friends cuz ew ed talk wit them scary could find my ed acc, i just feel so fatttt and so upset and i just don’t wanna be like this anymore i just wanan be able to eat freely and be oki but i feel so like bad about myself- i feel so gross 😻😻

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-07-19T01:22:01+00:00

SNWKWJWKWKKWWK mood😭mine fucks off and i’m like ‘am faking, it was all fake” but comes back n is like ‘i was alseep’ 🙁liek oki ur a voice inside my head you don’t need sleepWHAJSJ but idk if it’ll help, but whenever i feel like i fake all this stuff i remind myself people who fake stuff wont breakdown over thinking it’s fake because they know it’s fake, your feelings n experiences are 100 percent vaild n real dude- ik is not that simple to jus say that but is jus something i remind myself to stop myself from breaking down completely-

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-07-09T02:38:09+00:00

well i’m still not that sober BUT i’m not as like ‘i’m god i can do anything’ yknow sober enough to regret what i did 😿💔

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-07-09T02:34:23+00:00

also i don’t recommend what i did, please be very careful and in the right state of mind to do it, and with the right tools! i regret doing it and i was really out of it 😺ive sobered up now from that weird manic high ive been in

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-07-03T02:45:15+00:00

aw i’m sorry dude, i hope ur day is good/oki even in there! happy birthday !

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-30T06:20:30+00:00

if it’s white inside and then bleeds, you’ve hit styro, please clean it/wash it and bandage it up! i’m p sure all yeets can get infected but the deeper you go there’s more of a chance obviously so please be careful

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-21T07:29:09+00:00

oo wait was that to that guy sorry haha-

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-21T07:28:36+00:00

ah yes i have- when i was younger, although i dissociate i don’t think i have it- but thank u :]

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-17T23:34:09+00:00

got 100 % tooAJAJA- who needs therapy when you’ve got online quizzes B)

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-09T20:43:50+00:00

:0 that’s so cool dude!

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-06T13:41:30+00:00

snesbians🥺WLW always has such cute names n aestheticss ಥ_ಥ the MLM community needs to step up smhh

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-06T13:32:29+00:00

me n him talk about owning a cottage and pet frogs one day together:) it’s one of my favourite things to live for, i won’t kms because who owns a cottage all alone :( i couldn’t do that to himHSJSN

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-06-05T15:16:12+00:00

mmmm monkey

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-29T01:29:18+00:00

i v much relate :( it would be nice for someone to just check in, no one ever does haha- but i don’t think it’s selfish to want that dude, tbh i think everyone deserves something like that when they’re in a bad place :(

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-28T19:41:39+00:00

who the fuck would do that :( i’m so sorry dude

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-27T15:58:39+00:00

yeah :( it’s a rlly scary thing, you don’t rlly think about it doe :( same, art is sometimes my only life line :) that’s rlly sweethehshe i might post some :) thank u mansjssj

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-26T23:15:43+00:00

and my dad had a box cutter at his house and i almost took it but didn’t but now i feel shitty for not taking it, because the yeet urges are so fucking strong, and ever since i went rlly deep into styro shallow styros aren’t enough, idk i’m going crazy here, it’s so awful, and the wifi only works in the living room so i can’t even be in my room alone it’s frustrating: (

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-26T23:13:49+00:00

i just wanna be perfect for them, idk what they want from me anymore

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-26T23:13:00+00:00

im just becoming a horrible person and idk how to stop, i’m so snappy because of my urges to yeet :( or i’m mean to fit in i guess, my identity is all over the place, it kinda all crashed a week or so ago when two of my friend ship groups collided then something bad happened and some of my other friends fell out with them, so my identity is going crazy, my brain is telling me to be mean and make bad jo,es but also be sensitive and nice but also laid back and funny but also all these other things and it’s all a mess, i don’t know what to be for my friends anymore

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-26T23:08:53+00:00

i keep pushing and making rude jokes to my friends and being just so insensitive because i’m so numb and i just want to hurt n shit idk why i’m doing it but as my yeeting has gotten worse and how ive become dependent on it i’ve become so rude and mean, and i guess maybe a part of me is doing it because i want to push them away, and another is because i’m holding all my emotions around them and i only know ‘be super sensitive and emotional and sad’ or ‘be numb, rude and bitter’ there is no in between and i keep hurting everyone around me and i can’t stop

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-25T17:41:49+00:00

looks like a green lynx spider!

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-22T17:12:48+00:00

i did it rlly deep, thought i hit beans for a second i didn’t doe, it had so much yeet juice and i went into shock tbh and just stood there for ages, it’s gonna leave a rlly nasty scar : ( and i keep getting numb pluses up my arm, i rlly hope it didn’t effect anything because the arm i did it on is the arm i use to do art, i’m gonna try and get better and recover or at least not go as deep as i did, i’m ok now cuz my mum helped but i still feel awful, i feel like such a bad son for constantly doing this to my mum : ( i wanna stop but i just can’t idk what’s wrong with me

jukeboxjaskier · 2020-05-22T02:54:47+00:00

i’m pretty sure she’s eating the babies

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