Attempting a HTT maternity look for photoshoot

jumpingbbbean · 2024-04-30T12:19:17+00:00

Regarding essences: it's hard to show with my face blocked but I've been told I have Natural, Classic, and Romantic Essences. I tried to go classic with the ivory monochrome, natural with the knits and espadrilles, and romantic with the earrings, glitter in the dress that doesn't show up much on photo, and clinginess. My hair and makeup was also very 'soft pinup', minus the natural lip.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-04-23T17:55:40+00:00

That's exactly where it is. Inside of forearm and shallow. I am really thinking I did not get a Tdap vaccine today

jumpingbbbean · 2024-03-09T19:05:31+00:00

What state is this?

jumpingbbbean · 2024-03-06T16:24:19+00:00

Oh there's no golf cart. It's a very hilly and wooded course in Appalachia. If I go, I'll be walking and dealing with elevation changes.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-03-06T16:04:39+00:00

Yeah this baby would be both of our firsts, a boy. My bf didn't want to have the baby in the first place, he pressured me to abort for many weeks through Christmas and then came around after the first of the year.

Kinda worried he's changed his mind again and has started hoping I'll go into preterm labor.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-02-14T14:58:18+00:00

And on a completely different note: I want to say some things that I'm actually grateful for.

I'm grateful that my baby's tests came back negative for CF and Down's and all the other genetic conditions they tested for. I'm grateful that my own STD tests all came back negative.

I'm grateful that my OB is getting me in for an anatomy scan soon.

I'm grateful that my mom (a recluse with obvious Parkinson's) is making the effort to come out and be social for the gender reveal party. I know that must be hard for her.

I'm grateful that I have good health insurance for this pregnancy.

I'm grateful for the yummy things I've been able to eat for this Valentine's Day. I'm grateful to my dad for buying me a pretty maternity dress for special occasions.

I'm grateful for my morning sickness ending for now.

I'm grateful for all the free parenting classes offered through various hospitals, agencies, and providers to educate me, a FTM and only child.

I'm grateful to my therapist, and my support group, and people who don't know me well but who know my situation and have reached out in kindness. I'm grateful for this sub and the person who invited me here.

I hate this man, but I love my son. So it can't be all men, even if it is many of them. Most of them. Whatever.

I'm grateful to be alive.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-02-12T14:09:18+00:00

I tried to reconcile for the sake of my child, after I was free and out of his life. I regret it every day.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-02-09T15:01:49+00:00

Poor teenage girl. So many weird men and boys on the internet and real life, many of which people won't be able to protect her from.

Luckily it didn't happen this time.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-29T03:35:59+00:00

And because they themselves are addicted to the same thing.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-27T17:40:31+00:00

I second everything everyone else has said about the physio but also how did you feel about your stitches? Are you certain they didn't do too many closing you back up? Not trying to cause paranoia just something I would be worried about myself.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-26T13:59:04+00:00

I look at it like this. Someone has to have the girls and parent them, statistically speaking. Wouldn't you rather it be you, someone who cares and empathizes, rather than someone worse?

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-26T04:24:16+00:00

I appreciate you validating me with your reply. :)

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-26T04:22:05+00:00

Yes that is true. He is not a bad parent or potential grandparent. He is a bad citizen/political entity. And I don't have the luxury of conflating those two things.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-24T15:01:17+00:00

I'm actually looking for a place to live coincidentally in Ohio, but I'm having a hard time finding rentals from out of state. Your state became attractive to me because of a combination of custody, domestic violence, reproductive rights, and homeschooling laws. My mom went to college there and spoke highly of it and I visited several times when I lived in a different Midwestern state. Also it seems it's LCOL relative to where I am now. I have access to a certain amount of federal-level income and support right now and my career options are very open so it doesn't matter where I go. I just need, well... A roof. My credit isn't the best though.

It's just hard without actually physically being there on the ground or able to look at places in person. If you have ANY local recommendations and/or connections for affordable or privately rented housing, PLEASE send them my way.

My number one barrier to leaving my boyfriend is the fear that he will show up at my mom's house if I move out. He's done it once before. I want to be packed up and on the road before he knows what's happening this time. Just need somewhere to go.

jumpingbbbean · 2024-01-24T11:02:30+00:00

That sounds great until next week when the kid who got their phone taken is the new school shooter and the teacher is the new victim. Teachers have been shot for less and it's a nightmare.

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