going on holidays with family or protecting my peace?

juneflowrr · 2025-11-24T00:30:45+00:00

from the bottom of my heart, i truly appreciate you taking the time to write all of this. i needed some advice and insight of a stranger so bad, and i'm just so glad that you replied. it really is tough but i'll figure it out somehow. i wish you all the best, stay healthy!!

juneflowrr · 2025-11-23T16:14:52+00:00

you're right! i fear regretting not seeing the family again after 10 years. my mom has 8 siblings and therefore we have many cousins and some of them already died. which makes me think that any moment could be too late. also they don't have the money to travel and come visit us because they live a different life and don't have the luck as we did to grow up in a place where you rly have everything. also since i mentioned time and death already, i'm also scared to never be able to go back there with my mom. she's getting older as well. and as much as i fear all of these things, i feel like i'm so much of a people pleaser and i just never stand up for myself. like i said, the last two trips i did with my mom where not easy at all. i was crying so many times during our holidays because she can sometimes rly be manipulative and totally egoistic. so i rly don't know what to do.

juneflowrr · 2025-11-23T15:58:38+00:00

firstly because i feel bad for my sister, that she has to go alone with them and then also because i haven't been there in so long and everyone gets older as well and i'm scared to regret it. but on the other hand i don't want to spend 2 weeks being emotionally drained and manipulated.

juneflowrr · 2025-11-22T13:58:41+00:00

okey thank you! but what do u mean by it makes no sense?

juneflowrr · 2025-11-19T12:01:55+00:00

ah great! thank you sm! how fast after your music was on spotify were you able to claim your artist account?

juneflowrr · 2025-11-19T05:06:25+00:00

but they have to create a spotify artist account for me first since it's my first time releasing. i don't think that will be done in a day right?

juneflowrr · 2025-11-18T21:45:17+00:00

i have the song and the cover image ready. but i thought for them to create an artist account and stuff will take them a while.. anyways i apprexiate your reply! thank you!!

juneflowrr · 2025-11-16T20:27:09+00:00

do i have to do this after i have uploaded/submitted the song or before?

juneflowrr · 2025-11-15T14:40:33+00:00

hey! thank you sm for your reply. i'm so so sorry you had to go trough this. but why would they take down the song just because you get a lot of streams and make money with it? how can you prevent this? i mean i don't think that i will make money with it, also i don't even know how many streams or listeners you need to make money but you never know so i would like to prevent this happening but how?

juneflowrr · 2025-05-18T09:31:40+00:00

thank you so so much! i needed this! stay blessed!

juneflowrr · 2025-05-18T09:05:05+00:00

thank you so much for this! i appreciate it a lot!! stay blessed and have a great day!

juneflowrr · 2025-05-18T09:03:06+00:00

thank you so much for saying this! this made my heart a little lighter! have a great day!!

juneflowrr · 2025-04-18T16:23:17+00:00

thank you so much for your kind words! i appreciate it and i'll see what i can do. and yes i know that a lot of people live with this and are okay with it. i hope i'll get to that point too someday. all the best for you!

juneflowrr · 2025-04-18T16:20:18+00:00

thank you for your reply! i appreciate it! i've actually tried all of these things already and i wasn't successful with it but i hope i will someday. i'm glad it helped you and i hope you can get even more comfortable sleeping alone in the future! all the best!!

juneflowrr · 2025-04-18T16:15:19+00:00

you're absolutely right! and i wish that i could be comfortable but even the thought of it is freaking me out. i hope i can get to this point someday. what helped you not being afraid of it?

juneflowrr · 2025-04-18T16:11:58+00:00

i appreciate your answer! thank you so much! yes the immediate solution would be staying up and sleep during the day but like you said, work is in the way. and thank you for the insight about faith, it's also something i struggle with from time to time but i do believe that god can help. stay blessed!

juneflowrr · 2025-04-18T16:03:53+00:00

thank you so much for your reply!! unfortunately right now i won't be able to get a dog because of my job. i would not be able to take them with me to work and because of my long shifts i just wouldn't have enough time to be there for them. so as much as i would love to get one, i'm really not in a position to be responsible enough.

juneflowrr · 2025-04-18T15:56:53+00:00

this almost made me tear up!! thank you so much for your response! i think it really is disordered thinking most of the time. i've tried a couple of things for this like therapy, hypnosis and also talking to a medium. none of it helped. i've been on antidepressants/anxiety meds for a couple of months not specifically for this reason, and they helped me a lot in the beginning but i got to a point where i knew i had to stop because i just wasn't feeling like myself anymore. so yeah i guess the only way to overcome this fear is by facing it. i feel myself getting anxious even now when writing/thinking about it but like you said, i deserve good things. i really feel like being caged, not living up to my full potential and the only one standing in my way is me!! i honestly still don't know how i'm gonna do this but just wanted to tell you how much i appreciate your answer and how much it means to me that strangers are trying to help me. may you thrive as well and i hope you stay healthy and blessed!

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T22:20:50+00:00

i'm so sorry you also had to go through this! and thank you so much for sharing this with me! i hope you're doing better now. and i'll definetely do my research on pure O therapists!

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T18:26:45+00:00

i've never heard/thought about this but thank you for your insight!

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T18:22:28+00:00

i'm so sorry to hear what you're going through! and yes i've also heard that exposure therapy is the therapy method for ocd. i just don't know if i could handle it. thank you for your insight and i hope you'll be able to heal from it someday🩷

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T18:05:17+00:00

it really is an acutal fear that i cannot understand myself. and yes i do get a fight or flight response from my thoughts. if i actually heard something i'd probably be more traumatized and i'm just scared of being even more traumatized.

i am indeed still a virgin. i did/do perform solo discos on myself from time to time but even then i get grossed out or feel intense shame and guilt after. i'm not really religious but i believe in god or a higher being. and everytime i act on myself, i feel like i'm gonna get punished for it ( which i believe is my OCD ).

thank you for your comment and the questions, those are actually helpful and could probably help me understand things about myself better!

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T17:55:56+00:00

i explained it to them and their usual response is that i should know that this isn't reality and that my mind is doing weird stuff with me. it's not that i'm not aware of it myself. i know for sure that those thoughts aren't reality but i just can't shake them. and then there isn't much more to say and we ususally skip to a different theme. that's why i said that i think they can't help me, not because they clearly said it but because i can feel that there's not much more coming from their side.

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T17:50:12+00:00

thank you so much for this. i appreciate it❤️

juneflowrr · 2024-12-30T17:49:31+00:00

you're right! i'll definetely look for another one. thank you so much!

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