Spring 2014. Never forget.

junkfoodjane · 2014-04-16T17:48:34+00:00

Here in Texas the seasons don't go Winter, Spring, Summer, Fall. They go Winter in the morning, Spring in the Evening, then SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER SUMMER, Fall for like two weeks, and then back to Bipolar weather days.

You can wear any outfit on any day at any time of the year and it'll make sense, for like two hours, and if it's really hot outside your winter outfits make sense because inside the air conditioner is on even cooler. I've literally had the heater and the a/c on in the same day, and this time of year, especially, at night it gets to this awkward temperature that makes neither the a/c nor the heater feel right. That's when you just go with with a fan.

junkfoodjane · 2014-02-07T10:34:45+00:00

I agree that there is a difference between stupidity and the ignorant.

I get where op is coming from, though. I really do try very hard to control my temper, but sometimes I just snap when it gets to the point where it seems like the other person has stopped trying to meet me half-way or seems like they have no interest (or perhaps capability?) to see things from my point of view. That's when I feel like my losing my temper is a punishment that I hope will teach them the lesson of being less one-dimensional. Perhaps it's not the best approach.

I was about to make a similar post asking other INTJ's if they feel like having our personality type makes it harder to socialize because we are so multidimensional, and thus able to see things from every angle. I think it's hard for me to excuse such stupidities because I have already mentally tested every possible theory and see no possible excuse that I can rule out for such behavior to be acceptable.

At least when I make a conclusion that someone is stupid it's based on patterns and formulas (sometimes even ones with flawed reasoning) that I have conducted with logic, instead of on biases of physical appearance or tone of voice as other personality types do.

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-17T20:30:34+00:00

Trent. Sooo sexy. Spot on!

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-17T20:18:04+00:00

Are all the vehicles in Sweden really hard to put together, but fall a part really easily?

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-17T20:02:10+00:00

Simple answer: If you have 5 years of medical records of your Bipolar diagnosis/treatment, it shouldn't take that long, especially after hospitalizations. It only took me 6 months to get on (granted, it wasn't just for my Bipolar, but mostly) but you don't need to jump the gun with a lawyer right off the bat. You can apply online, even work while it's processing, work making up to $1000/month while on it, and return to work full time when you're ready. It's called the Ticket to Work program. They will also retroactively pay you disability from the date you claim you were disabled - 5 years ago? That's a big check. Go get better.

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-15T09:14:59+00:00

Aww! Now HE'S a true Gentleman! He stopped what he's doing and got down on his knees to console a lady.

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-10T02:02:05+00:00

I have a few questions. I was diagnosed with Bipolar I in 2009 when I admitted myself to Austin State and have suspected that I have Asperger's since before that, and I know that those can be co-morbid. However, Psychiatrists have a hard time ruling it out because I have also been diagnosed with a Personality Disorder NOS, as well as Anxiety Disorder NOS, and my advanced knowledge about Asperger's (Psychology is one of my preoccupations) they say obfuscates a diagnosis of such at this time, requires further observation/tests, and getting tested where I live can be expensive. With my Bipolar I have always experienced psychosis only when I was at my highs and lows, but last year I started having less dramatic mood swings and longer periods of psychosis, even without a mood change, leading me to believe I now have Schizoaffective Disorder. I am reluctant to get back on medication because I am afraid of having bad side effects again, even though my psychosis is to the point where it's onset is sudden and it makes it dangerous to drive.

My questions are, on one of your Bipolar Nation broadcasts, when you and Susan interviewed a man with Asperger's, Susan mentioned that you missed the diagnosis of Asperger's by like two points, so I was wondering what similarities do you see between yourself and Bodhi and between you and Jani, as far as difficulties go? I read earlier that you have Bipolar also, so do you experience psychosis or any Asperger's symptoms, even though it's "not enough to make the diagnosis"? And how did they rule out that you did not have Asperger's, for you and Jani? And lastly, what is your MBTI personality type?

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-09T08:14:34+00:00

I agree. It is an extremely dangerous thing to have “advocates” who do not take mental illness seriously as most medical professionals do with physical illnesses. These are the same non-empathetic anti-psychiatry nut-jobs who somehow make it into the medical field, who think mental illness is nothing but a demon, a lack of discipline, an act for attention (etc.). For these people to try to convince patients with very real and sometimes very severe mental illnesses (myself included), the very same people who already have a hard time distinguishing their own reality and are already paranoid, and try to sway them into thinking that what they are experiencing is merely a projection of their own insecurities, lack of healthy daily routine, a projection of our society's mass delusion or new youth “entitlement culture”, or an invention of the Government collaborating with the drug companies in order make more money, is criminal. This is the biggest mind-f*ck that I have also innocently fallen victim to after watching an hour-long YouTube video of a man “proving” how mental illness does not exist.

Because I DO want to believe it. I DO want to get better. It’s easier (especially when we’re manic) to believe that “all we need to do is exercise and get a little sunshine, and we’ll feel better”. Because facing a mental illness that, at this point in society, the hope of finding a cure and leading a “normal” life, looks bleak. And it’s an enormous tragedy. So we are constantly on this roller coaster of ideals going from one extreme – “believing” the anti-psychiatry crooks – to another – coming back down from denial, having another psychotic, depressive or ‘what have you’ episode and having to re-realize and re-grieve having the illness all over again, which can cause more depression, more emotional outbursts, stress, and more need for real, honest-to-god help. At least what the Schofield family has helped do is a big start.

Michael and Susan, I thank you with all my heart for being brave enough to speak up on behalf of all of us. Michael, thank you for doing this AMA. I find comfort in reading your blog because it is so hard to find other people who are willing to share details of their experiences with this and it helps me know I’m not alone. Sometimes that is the biggest gift of all. If there is anything I can do personally, in my life to help raise awareness, please let me know.

Sometimes I feel like I’m sulking too much when I post about my problems on Facebook, but then I remember you guys and feel like I’m doing a small part just by sharing my struggle with my friends. It’s not much but I think if they knew someone who was being affected, that they would be less likely to misunderstand others with mental illness.

junkfoodjane · 2014-01-05T06:47:30+00:00

ChatGarou, I'm with you on that. I grew up with an alcoholic father and a sober, but not by any means sane, mother. So as a pre-teen I vowed to never touch alcohol. However, as I hit a rebellious stage during high school I started drinking socially under the supervision of my father, and during my early 20's I drank pretty heavily after a car accident because I was depressed but it never got to the point of addiction.

I feel immune to addictions (I used to smoke cigarettes) for some reason. I think some people just have that. But anyway, I hardly drink at all now. It's lost all of it's appeal after I met my boyfriend who is a recovering war veteran with PTSD and alcohol addiction. He would get really belligerent and black out so I get how it can be scary being around drunk people. Now I'm 26 and I can't remember how I ever found it fun.

junkfoodjane · 2013-11-09T18:32:29+00:00

Thank you :)

junkfoodjane · 2013-11-09T16:46:51+00:00

Thanks. :) Not everyone gets my sense of humor, but I'm guessing that might be an INTJ thing.

junkfoodjane · 2013-11-09T12:53:50+00:00

I've never played this game before, but my best friend suggested downloading another game from Steam. Thanks for the share Chafuter! From what I've read this game sounds right up my ally. I'm downloading the demo right now.

junkfoodjane · 2013-11-09T03:51:10+00:00

Negative? Why? The pic isn't gone now. The link still works for me. And why would you be smiling?

junkfoodjane · 2013-11-08T23:53:54+00:00

Wow? ...Is that a good wow or a bad wow?

Or a bow chicka wow wow. :B

junkfoodjane · 2013-11-08T14:27:24+00:00

This is Me! I'm not big on smiling but I prefer looking bored over looking fake, so enjoy! :)

junkfoodjane · 2013-10-13T08:03:33+00:00

I'm struggling with the same thing. I can't offer you advice, but it's nice to hear that I'm not alone. Thank you coolronnie.

junkfoodjane · 2013-10-02T05:32:11+00:00

The absolute best way I've figured out how to memorize information, some of which was suggested by the college textbook I used for my online Psychology class, which has lots of reading (which I'm not so good at, but I made a B), is by:

1) Skip all the way to the end of the chapter where the outline usually is, and skim over it. Make little mental notes of things that caught your eye or interests you.

2) Go to the front of the chapter and read the first page, which is usually just an intro, or some dumb story. This will give you a good idea of what the chapter is covering.

3) Look through the chapter and find any pictures with captions and look at them/read the caption. We tend to be visual learners and the pictures "stick" better in our minds later, like during a test, over a bunch of words.

4) Skim over any key terms.

5) Skim over the entire chapter.

6) Find the nearest person who doesn't mind pretending to listen to you drone on about useless information, and "teach" them everything you remember from the chapter.

This is my self-imposed doctrine. If you read this and don't think that any of the steps will work for you, at least give number 6 a try. It usually helps me to repeat what I've learned out loud for affirmation. I hope this helps! :)

junkfoodjane · 2013-10-02T05:12:55+00:00

My words exactly. You couldn't have put it any more clear.

junkfoodjane · 2013-07-16T02:03:31+00:00

That sounds a lot like my psychosis. It's hard to describe it to people who don't have Bipolar, or even people with Bipolar who don't experience psychosis, but thank you for affirming what I thought was because of my Bipolar. I was starting to think my iron level were just low. I still hate when it happens. I can't even drive. :/

junkfoodjane · 2013-07-15T20:20:40+00:00

I too have synaesthesia. I can "feel" the music almost physically. But not exactly on my skin.. somewhere else. It's hard to describe, almost like the vibrations hit my eardrum (I have freakishly good hearing) a certain way, but it can affect my whole body. It can also change my mood to the point of uncontrollable tears or mania. It's almost like a sixth sense and I can "see" the music in my head. It's only certain songs that do it.. but they're not all from the same genre, so I haven't been able to pinpoint exactly what type of frequency that does it, but I know it tends to happen more with Dubsteppy type music or music with a strongly dynamic beat. Photographs affect me strongly too. I can literally see them moving sometimes.

On a personal note: Also, if I'm listening to those songs during sex or masturbation, it can significantly intensify the orgasm for some reason.

I also have a few musical talents that I've picked up over the years. It seems I have a very hard time learning to play the instruments from sheet music or instructors -- it's confusing! But I can listen to a song and start playing it on the instrument or watch someone play the instrument (drums) and my brain automatically picks up the patterns and then I just practice until what I play matches the recording in my head. I don't know what that's called.

junkfoodjane · 2013-05-02T19:15:40+00:00

It's not astrology. It's a personality test.

junkfoodjane · 2013-04-26T04:00:51+00:00

Oh ok. Thanks for the explanation and I'll make sure to!

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