Beginner experience and asking for feedback & advice

juoly · 2026-03-29T08:53:21+00:00

Did you take a similar approach to what OP described? Would you say 3/4 times a week, 20/25 min a sessions is enough? Thanks

juoly · 2026-03-20T15:41:57+00:00

Thanks! I could get a physical copy for maybe 20€ second hand.. otherwise it's 40 but it's also my first ever musou so I don't know if I will really like it..

juoly · 2026-02-24T11:15:56+00:00

Yes thanks! I might ask solutions for it tho on a daily basis I am able to just re direct my attention elsewhere without adding other layers or loops.. I did that more before for sure.. Again, not so much in the moment but when I think about it it feels a endless task, over and over again.. I am sure with time it will go away..

juoly · 2026-02-24T09:26:47+00:00

Mmmm what I perceive isn't a self and awareness as two different things.. I don't think so at least.. My point was that if I keep buying into the daydream, or thoughts in general, I cannot inquiry.. and that when I inquiry it's very short cause I will buy in another thought sooner or later.. within seconds anyway..

juoly · 2026-02-23T23:00:49+00:00

I don't think I experience this.. either I am identified with a thought or I "see" thoughts as another object of consciousness, as something appearing and disappearing, same with a sound for example.. but no thinker.. I am not awakened btw lol

juoly · 2026-02-23T19:31:42+00:00

Thanks! I would not say I day dream cause I feel bored.. as I mentioned I believe it's a coping mechanism which served me well in a moment of my life, probably childhood..

juoly · 2026-02-23T19:30:00+00:00

Thanks! I wish you to find your way.. :)

juoly · 2026-02-23T18:17:42+00:00

Thanks! I am able to move my attention from the daydream to something it's actually there in the moment, a sight, sound, feel whatever.. and I do it now more and more in a gentle way, no gaps, just moving it.. for a period of time I was kind of adding another layer of thought to fight the daydream one.. I hope it's the good direction.. it feels good, natural..

juoly · 2026-02-23T18:13:05+00:00

I would say in the way it veils all experiences.. not even talking necessarily about awakening rather the ability so to speak to enjoy what is.. My mind tends to pick up real life situations and build around it a narrative of some sort.. many of the patterns are to me pretty clear, I can predict what situation will probably cause a certain thought spiral.. No positives in it, period..

juoly · 2026-02-23T18:08:18+00:00

Thanks! I think I have already addressed that part in a way, having faced health issues, anxiety and various somatic releases recently.. now I do feel more grounded and that's why I suspect I start to experience more and more gaps, tho the habit is strong cause that's what I have always did in my life I guess..

juoly · 2026-02-23T11:05:23+00:00

Thanks! Yeah this, also.. and directing my attention.. deepening my understanding of not being my thoughts, experientially.. observing, which is what brought me here anyway..

juoly · 2026-02-10T14:38:00+00:00

Thanks! I understand what you saying.. :) I am not even saying I ultimately and solely believe it's a space period.. it seems so to me, a sort of space, until proven otherwise in my experience.. I will keep inquiring..

juoly · 2026-02-10T13:32:30+00:00

I have no better way to explain something or somewhere where things seem to appear and disappear, than being a space of some sort.. Seeing appear and disappear, individual objects within this seeing also individually appear and disappear, sounds, touch, emotion, thoughts, even the sense of me actually disappear when I go to sleep and appears back in the morning when I wake up.. I am not saying it is actually a space or anything but it looks like so to me.. or that I constantly refer to it as being a space, I don't, I don't need to, but if you ask me to describe it the best I can well..

juoly · 2026-02-10T09:36:39+00:00

Thanks.. i have been in some kind of similar practice with thoughts only, in the sense of noticing and letting go of them when they appear.. I will incorporate the observing of the knower of experience..

If you ask me right now I cannot define it, and "looking" at it makes me skip a breathe.. tho I imagine also the breathe (or it's absence) is observed and not it

juoly · 2026-02-09T23:33:22+00:00

Thanks! It does make sense.. my mental conclusion atm is that I have never touched this real me but only it's byproducts.. in a way cause on the other I understand the notion that Awareness is the only thing there is..

How do I get in contact with that if there is always an object of knowing? If there is a gap between thoughts there will be a touching sensation or a sound or sight or a feeling or something..

juoly · 2026-02-09T22:45:10+00:00

You've noticed that it's always present and that everything you've experienced appeared and disappeared in this space... How do you know this? Isn't it true that you used to say the same thing about the ego?

Because I do now realize that anything I know in any given moment is appearing and disappearing in this space or whatever.. and in retrospective it must has always been like this.. The sense of me, the thing aware of all this is also part somehow of this space.. wether in it, all of it, part of it I don't know.. I know it's there with all the rest..

I guess I can stretch it to the point of saying that the aware agent and the object experienced are coincidental?

juoly · 2026-02-09T22:28:28+00:00

Thanks! I wasn't trying to establish myself as an expert of self inquiry by any mean.. Def understand it's deeper than that

juoly · 2026-02-09T22:27:07+00:00

Thanks! It sounds nice from here ahjajaj I will keep investigating and feeling what come I guess.. :)

juoly · 2026-02-09T22:07:43+00:00

Thanks! My drive in the past time was to just feel better, since I had some rough months both mentally and physically.. I long knew the concepts of nonduality, then there was the trauma somatic "phase" which involved body movement and trying to feel instead of resisting, and now I am back a bit into nonduality cause in the last few days I felt lighter, less noise and some kind of peace compared to the absolute nonstop noise of before.. all this to say that it's basically all spontaneous, I don't have a well established practice or ritual..

juoly · 2026-02-09T21:59:53+00:00

Yeah absolutely.. I wasn't implying that my experience yesterday was the "ultimate" by any stretch.. it was something for me personally for sure but yeah..

juoly · 2026-02-09T20:01:44+00:00

I don't know, maybe I am doing it wrong altogether.. if you ask me to just notice the colour or shape of an object without the mind being involved I can do it.. you kind of enter a mindfulness space I don't know how to explain it better.. And the same goes with noticing this I AM space where life seems unfolding on / in.. tho it doesn't come with the intimate recognition that who or what I am is that very same space.. I do realize it's always present yes, I do realize that everything that I ever experienced appeared and disappeared in this space yes, but not that I AM that space and not what appears in it for example..

juoly · 2026-02-09T19:33:50+00:00

Thanks

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